u/JimmyDejesu

Im not gonna lie i am bitter and resentful about life. Im 42, no gf ever. Never been kissed. Have a preference for muscular women (no its not a fetish, its a preference. I know people are not objects which i shouldnt need to explain and i know bodies change when we get older or things happen and im fully aware of that and people assuming i would just leave if it did are wrong But thats another rant).

i feel bitter and resentful at life. Ive had depression since i was 14 including many times in therapy (people always, always assume youve either never done therapy with long term depression or always assume its a cure. Its neither). Ive tried and trying to do better. Its also made it hard to care about my body and i got fat. I am trying, i generally do try to improve. ive lost 20kg this year. People make so many assumptions about me (like in this sub) and its generally annoying because i dont fit i to their prescribed boxes. I also have a learning disability which makes life even harder, and hormone inbalances due to a brain tumour ( mostly removed).

i feel its so hard to overcome just one of these things nevermind all. And logically i know a woman probably doesnt want me. My mental health alone it seems makes people feel people with depression are undatable. And ive figured out by now,been told as much really, sometimes people just have to live with it. Therapy isnt always a cure neither are meds. i wish there was a cure. I feel depression has kind of ruined my life and any chance at meeting someone i actually want to be with.

its making me want to take my own life honestly because its so depressing. I do like a lot about myself and i think id make a good partner despite my admitted flaws . I like my own company. But theres also something missing. Like ive only ever wanted a wife or partner in life really. Money never mattered much to me.

i just needed to see if anyone else relates. im trying so hard. Every time i open up it seems to backfire and people judge me but to be honest i am so fed up and tired of life that at this point i just need to get it out. I want to deal with it and be happy but i just cant seem to accept it. I try so hard.

idk. Idk if im looking for advice or whatever. I guess I just needed to talk and hope someone here relates at least a little

I cant find any to save my life. And some apps have body filters like jacked but it seems some people drastically misunderstand what that means . Theres every single kind of person except the kind I like. And unfortunately it is a deal breaker as i only find muscular women attractive. Tried dating normal and was kinda resentful honestly so it wasnt good. Idk . Im pretty desperate to find a partner but will never just settle. Ive found out the hard way its better to be alone. But better is a subjective term because im lonely either way , with someone i dont really like but tried my best to or by myself.

Hi, any muscular ladies out there who are single looking to meet someone? Im pretty down to earth and easy to talk to i would think. I love movies, reading, writing, anything creative really. If any of you are out there and open to talking id love to hear from you

I need to find a profile i superliked because i forgot tot ake downt the social media and ive been kicking myself since. I should have wrote it down or added them before sending but i didnt know it was not going to let me see it again

There was a profile I really liked and have no clue if its an active one or not. I sent a super like and message but I had intended to take down the social media they had listed to give them a follow on Ig too but had no idea you cant see messages you send with super liked profiles. So I stupidly didnt take down the information. Is there any way to look this profile up again if i dont remember the name? Like i assumed i could just look at my inbox or likes sent For it but no luck with it. I feel like an idiot

on socials i feel you can get a feeling if someone is active or not still and I was really hoping she was because I loved her profile. She was a jacked red head arielist so kind of hard to forget lol

There was a profile I really liked and have no clue if its an active one or not. I sent a super like and message but I had intended to take down the social media they had listed to give them a follow on Ig too but had no idea you cant see messages you send with super liked profiles. So I stupidly didnt take down the information. Is there any way to look this profile up again if i dont remember the name? Like i assumed i could just look at my inbox or likes sent For it but no luck with it. I feel like an idiot

on socials i feel you can get a feeling if someone is active or not still and I was really hoping she was because I loved her profile. She was a jacked red head arielist so kind of hard to forget lol

Dracula, and vampires, are some of my favourite monsters. Im reading the bride currently which is really good.

can you recommend me any good stories with dracula in? Ive read a few, there was a good one with the historical dracula whos name escapes me right now. Theres also been the deathly boring historian which i couldnt finish.

