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I (F20 I hope) have been having these thoughts about being a trans man. It started 3 months ago when I suddenly saw a trans person coming out in social media. It made me think: am I trans? Is that why I have always felt so different compared to other girls?

I started to analyze, research and think this theme 24/7. It has gotten to the point that I actually feel like I wanna be a man now. I feel like I wanna be a man and be with a woman. I feel like I am maybe envious when I see hot men dating hot women. Envious to the men.

Everything I do makes me feel like I am a man. Every gesture, thing I say etc. I just feel masculine and I hate that feeling. Which is funny cause my appearance is very feminine…

I have these intrusive thoughts about cutting my hair/wearing mens clothing. But I won’t do it cause I am scared that I would like it…

I broke up 6 months ago with my ex who I adored very much. He is so muscular, handsome and masculine. I loved how small and feminine I looked with him. But now I feel like maybe I adored him because I wanted to BE him and not WITH him?

I am so scared that this is the truth about me. Everytime I see hot men I feel like I am envious. I have never wanted to be a man before. Or maybe I have been in denial? Idk anymore…

I just cry and panic all the time… I don’t want this to be true. I am so scared that I will never be happy as a woman again.

I (F20 I hope) have been having these thoughts about being a trans man. It started 3 months ago when I suddenly saw a trans person coming out in social media. It made me think: am I trans? Is that why I have always felt so different compared to other girls?

I started to analyze, research and think this theme 24/7. It has gotten to the point that I actually feel like I wanna be a man now. I feel like I wanna be a man and be with a woman. I feel like I am maybe envious when I see hot men dating hot women. Envious to the men.

Everything I do makes me feel like I am a man. Every gesture, thing I say etc. I just feel masculine and I hate that feeling. Which is funny cause my appearance is very feminine…

I have these intrusive thoughts about cutting my hair/wearing mens clothing. But I won’t do it cause I am scared that I would like it…

I broke up 6 months ago with my ex who I adored very much. He is so muscular, handsome and masculine. I loved how small and feminine I looked with him. But now I feel like maybe I adored him because I wanted to BE him and not WITH him?

I am so scared that this is the truth about me. Everytime I see hot men I feel like I am envious. I have never wanted to be a man before. Or maybe I have been in denial? Idk anymore…

I just cry and panic all the time… I don’t want this to be true. I am so scared that I will never be happy as a woman again.

I (F20) feel so sick in my stomach every day. I feel like I wanna rip my skin off. I feel disgusted by everything about life, about me and everything I do. I feel so so disgusted and nauseous to just exist.

How could I relief this anxiety? I am already in therapy btw.

I (F20) feel so sick in my stomach every day. I feel like I wanna rip my skin off. I feel disgusted by everything about life, about me and everything I do. I feel so so disgusted and nauseous to just exist.

How could I relief this anxiety? I am already in therapy btw.

My mom makes sexual comments about my body like ”I would have been glad If I had had an ass like you when I was younger” or if I wear tight clothes that show off my curves and men look at me when I am in public with my mom she goes like ”at this point you are asking for it” she claims that these are just jokes. And she says that ”they are allowed to look”. And I can see that she feels very proud when she notices some men are checking me out. I feel digusted if I’m trying on some clothes and she tells me to turn around cause I can feel she’s looking at my ass. And after this she has this big smile on her face cause my ass looks ”so good”.

This has made me disgusted to be around her and by my feminine features. I like to wear tight feminine clothes but I am so anxious around her cause I’m scared that she is looking at me sexually.

Am I overreacting?

Despise this she is a great and supportive mother. Very kind.

My mom makes sexual comments about my body like ”I would have been glad If I had had an ass like you when I was younger” or if I wear tight clothes that show off my curves and men look at me when I am in public with my mom she goes like ”at this point you are asking for it” she claims that these are just jokes. And she says that ”they are allowed to look”. And I can see that she feels very proud when she notices some men are checking me out. I feel digusted if I’m trying on some clothes and she tells me to turn around cause I can feel she’s looking at my ass. And after this she has this big smile on her face cause my ass looks ”so good”.

This has made me disgusted to be around her and by my feminine features. I like to wear tight feminine clothes but I am so anxious around her cause I’m scared that she is looking at me sexually.

Am I overreacting?

Despise this she is a great and supportive mother. Very kind.

I (F20) have suddenly started to feel uncomfortable, disgusting and weird about having breasts to the point that I have started to question my gender identity. This started after some sort of ”sexual trauma” (I was not abused, but I was in a relationship where I got objectified and sexualized all the time and I did every sexual thing he would ask for cause I was scared of losing him).

