u/Kenad33

I'm crazy for saying this but no guy can replace you Anthony.

I have tried so hard, and yet today I listened to all your music and I almost reached out, almost.

Part of me feels like maybe you miss me too?

Maybe I'm crazy for thinking that

I miss you and I'm a much different person now versus then.

I don't want to hurt you, but I also don't want you to hurt me.

When you lied a part of me wasn't sure what was true anymore.

When you ran away from me whenever your brother was near, I felt like you were ashamed of me.

I remember one day in the library how you looked at me, those brown eyes they are ingrained in my head.

I remember holding your hand, they felt nice against mine and I remember the first day we did that I was so happy.

I would do it all again if I could, we could even restart and just be friends and I would be happy.

But maybe I'm just crazy.

Maybe I'm Crazy but so many hours of my day are taken yet I want to talk to you.

I thought maybe keeping myself busy would stop me from wanting anyone but now I like you.

I should really be focusing on myself, but yet I can't handle the fact I could miss an opportunity.

I'm not afraid to go up to you, but I'm afraid I won't have time for you.

So I'll just simply look at you but I won't do anything because I know I shouldn't do this to myself or to you.

Is it okay to want to be independent?

I was talking to this guy for a little bit, and the thing is I realized I never fully felt anything for anyone, isn't that weird?

Maybe it's because I have attachment issues, ever since I was younger I got used to losing things.

But I also feel like I just want to focus on my education and my future and myself.

Kids around my age are trying to find relationships to be in.

I mean I don't even see myself with anyone in my future.

Is it normal to feel this way? I just never heard of anyone else with this kind of lifestyle.

I could use some help with songs that speak, I'll be with you and hopefully in the future. Or like happy and soft rock or something like that.

The reason for this is I don't want too seem too available and I need to know if this guy is truly interested.

I need someone who is below 18 or is 18. Preferably a guy. Or a girl to make a fake guy acc.

(Please have Insta)

DM me if you're interested.

The makeup on my face hides what I show what I show hides what I am

I cant help but look around and see everything is changing while I am the same

Life is beyond me and Im before it

It didn't used to be that way, I used to be ahead of the time now I'm behind it

I accepted my ways, and yours, but have you seen the way the time now lays?

I hide in a tight crumpled ball and hold myself tight, afraid to let go too light

I can't handle all of this on my own, but yet it's what I manage to do everyday

I must lay and think of all the time I lose as I lose more time thinking about it

I'll just lay it all behind me

I feel so insecure, lately I just look at other girls and wonder who would ever want to settle with me? Is it normal to think that?

I feel ugly, I feel like I'm not even his standards, I feel like I'm lower then his standards actually. I just want to feel good about myself for once.

I don't know why I feel this way there is no reason but I just can't help but try to hold myself to others standards, I just want to be enough. Is that okay to ask?

I want to be what someone looks forward too, I want to be a first choice, I want to be someone anyone could talk to, I want to be able to stand up and do things for myself, I want to be more.

I just never feel like enough because I can't seem to make myself good enough. I hate how I am, I really do and I wish I could change I wish I could be like my best friends, they are beautiful inside and out and I'm ugly. People only talk to me because I'm friends with my best friends.

I wish I could see myself through someone else.

I feel terrible, this guy paid for our "date" and I haven't really been talking to him now.

It hasn't been on purpose I even straight up told him I was sorry if I don't text often I had been going through other things in my life.

I think he's ignoring me now and sometimes I just don't feel like talking? Is that okay?

I feel like this is my fault, I can't help that I haven't exactly felt well mentally as well.

I don't feel like committing, we aren't exactly together.

God I feel terrible for saying that but I don't want to commit yet, I still have so much I want to do I'm Afraid if I commit that I might regret it.

At the same time he's such a sweet guy, I might not even find anyone like him again. Maybe someone else deserves him.

I'm afraid to break his heart, I started this with him and I just don't want to hurt him.

I'm on a different path now, I'm focused on my future and myself.

Okay, so I thought I knew what I wanted. Turns out I don't.

Am I just living through my dad's expectations?

Maybe I don't want to be with the guy I'm talking too?

Or maybe everything feels too good to be true, because I haven't felt content like this before that I feel like something is wrong?

I just want to be independent, live somewhere far away from where I am. I want to do this for me. Sounds selfish but I need to be happy too.

I feel so insecure, lately I just look at other girls and wonder who would ever want to settle with me? Is it normal to think that?

I feel ugly, I feel like I'm not even his standards, I feel like I'm lower then his standards actually. I just want to feel good about myself for once.

I don't know why I feel this way there is no reason but I just can't help but try to hold myself to others standards, I just want to be enough. Is that okay to ask?

I want to be what someone looks forward too, I want to be a first choice, I want to be someone anyone could talk to, I want to be able to stand up and do things for myself, I want to be more.

I just never feel like enough because I can't seem to make myself good enough. I hate how I am, I really do and I wish I could change I wish I could be like my best friends, they are beautiful inside and out and I'm ugly. People only talk to me because I'm friends with my best friends.

I wish I could see myself through someone else.

Why am I like this?

I'm not even that pretty, maybe even a little below average.

The most sweetest guy will like me and take good care of me and it's exactly what I want but then I'll want a different guy and he won't even do the same?

Is this normal? I'm not even with the guy I already have told him I basically have a huge crush on him but now I'm just wondering if I even do truly like him or maybe I just want a little fling?

I feel so wrong, but I'm focused on other things in life, I'm focused on my future and my independence. Don't get me wrong I want something serious too but maybe I'm not ready for that yet?

Why am I like this?

I'm not even that pretty, maybe even a little below average.

The most sweetest guy will like me and take good care of me and it's exactly what I want but then I'll want a different guy and he won't even do the same?

Is this normal? I'm not even with the guy I already have told him I basically have a huge crush on him but now I'm just wondering if I even do truly like him or maybe I just want a little fling?

I feel so wrong, but I'm focused on other things in life, I'm focused on my future and my independence. Don't get me wrong I want something serious too but maybe I'm not ready for that yet?