Sorry not sorry, I only find muscular women attractive. Sorry if saying that triggers you but to be honest why is it anyone elses business? You have women say they can have a height preference or muscular men but men cant have preferences? I Noticed every time someone asks about apps with body type theres downvotes.

im not saying theres anything wrong with dating other types, but why would you want to date someone you arent attracted to? Would it really be worth the resentment and the other person beinf second best or settled for? I find the idea of settling for someone insulting not just to me but to them, youre stopping someone from finding someone else who truly wants them in every sense.

never makes sense to me how people can negatively express views on others preferences and would rather you use people as placeholders.

I love the game but i have spent hundreds of hours in it and still when i get to a certain point, about the time of the class who builds aqua ducts, i get overwhelmed and end up restarting. I struggle with trade routes and what island needs what and not having all resources in one place, and i also struggle building any kind of strong military because im busy building up my economy and making workers happy. Id like to learn the combat side of the game but ive not had almost any experience despite the amount of time playing it. I could keep it off but its a side of the game i want to learn and be better at.

does anyone else ever feel overwhelmed like this? What did you do to get through it? I want to get a lot of the trophies as i do love the game its figuring out how to get better at handling it i struggle with

I found this version improved in almost every way but THE most important. Im sorry but if you wear someone down with body shots etc and have way more stamina, they should NOT be able to stop your submissions if they have next to none and you have most of your bar left. It doesnt even make sense, someone that tired is going to not be able to defend as well against subs and not at all if totally gassed.

its a really poor design decision and each new game somehow the developers dont seem to realise this. Id genuinely like to know how its never crossed their mind once in all these years making the ufc games.

What kind of bullshit is that? I outwork them and have more stamina and they STILL block submission attempts even with no stamina. Absolute fucking bullshittery

Ive been told i cant message for 24 hours due to message content being “against community standards.” But nothing ive sent has been remotely inappropriate and i genuinely cannot think of anything that would be considered against community standards. Is there no way to get hold of facebook to ask about this? It seems silly to tell me i broke rules without any explanation because its like playing a game where only One side knows the rules. I really dont understand or know and i dont know how to avoid it again

It lasted like one episode, and didnt get close to the comic arc. I liked the comic arc because it showed the adamantium kept his beastial nature somewhat in check and without it it made him more feral but accelerated his healing to an insane degree. He had major trauma and had to work his way back to the team after struggling to find people to help him find his way back to humanity. Which he does eventually.

and when he got his adamantium back it felt earned as well as come at a cost. This was back with minimum effort, he sought it out unlike the comic and it made the entire fatal attractions incident feel cheap and meaningless in retrospect

this was one of the arcs I was hoping the show would keep on for a season or so and explore but it was just blah . Kind of soured me on the season a little. Not too much but it was something i really hoped for.

Really considering trying to switch to pills because each time im really sick for almost the entire week i take it. It makes it hard to enjoy anything . It works for sure with weight loss but im also miserable the entire time. Ive tried all the usual tricks toavoid side effects it doesnt work and in UK i dont think we can get anti nausea tablets unless its prescription.

im skipping injections every second week because it makes me feel so awful.

I ask because though injections have been really successful for my weight loss the side effects are offen awful and at times feel near unbearable. Ive done all the things youre supposed to when suffering them but it doesnt really help. Nausea is near constant, horrible taste in mouth and awful burping. My stomach often aches as well. Im wondering if the pill may have lesser effects?

im sticking with it till i reach my goal weight but im not going to lie id like less side effects as i often had to take a week or two break between doses because the side effects were so bad

Since ps6 and xbox are dropping discs, If im being forced into going all digital im going to go with the company i think will screw me over as a customer less. So steam it is. Now my question is if i dont know or even really want to build my own pc, will steam machine be able to play new titles for at least a few more years? And will every game use the steam controller? Ive never really been into pc gaming so anyone with knowledge Id appreciate it.

Shutting of studios, mass job losses and everything getting way too expensive. Meanwhile we have our first trillionaire while most of us struggle. Even this hobby which honestly has saved my life due to mental health issues looks to be getting away from me. Im gutted about the potential cancellation of two games i was hyped for (blade and state of decay) and the job losses that will come adding even more misery for people. And dropping of physical copies and all the issues that will cause potentially including killing second hand games and being at sonys whim for prices.

i guess its the world and society in general im depressed over but this was my escape along with other creative avenues i could escape To. Everything seems to be more and more for an exclusive few .