I just feel hyperaware of them. And it feels disgusting and weird to have 2 fat lumps hanging on my chest. This sexualized part. It feels disgusting and weird to the point that I just want to get rid of them. FYI I have small breast so it’s not about them being painful or anything. I just feel disgusted when I feel them moving or see them. My mind keeps playing these moments where my ex touched my breasts. I was extremely uncomfortable but I gave him consent anyways.

Idk cause this be caused by that relationship or should I maybe question my gender? I have felt this way for couple months now. Before that I haven’t been uncomfortable about my breasts.

I have been spiriling about this and I can’t get a piece in my mind. I am anxious and nauseous 24/7 and also depressed. I have so many questions but biggest of them all is: how can I know my gender identity for sure? How can I know I am female enough? How can I know if I even am a female? (Biologically I obviously am but I mean the identity part).

I have always been very feminine: loved my hourglass figure, makeup, dresses, heels etc. But my mind keeps telling me ”maybe you have just liked those things because you have wanted male validation. But maybe that’s not REAL you” or ”maybe that’s what you are into but that’s not what you wanna look like” (I’m bisexual). And I’m just so sad. It feels like my whole female identity has been a lie. And that this feeling of disgust about my breasts HAS to mean something about my gender.

I know that you guys aren’t therapists but I was hoping to hear some similar experiences. And yes I’m seeing a therapist.

I (F20) was in my first serious relationship for 1,5 years. We broke up 6 months ago, but no contact started 2 months ago.

Lets just say that in that relationship I did very extreme and ”wild” sexual acts that were against my values. I said ”yes” to sex all the time, whenever he wanted. I always did what he wanted. He never forced me, I always said yes although deep down I was screaming ”no!”

I did what he wanted all the time: even though I was tired. He was very sexual abd objectified me ALL the time. He sexualized my body multiple times a day. I showed off my body on facetime dozen times and he masturbated. Intercourse hurt me sometimes but I just kept my mouth shut. I tried to give him hints like ”I am so tired” but he just kept saying ”head would be nice..” and tried to push my head down. I admit that I made myself look like I am into it even though I wasn’t.

All this cause I was scared of losing him or him watching porn instead of me. I started to also objectify myself. I was sexual all the time and if sometimes (this was very rare) he wasn’t into it, I was spiraling and convinced that he had watched porn. I know I am pathetic and insecure but the thought of him getting off to other women made me crazy sad…

We continued the sexual things for 4months after the break up. I was already nauseous around him but I was craving validation so much.

After all of this has caused me to feel gross abd wrong in my body. I have even questioned my gender for couple months know since I have started to feel gross about my ”female parts”. I feel so gross in my skin I just wanna rip it off and not be alive anymore. I feel gross about any close relationships: even relationship between me and my mother has started to feel gross for no reason.

Has anyone experienced anything like this?

I (F20) was in my first serious relationship for 1,5 years. We broke up 6 months ago, but no contact started 2 months ago.

Lets just say that in that relationship I did very extreme and ”wild” sexual acts that were against my values. I said ”yes” to sex all the time, whenever he wanted. I always did what he wanted. He never forced me, I always said yes although deep down I was screaming ”no!”

I did what he wanted all the time: even though I was tired. He was very sexual abd objectified me ALL the time. He sexualized my body multiple times a day. I showed off my body on facetime dozen times and he masturbated. Intercourse hurt me sometimes but I just kept my mouth shut. I tried to give him hints like ”I am so tired” but he just kept saying ”head would be nice..” and tried to push my head down. I admit that I made myself look like I am into it even though I wasn’t.

All this cause I was scared of losing him or him watching porn instead of me. I started to also objectify myself. I was sexual all the time and if sometimes (this was very rare) he wasn’t into it, I was spiraling and convinced that he had watched porn. I know I am pathetic and insecure but the thought of him getting off to other women made me crazy sad…

We continued the sexual things for 4months after the break up. I was already nauseous around him but I was craving validation so much.

After all of this has caused me to feel gross abd wrong in my body. I have even questioned my gender for couple months know since I have started to feel gross about my ”female parts”. I feel so gross in my skin I just wanna rip it off and not be alive anymore. I feel gross about any close relationships: even relationship between me and my mother has started to feel gross for no reason.

Has anyone experienced anything like this?

I can’t do this anymore. I’ve been analyzing my gender for 3 months now. I am so tired. I feel like I don’t wanna be any gender. I just wanna exist. I feel like I need to transition and that I will never be happy as a female again. I feel dissociated from my body. I am so nauseous and anxious that I wanna rip my skin off. I feel almost certain that I am a transman. I just don’t wanna do anything about it!

