I think I am getting very close to kms

I am a Muslim and know that suicide is a bad act that can lead to hell. But I think about it so much I am afraid one day I will end up doing it. Dont want to exist so much. I always wonder if that was possible, but I know it is not. I crave for it so much. Sometimes, I find myself in the act of it, and what if one day I won't be able to stop myself?

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u/doradaexplorerr — 6 days ago

Question to the teachers. Have you ever had the quiet kids in the class. How was it? What is the experience? What did you feel or think? How did you act?

Seen teachers how they act when it comes to quiet kids but dont know what they think

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u/doradaexplorerr — 11 days ago
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Closed mouths dont get fed but everytime hunger twists and turns inside my empty tummy and I open wide the taste is so, so sour. Yet still I am made to swallow.

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u/doradaexplorerr — 11 days ago
▲ 5 r/Life

Closed mouths dont get fed but everytime hunger twists and turns inside my empty tummy and I open wide the taste is so, so sour. Yet still I am made to swallow.

Oh, how much I feel this quote

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u/doradaexplorerr — 11 days ago

Can't do anything

The thing is rn I feel very, very exhausted even tho I don't do nothing. It's been like this for 2 months already, and I don't know what is happening. I feel so heavy, and life does not interest me anymore. I feel either numb or sad. Of course, there are times it is alright, but I always should come back to this state. In this state, I can't even smile because it is so exhausting. And I do nothing and just rot even tho I have so much to do, and I am an already senior and need to do stuff for uni, but I simply can't get myself to do stuff. Sometimes, it feels impossible.

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So like I really need some tips and advice to better my situation because I need to do stuff

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u/doradaexplorerr — 15 days ago

Hair gets greasy fast

So my hair gets greasy really fast, like on the second day in the evening, it is already greasy. Can someone recommend something to me so I could wash my hair like on the fourth day after washing and still look very clean

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u/doradaexplorerr — 15 days ago

born with thin eyebrows how do I grow them out

So I always had thin eyebrows and was looking for methods to grow out my eyebrows. People mostly talk about growing back eyebrows, so I don't know if they will work on me. And if they will, will they stay forever or will fall back the minute I stop using products

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u/doradaexplorerr — 15 days ago

Where can I buy tickets for movies in english in astana or almaty

So I was trying to find spiderman in english movies so asking who know how to watch in eng in cinema.

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u/doradaexplorerr — 17 days ago

I feel so so lost and can't do anything

For the past like 2 months, I ve been feeling really, really bad. Every day, I should just have this kind of state that is so heavy I can't even smile because it is so exhausting. Yes, it might go smooth at some point, but I should always go back to it, and it is like every day like this, I don't know.

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Also, I don't have motivation at all. I really can't bring myself to do anything. Yes, you can blame that on laziness, but it feels so impossible to do this task. Even hygiene is becoming too hard.

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Rn I am about to be senior and I need to do so much stuff and I really can't. For last 2 months I didn't do anything in literal sense even tho I should. It is as if I just closed my door for the future and as if it doesn't exist. I dont know what I am doing anymore. I feel like I am at the dead end and can't get out. I am very very suicidal but religious at the same time so I am not planning to do so but oh god how much I crave for it But off topic.

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The problem is i feel very heavy and at this time I cant motivate myself to do anything and I need help cuz I really need to worry about my future and uni. And I am procrastinating final boss cuz as you see I havent done anything in past couple months.

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Yall help me give some advice how to do stuff and trust i tried those like just like get up and do but i cant yooo you have no idea how hard like it seems soo pointless and impossible everytime I try to do stuff and i just don't.

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Other times i mean before this 2 months and I could do it but rn I literally cant. Same with my my mood Like I neeever had this kind of so so heavy sad or sometimes just numb or going crazy moods and fs not everyday but it is crazy to me that it became my usual routine so I need to do smth abt that. (This state usually comes by evening ig).

