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I don’t know why but I always had difficulty sleeping. It was really bad as a kid and it felt like I always had something going on in my head to the point I’d give myself headaches. It was always either a song repeating or just talking to myself until late at night and I was unable to stop it. This eventually led to me being up until late at night/early in the morning, usually around 2 am. I don’t know why in particular but 8 year old me thought it was a great idea to go get in the shower and see if the warmth would make me sleepy. Well, it did. Id usually lay down and put the water to hit on my chest while I slept. I’d turn all the lights off and in that moment it felt like nothing was going on in my head. Then came the shaving cream.

This is a side part but as a kid I had gotten those toy shave kids that had Spider-Man on it. It came with a bottle of “shaving cream”, a fake razor, and some other items to teach us how to shave properly. I didn’t actually ever practice but I found that it was really satisfying to cover myself with the shaving cream and wait until my body tingled and then wash it off to feel like I was a peppermint.

Back to the story. I found that I couldn’t sleep still as I just felt uncomfortable so I decided as I always did to lather myself head to toe (yes.. literally…) and fall asleep while it washed off slowly. It felt so nice to wake up a while later feeling minty clean and warm, but I remember having to lie to my parents when they switched shaving cream brands because they didn’t understand why the bottles only lasted a week.

I didn’t think this was weird at all until I recently told my friend about it and said “remember as a kid when you’d do that?” And they responded with “what the fuck are you talking about?”.

Hello all. Yesterday you may have seen my post about feeling lost in life and my journey to self acceptance and content.

I started today off with making a paper crane. I felt the need to do it as there’s a lot on my mind and as mentioned previously, this helps me focus on one thing. Today’s crane was imperfect as they always are, but something separates it from the rest. This is the first with a ripped wing. At first I took this as a sign of my incompetence, but then I realized I wasn’t upset with it. I see it as a metaphor for trying to make something into something without its will. The paper did not ask to be formed, as silly as that sounds, and in turn it was difficult to do. When trying to make something perfect in my eyes, I have ripped it of its ability to soar (metaphorically of course). It had me stop and think about my actions yesterday. My desire to help my friend when help was not warranted. I had been trying to help create his perfection that he always talked about but at my own hands and instead of creating beauty, I built discouragement. After looking at the comments yesterday, I saw someone say it simply wasn’t my business to be in. And they’re right. I took that and sat with it overnight.

Around 30 minutes ago I had gotten up to go outside and take a break from work. I had postponed this for hours, wanting to check on my plants but not wanting to bear the cool breeze. I finally forced myself to go out and get it over with and I ended up seeing something I hadn’t noticed in over 5 years. A monarch butterfly. It hovered over my plants and I watched as it checked each flower, I wanted to take this in as much as possible. After a few seconds, it got closer and began to fly within 5 inches of my head, flying in circles around me. I called for my mom to come look and she told me to give her a minute so I stood there waiting. The butterfly continued to fly and fly around me as I stood still trying not to scare it. Then it flew to my bedroom window, then back to me, then to my plants. My mom opened the door and asked where it had went and I looked for it. It had disappeared into the neighbors yard.

This may mean nothing, which it likely does, but it was a moment that made me feel at peace. Monarchs are symbols of transformation, higher guidance, and mental clarity.

That is all for now.

I’m a 20 year old guy on a long journey towards self acceptance and contentment. I’ve been diagnosed with several mental illnesses (bipolar, depression, anxiety) and have dealt with these since I was a kid. I’ve always found that there was nothing that helped medicinally so I transitioned to a medical marijuana card (I know it’s medicinal, but not typical medicine I mean).

I find myself making paper cranes before major moments. From my first job, to an unfortunate attempt, to quitting a job full of racists and death threats, to the night before I got my first career position. I’ve always loved these cranes and it helped me stay in the moment to make sure each fold was perfect. But I never could get them that way. Each crane was unique. Some were big, some were small, some had a small beak, some had a small tail. Some were pink, some were yellow, some were white. Some even had a wish in them or a good note to myself written on them.

I stand here with a paper crane while I smoke my joint and for some reason it’s not working today. I feel stressed. Not over myself but over my friend who seems lost in life. How do I become content with the journeys of others, and the fact I cannot help them?