I feel anxious when she says something like ”You are lucky to have such an ass. I didn’t have one when I was your age” or ”If I saw someone who has body like you I would stare at them for a very long time”

I feel like she constantly objectifies me. It makes me feel uncomfortable. Sometimes when I tell her that some guys have catcalled me and I show what I was wearing she says ”with tight clothes and bodyshape like that you are asking for it”. She laughs and says this as a joke. I know that she is not a harasser or anything. She thinks that it’s ok to compliment my body in a sexual way cause she is my mother. Besides this she is very kind and wonderful mother. I like to wear tightfitting clothes but these comments just make me wanna hide my body when I am going over her place.

I have started to feel disgusted about my curvers and feminine body because of this. Am I overreacting?

I feel anxious when she says something like ”You are lucky to have such an ass. I didn’t have one when I was your age” or ”If I saw someone who has body like you I would stare at them for a very long time”

I feel like she constantly objectifies me. It makes me feel uncomfortable. Sometimes when I tell her that some guys have catcalled me and I show what I was wearing she says ”with tight clothes and bodyshape like that you are asking for it”. She laughs and says this as a joke. I know that she is not a harasser or anything. She thinks that it’s ok to compliment my body in a sexual way cause she is my mother. Besides this she is very kind and wonderful mother. I like to wear tightfitting clothes but these comments just make me wanna hide my body when I am going over her place.

I have started to feel disgusted about my curvers and feminine body because of this. Am I overreacting?

Hi, I’m a 20-year-old woman and I recently got out of a long relationship where I objectified and sexualized myself almost all the time because I was so insecure. My ex-boyfriend also sexualized everything I did and constantly sexualized me. I did everything he wanted in bed even when I didn’t have the energy or didn’t want to.

Now after the breakup, I’ve started to feel anxious about my body, especially my breasts. They disgust me even though they’re fairly small. They feel dirty and kind of perverted. It feels unnatural to have two fat lumps on my chest.

Otherwise, my body is quite curvy and feminine, and I like wearing clothes that highlight my curves. But I get extremely anxious when people sexualize me. Just today, some random guy outside a bar shouted “what an ass!” at me. And my mother has been commenting on my body in an objectifying way for years. Now I’ve started to feel extremely anxious about my feminine features and I wish I could get rid of them.

I want to say that my ex was a really wonderful person. He just had a very high libido, but he always made sure that everything we did was okay with me (it usually wasn’t, but I said it was). I often felt used after sex. It also often disgusted me when he commented on my breasts and butt in a sexual way whenever he saw me, even if I was just naked or wearing little clothing. Often in those situations, he might also start masturbating.

Additionally, intercourse often hurt because he had such a fast pace and rough approach. I didn’t say anything because I got some kind of twisted pleasure and sense of pride from it if he finished by “using” my body. I didn’t really enjoy intercourse; I just wanted that feeling of satisfaction that he climaxed “because of me.”

What could this be caused by? Should I question my gender identity?

Hi, I’m a 20-year-old woman and I recently got out of a long relationship where I objectified and sexualized myself almost all the time because I was so insecure. My ex-boyfriend also sexualized everything I did and constantly sexualized me. I did everything he wanted in bed even when I didn’t have the energy or didn’t want to.

Now after the breakup, I’ve started to feel anxious about my body, especially my breasts. They disgust me even though they’re fairly small. They feel dirty and kind of perverted.

Otherwise, my body is quite curvy and feminine, and I like wearing clothes that highlight my curves. But I get extremely anxious when people sexualize me. Just today, some random guy outside a bar shouted “what an ass!” at me. And my mother has been commenting on my body in an objectifying way for years. Now I’ve started to feel extremely anxious about my feminine features and I wish I could get rid of them.

I want to say that my ex was a really wonderful person. He just had a very high libido, but he always made sure that everything we did was okay with me (it usually wasn’t, but I said it was). I often felt used after sex. It also often disgusted me when he commented on my breasts and butt in a sexual way whenever he saw me, even if I was just naked or wearing little clothing. Often in those situations, he might also start masturbating.

Additionally, intercourse often hurt because he had such a fast pace and rough approach. I didn’t say anything because I got some kind of twisted pleasure and sense of pride from it if he finished by “using” my body. I didn’t really enjoy intercourse; I just wanted that feeling of satisfaction that he climaxed “because of me.”

What could this be caused by? Should I question my gender identity?

Hi, I’m a 20-year-old woman and I recently got out of a long relationship where I objectified and sexualized myself almost all the time because I was so insecure. My ex-boyfriend also sexualized everything I did and constantly sexualized me. I did everything he wanted in bed even when I didn’t have the energy or didn’t want to.

Now after the breakup, I’ve started to feel anxious about my body, especially my breasts. They disgust me even though they’re fairly small. They feel dirty and kind of perverted.

Otherwise, my body is quite curvy and feminine, and I like wearing clothes that highlight my curves. But I get extremely anxious when people sexualize me. Just today, some random guy outside a bar shouted “what an ass!” at me. And my mother has been commenting on my body in an objectifying way for years. Now I’ve started to feel extremely anxious about my feminine features and I wish I could get rid of them.