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Advice me on what to do. I will even take medication if there is some, I am so desprate.

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u/doradaexplorerr — 19 days ago

I used to have really curly hair can I bring it back or at least have curlier hair?

So when I was like little mb till age of 4 or smth I had really curly hair 3a-3b type of hair but rn i have 2b wavy hair (17yro) and is this possible to bring back those curls or at least make my hair more curly? What to do?

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u/doradaexplorerr — 20 days ago

Лучший или хотя бы хороший чай порекомендуйте

Чай именно в Казахстане. В поседние время я покупаю чий но не могу найти хороший. Нигде нету вкуса и как будто не чай пьешь. Я хочу вот хороший черный что бы с молоком настоящий казахский вкусный чай. Порекомендуйте пожалуйста

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u/doradaexplorerr — 20 days ago

If person is suicidal does that necessary mean that person has mental disorders?

If, for example, a person comes to a psychologist and he is suicidal would the doctor definitely diagnose a persons mental illness. Or is it just that person is mentally unstable and sad, not necessarily mentally ill

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u/doradaexplorerr — 27 days ago

How to live alone if you are scared

The thing is that I crave living alone. I love being alone. Everything alone. But the problem is that I am very scared. Cuz like night dark and mythical whatever you understood what kind of scared. So I really need to overcome it because I can only properly function if alone, so I really need it. What can I do? And don't give me some stuff like they don't exist, and there is nothing to be scared of or whatever it is. Because I believe in that stuff because I am muslim and believe in jins, devil stuff like this

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u/doradaexplorerr — 27 days ago
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Can I pray sitting

So I have a question: Can I pray sitting if I am very tired. The thing is, I had a really long walk, and I was very tired and my legs hurt, so I prayed sitting. Is it acceptable to do so?

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u/doradaexplorerr — 28 days ago

Adivice on raising twins as a twin

So I ve been seeing a lot of this problem especially on reddit. It is that twins are too close to each other and they do everythibg with each other and also there is a lot of dating problems because of this. And I think it is not normal. Yes ofc they can be close but not to the point. And I think the way to avoid this is actually treating them with difference. What I mean is giving room for each so they can have their space, teaching them boubdaries, try separating from times, give them to different classes, dress them differently. Not only that but treting them as their own person dont make them the same and dont compare for the sake of god they are different individuals with different beauties and bad sides. But please dont overdue with this diferences this can also create problems. Like you are this and the other one is this like dont try to point out or whatever just let them be. And all this difference stuff can lead to conparison so be careful. This advice will prevent a lot of other problems not only this one trust.

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u/doradaexplorerr — 1 month ago

Поступить в европу на бакалавра

Дайте годные реальные советы как все таки поступить в страны Европы. Какие страны можно поступать вот прям что бы бесплатное или на грант обучение

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u/doradaexplorerr — 1 month ago
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Being twins is not that fun

Ok, so I have a twin, and I just want to address problems of having a twin from my own experience.

I don't know why, but people tend to compare twins a lot. Which one is taller, which one is more aggressive, which one is less toleratable. This takes a lot from your individualism. please, yes, characterize me, do whatever you want but not compare to the other because it is like they don't see you, but they see both of you, so you can't feel like you are individual.

The other one is that you can face a lot of comparisons in a negative way. Also, it depends on what type of twin you are like. What I mean is that it is the one that is praised or the failure. Unfortunately, I am the second. Actually, it is kind of just like siblings but in a more personal way, Ig. For example, for us, she was always the kind one, the best one, the cool one, the extroverted one, and here is me. For them, the bad one. Idk what is so wrong with me, but also, I think a lot of problems are on the other people too. Because I mean I am not that bad, and I am very kind and good, but noo because they need to compare, I will be exaggeratingly the evil one. Just because she is slightly kinder than I am, so right away, i am the evil one because, for them, only two sides exist. I mean, I am just like a normal human, just kind and good, and if people didn't know, I have twin they just look at me as cool kind normal person. The same thing goes to a lot of other things.

