How can I stop wasting my life?
For context I am 22(F). I’ve dropped out of college because of personal issues and lack of funds. I don’t have a job currently because I recently moved states but I have been searching non stop. Long story short, I’m kind of a bum right now and have nothing going for myself.
Because of this, I’ve been extremely depressed and I spend my days struggling to get out of bed and also struggling to sleep early. When I do wake up (which is mid afternoon) I spend most of my day scrolling aimlessly on my phone or playing video games. I have absolutely no motivation for anything and I just genuinely cannot feel anything. I’m constantly binge eating because I’m bored at home and alone most of the time. I have no friends and I have no energy to get out of the house. I see everyone having fun around me and there’s so much to do if I can just get myself out of the house. I genuinely cannot get out of this rut.
I have NEVER been the type of person to be this lazy and unmotivated. I cry every day because I really don’t know what I became and I don’t know how to fix it. I know this is so embarrassing and I might get criticized but anyone please help me? I want to get out of this hole but idk how.