I want to say that my ex was a really wonderful person. He just had a very high libido, but he always made sure that everything we did was okay with me (it usually wasn’t, but I said it was). I often felt used after sex. It also often disgusted me when he commented on my breasts and butt in a sexual way whenever he saw me, even if I was just naked or wearing little clothing. Often in those situations, he might also start masturbating.

Additionally, intercourse often hurt because he had such a fast pace and rough approach. I didn’t say anything because I got some kind of twisted pleasure and sense of pride from it if he finished by “using” my body. I didn’t really enjoy intercourse; I just wanted that feeling of satisfaction that he climaxed “because of me.”

What could this be caused by? Should I question my gender identity?

Hi, I’m a 20-year-old woman and I recently got out of a long relationship where I objectified and sexualized myself almost all the time because I was so insecure. My ex-boyfriend also sexualized everything I did and constantly sexualized me. I did everything he wanted in bed even when I didn’t have the energy or didn’t want to.

Now after the breakup, I’ve started to feel anxious about my body, especially my breasts. They disgust me even though they’re fairly small. They feel dirty and kind of perverted.

Otherwise, my body is quite curvy and feminine, and I like wearing clothes that highlight my curves. But I get extremely anxious when people sexualize me. Just today, some random guy outside a bar shouted “what an ass!” at me. And my mother has been commenting on my body in an objectifying way for years. Now I’ve started to feel extremely anxious about my feminine features and I wish I could get rid of them.

I want to say that my ex was a really wonderful person. He just had a very high libido, but he always made sure that everything we did was okay with me (it usually wasn’t, but I said it was). I often felt used after sex. It also often disgusted me when he commented on my breasts and butt in a sexual way whenever he saw me, even if I was just naked or wearing little clothing. Often in those situations, he might also start masturbating.

Additionally, intercourse often hurt because he had such a fast pace and rough approach. I didn’t say anything because I got some kind of twisted pleasure and sense of pride from it if he finished by “using” my body. I didn’t really enjoy intercourse; I just wanted that feeling of satisfaction that he climaxed “because of me.”

What could this be caused by? Should I question my gender identity?

I have been dealing with dissociation and depersonalization for a while now. I have had these sudden thoughts that I would want to transition for a couple months now. I am so scared that this is the truth about me…

Hii everyone,

I (20F) feel like an imposter as a woman. I have felt like this my whole life. My appearance is very feminine and i love ”traditional” feminine things: makeup, skincare, dresses, clothes that show off mu curves etc. I have very feminine figure. The only problem is my personality is quite masculine: pretty masculine sense of humour and I am also very outspouken person. Don’t get me wrong, my personality is also somehow feminine: I am quite sensitive, but thats about it. I feel like I don’t have that empathy or supportiveness that other women have. When someone refers to me as a woman I feel triggered cause I feel like I am not a ”real” woman even though I wanna be. But my partly masculine personality ruins it.

Still, somehow I feel like I don’t belong with other women. I have always felt like this. I feel like other women sees me gross and disgusting. When I am in a group of women who talk about periods, relationships or sex I feel like a guy who tries so hard to fit in. When I show some kind of empathy or act interested when someone talks about ”womens stuff” etc my brain tells me ”youre faking it”. Inside I feel like a man who tries so hard to belong with women. If some women refers to us as ”us girls” I get triggered cause I feel like I don’t belong there even though I so badly want to.

This has made me question am I trans? But I don’t think I am cause I don’t have any interest being a man or representing masculine etc. I just wanna be skinny, delicate, feminine pilates girl LOL.

I also feel like I ”think like man”. Heres examples: if a woman has high bc I automatically think shes a slut but if a man has I think its fine. Even though I dont wanna think like this!! I am also bisexual but I feel like I like women the way men like women. Like I get so turned on by big tits and ass and I feel like I objectify women a lot like men usually do. I have never experienced anything with a woman, but if I try yo think myself in WLW relationship I feel like I should be a man and masculine and I don’t like that feeling cause I don’t wanna be a man! But I just can’t think myself with a woman as a woman.

Lately I have been feeling like I would wanna be a man and want male genitals. It’s so weird cause it doesn’t feel like me and I’ve never felt this way before. I recently broke up with my ex and since this crisis came in my brain keeps telling me ”you wasn’t attracted to him. You wanted to BE him”. And this is driving me crazy.

I think about gender 24/7 and have started to feel uncomfortable about female terms and female body. Everything I do I think: was that masculine or feminine? Did that feel masculine or feminine? Did I just feel like a woman or a man?

I don’t wanna be like this… these feelings and thoughts cause me a lot of distress.