Has she been using me?
Alright, folks.
Heres my story: M(27) F(27)
- Met girl on Hinge 13th of September last year hit things off immediately, texting every day I was like wow this is incredible - My birthday 20th September took me to a fancy new cinema and got me my favourite aftershave - I laughed and said are you love bombing me to which she said no I was being nice for your bday.
- Months go by, nice getaways to hotels, training together, great sex and everything felt perfect, she had a young son who was 9 and I did not meet in person - she said her ex bf who was practically the step dad of the kid left her and put her kid in therapy - to which I was very understanding. I felt like this girl really understood me as well.
-Now this is where the cracks start - Around 6 months into dating, she would mention how evil and hateful her ex (Together 6 years) was and mentioned he was in the same Tesco as her at xmas (live in local area) He was walking in and she was walking out - I said thats trippy never easy bumping into an ex - left it at that. Did not want to appear phased. Had a nice xmas met her Mum and her little sister things felt very good and often stayed with her and her mum when her son was at the kids dads.
-At end of February my Granny passed away unexpectedly - She mentioned how her ex BF did not let her into the after event when his granny passed away etc - I just let her vent - Granny passed away on Tuesday and then on Friday I met her Dad for the first time - Naturally stressed over my Grannys passing I did not drink - she did - On the trip down and home she basically played a FU to her ex song - and her dad mentioned she seen her ex and he looked rough - anyways, we drove home and I said to her I don't bring up my exes etc and if he was so bad he left you and your son in therapy be happy he's gone - she said she's 'over him just not the situation she put her and her son through' - when I said I wasn't happy she's mentioning him she stone walled me - I left her house and drove home to regulate as I was with a previous GF who stonewalled me and it done a number on me - she was dunk and proceeded to tell me I was never meeting her child and that was us done over text- We then sorted this out - half apology from her and from me I thought I needed to be more understanding of her situation and we told each other we love each other.
- The month after we had a great month done a charity 10K and had a nice getaway - I spoke to her son on the phone and on FaceTime over those few months we were together over xmas and when she was on a family holiday to New York - still no physical interaction I said it would be nice to meet your child as I have gotten him a birthday present and an Xmas one and we both know about each other and I am getting a bit frustrated of having to hide around the corner when we know about each other - Bare in mind I asked this respectfully and said no pressure I just need a plan as she said if I met him I could travel to Spain with her and her kid this summer. The kid also told his biological father about me that Saturday as well.
- I was met with two days of silence - then seen her on the Saturday went to the gym all was fine, thought that was back on track and we said we would go to the cinema on the Wednesday and on the Tuesday I got a text telling me I was perfect, we have a laugh together but she feels 'something is missing' - and ended things with me over text after 7 months.
- I did not reply for 3 weeks based on advice from my family and friends as I was blindsided and was constantly told I was the best person in the world and she was so lucky to have me, but when I mentioned maybe meeting her kid she turned so nasty and discarded me like I was nothing over text, I then texted her to speak she then told me she loves me as a person but not in love with me and I deserve better - I did not reply again, I feel so heartbroken how can she be all lovey then discarded over text? I noticed when I put her number into whatsapp she had no profile picture anymore and her messages were set to disappearing which makes me think her ex was back in the picture or hiding something? - Her tiktok reposts after were all things like when a man leaves your life build a comfortable life etc - except I never left her?
What do I do I am still incredibly in love with her - Its been 2 months nc and I have been attending therapy and gym but I still feel stuck
Thanks to anyone reading this I just don't know what to do I can't picture myself with anyone else - is this emotional abuse? is she a covert narcissist, do I even attempt to contact her for answers?
Please help!