He’s stubborn, unwilling to listen, and compares himself to me. I don’t like it, he tells me issues and I give solutions, but he never listens and instead tells me to “fuck off” or worry about myself.

So now, I stand here with my paper crane and I too feel lost. I’m smoking a joint and feel as though I can think clearly now. I’m not mad at him, nor myself. I’m glad I feel this empathy and desire to help. But sometimes I wish I didn’t. I feel as though I could be truly at peace with myself then. But I don’t know.

For now I continue to make my cranes. I’m probably past 1000 now, maybe 1000 more is what I need.

Recommendations on this are welcome.

I’m looking to move into my first ever apartment (just got approved this morning!) and I have limited money. I wanted a couch that was originally $700 from Ashley to use until it can’t be sat on anymore, but my parents told me to check out the newer cheaper option, a “boneless couch”. I looked up some reviews and it seems okay, cheap, but has some mixed reviews regarding if it’s worth it.

Does anyone have any experience with these? It’s my FIRST ever apartment and I’m 20 currently. I don’t need a lot, I just want it to be comfortable and mine. I don’t care if it’s not PERFECT, as long as it’s comfortable enough to use (some people say they hated the feel so much that they returned it instantly).

If not, does anyone have a cheap alternative? There haven’t been any good picks so far on Facebook marketplace as where I live someone could sell a pile of dog shit and claim it’s a rare breed and worth at least $100.

Thank you!

Hi all, I’m about to turn 21 and I got struck by the feeling I need to experience more before I become stuck in an apartment with a shit ton of bills to pay. Me and my friend have always wanted to travel abroad but due to expenses, family trips, or lack of passports we’ve never been able to. But this will change next year. I’m getting my passport and we are starting to save in order to head on a two week trip to either China or Japan.

I hear great things about both countries and always hear both are a must when exploring the world, but with videos online it’s hard to decide which would be best for us.

We are two people who just want to experience something completely new. I enjoy shopping for souvenirs (customizable ones I’ll use daily) and site seeing. My friend is similar but has a specific love for tea (just got him a yixing tea pot along with one of his favorite teas from yunnan to surprise him for Christmas).

He’s more into the history of the world while I just enjoy discovering a new way of life and seeing things I don’t typically see in America.

My personal budget total will likely be around $5000 or so, with us splitting the costs of food, transport in the country, and hotel. What would be better for us with these things stated? Which country and city would you recommend?

(If it adds any additional, we know no mandarin/chinese/japanese, but we’d likely plan on trying to learn basic greetings and yes no, thank you, please, etc)

Thank you all!

To remember The Game!

It’s now been 10 days since I started using my moka pot and it’s seen at least 3 brews per day.

I’ve gone through one can of illy dark roast espresso and realized that a lighter roast is better with my stainless steel pot. I’ve made a few cappuccinos and some iced coffee for my parents. They told me they had no idea where I found out about this but theyre already dreading the day i take it with me when i move out.

Thank you all for pointing me in this direction, in all the years of owning keurigs, ive never tasted as good of coffee as with this pot.

To anyone thinking about getting a moka pot, DO IT!!!

This Fourth of July I’m planning on doing absolutely nothing so I figured I’d try something out.

I have a full thing of coconut oil with 14 g of weed infused into it and so far have only made chocolates and jello with it. I always hear about people cooking it with food though so I might give it a try.

What are your favorite meals to infuse? I originally thought about cooking breakfast sausage with the coconut oil but I feel like it wouldn’t really do much and coconuty breakfast isn’t up my alley… so I might infuse my other 14g into some butter…

Ive grown two plants indoor this year (started growing on Christmas Day) and am now trying to grow outdoors. They’re currently sprouted and in veg but it seems like they’re not liking my typical feed cycle that I use indoors.

Obviously this makes sense as there’s more heat and more powerful sun outside. Currently I feed/water every other day but I’m considering watering every day and feeding every other?

Currently my cycle is

Nutes+ water

Nothing

Water

Nothing

Nutes + water.

My new cycle I’m thinking for outdoors would be:

Nutes + water
Water
Nutes+ water
Water
Nutes + water

Is this smart or does this make no fuckin sense?