Also, one disturbing thing is that a lot of a lot of people ask us which one is the good one and which one is the bad one like hello. I don't think your question is appropriate. And because of people usually choosing me as the bad one, I even myself started believing that, and even when people asked, I would answer myself.

Also, Idk why my siblings also do this type of thing Iike they always say to me how much better the other one is or how much more they like her, this constant comparison. I mean, I don't compare my siblings like genuinely for me they are equally good and lovable, but I don't know why they have this thing for me.

The other problem is exactly the opposite to this one. It is that people see us as one person, and it frustrates me a lot. They refer to me in her and my name because they don't know who I am. Or just because she is like this, they claim that I am like this, too. Or just because they are friends with her, they feel the need that they need to be friends with me too to be fair to us. Or if they want to tell her good stuff, they need to say to me to be fair or gift her they feel the need to gift to me too. Like we are not the same person you treat each person differently.

Also, from me personally is that for example I find a good friend, but then they find out about my twin, and they become more friends with her. Or if not abt friends it is that They find her way better person than me. And it is like this every time. Once I had my best friend but she said that she doesn't want to be my best friend anymore because she wants to be best friends with my twin. Idk why but I always play this scenario in my mind like I find my partner and will be good with each other but he sees my twin and he starts to like her way more and eventually leaves me (NOTE my twin is not the type of person who would steal peoples partners). Just how crazy my mind can get.

I feel like if we weren't twins, those kinds of situations would not happen this often, and people would look at us as different people who have different beautiful sides and bad sides. I mean like if I see two people I wouldn't compare, I would look for the characteristics of each person.

Rn we don't even go to the same school and I feel very, very good. I have my own friends she has her own everything our own and not shared. The other thing is We hated wearing the same stuff from the age of six because how much more same we have to be it is too much. I just wanna be me.

This all twin stuff really shaked my view of me as an individual person. BTW I mean, we can see how people love gatekeeping, being niche whatever, personalize yourself and you can understand, this feeling too so guys If you see Twins, don't don't make this mistakes.

I guess this thing is about comparison and individualism. There is a lot more, but it would be long. I just addressed one of the important things.

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u/doradaexplorerr — 1 month ago

Recommend fanfictions about twins (siblings also accepted)

(Not romantic relationship!!!) I just want fanfictions about kind of messed up but not really, but maybe messed up twins relationships (don't you dare recommend romance I am not talking about romance). Smth like comparison to each other type of problem idk. (But any problems are good). For example, Takopi's Original Sin. The brothers in it, naoki and junya, are a perfect example of what I want. Or maybe Cruel Prince Jude duarte and Taryn duarte type of thing too. Siblings are also cool. It is fine if twins or siblings part will be more of a side thing

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u/doradaexplorerr — 1 month ago

Aisha may not have been 9 years old when she got married

So today I was reading a book and in the book they said that Engagement between Prophet and Aisha was made on the 12th year of revelation Nasai, Nikah, 66 (3350); Ahmad ibn Hanbal, Musnad, 6/427 (27448). (But if you dont believe that, just know as a fact that the prophet married aisha after khadiga's death). And in the same book, they talk about her other betrothal with Jubayr, son of Mut’im ibn ‘Adiy and Aisha r.a. The betrothal we can say (because there was not really a contract just like request). So, in the book, it tells Mut’im ibn dreamed of having a daughter-in-law like Aisha who was intelligent, respectful, polite, and pure.

But assessing the changed conditions, Ibn ‘Adiy’s family were defeated by their doubts. When Prophet Muhammad’s revelation began in the cave of mount Hira, Abu Bakr’s family accepted Islam.

From here, we can see that the betrothal was before or at least at the start of the revelation. If we do some math, it doesn't really alight with the age of nine, so with that, we can kind of decide that she could be older.

Let me know your opinions on this

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u/doradaexplorerr — 1 month ago