u/lastofus1029

Do you ever just say the stupidest fucking shit like ever? All of the time? And then just sit with it for hours? Thinking about why you said what you did? WHO GAVE U THE AUDACITY TO SAY SOMETHINY LIKE THAT?!38384&4’rmd

I’m a junior in highschool, and I swear to god sometimes I am SO LOUD and SO MEAN for like no reason. I don’t even mean it like that, it just like happens. I don’t know how or why. My friends and I were talking about who’s gonna get homecoming king, and one of my friends said this guy who I heard has mean names for like all of the girls. I said that I hope he doesn’t get it, then VERY LOUDLY SAID “I don’t know why he has room to talk, he’s 5’2 when he wears his ugly fucking converse” with his friends sitting TEN FEET AWAY. TOPS. AND IM SCREAMING. I think I need to practice going mute. I swear to god. This is all my dumbass is going to think about for weeks. I play a pretty big role in my school and county, i can’t be acting like a mean bitch. But it’s just- I can’t hold it in sometimes. It’s like my mouth moves before my mind catches up with it sometimes. It’s horrible.

im a junior who lives in a rural, impoverished area. im a first gen, with my dad growing up so poor college wasnt even a question, and my mom who barely graduated high school. my high school has ONE care in the world, and that's boy's football. anything else? no one cares. no debate team, no model un team, no sat prep, no ap calc or pre calc (until my senior year next year, of course). my teachers BARELY teach, don't teach to AP curriculum when i'm in an AP class, and quite literally just leave us hanging.

the avg sat score at my school is a 1070 because, in the past three years, only 86 kids have taken it, and all of those kids were in the top half of their classes. as of now, i have the highest SAT score in my class (1320), and there's only one other kid who i think could MAYBE score around what i got. our guidance counselors never told us about the sat, that the psat mattered, and told us that we had to wait until our JUNIOR YEAR to take the sat. i didnt find out until a few weeks ago that you could take the SAT as a FRESHMAN. our average psat is closer to reality, a 960 avg.

i score well on AP tests, i have great grades and extracurriculars, and my teachers love me. i just cant crack the sat. i understand that colleges will look at my score in context, but our school's average isnt even that low because NO ONE TAKES IT. the neighboring highschool in my town has kids going to harvard, columbia, cornell, and yale this year, and our school had ONE KID leave the area, just to go like three hours away to a school w a 100% acceptance rate for d3 basketball. this area and this school makes me feel like i will never become a competitve applicant, because my school is a literal joke. 6% of my school is proficient in math, SIX PERCENT. i feel like im walking up mount everest, and im just so tired of feeling like no matter how hard i work, some kid who had sat prep classes, and was taught how to take tests properly, will easily beat me with little to no effort.

i dont mean to be whiny, its just so frustrating when i hear people wish they had these "hooks" to help them in college admissions. the truth is that those hooks mean so much less than a standardized test score. ive spent my whole life PRAYING to leave my area, and i may never leave it because of this. i feel gutted and alone, im the only one in my grade who wants to leave.

hello! im a rising senior considering applying ed to dartmouth this fall. i had some questions and i was wondering if anyone could answer them and offer any insight they may have.

1- the d-plan: the school year is broken up into four semesters instead of two? does this mean twice the amount of midterms and finals? how rigorous is this? i come from a small, underfunded public high school. im worried about falling behind with this rigor.

2- study abroad/dc internship: as an aspiring govt major who wants to intern in dc for a semester, and also wants to study abroad, is it possible to do both? at a lot of colleges ive looked at, it seems damn near impossible. but maybe a pro to the d-plan IS the fact that you can do both. can anyone speak to the study abroad or internships?

3- government major: how is the government program? im not sure if i want to go pre-law, work for the federal government, think tanks, or possible fbi. is there decent dc placement for grads? is there any recruiting?

4- campus in the middle of nowhere: how "in the middle of nowhere" in dartmouth? for context, i live 30-40 mins from the nearest walmart. how bad is it in comparison to that? i also love snow and the cold, so that's a plus. i know i want to work in dc post-grad, so im just deciding if i want a city campus NOW, or if i want to wait for the city-life until im a bit older, and enjoy my last bits of young-adulthood in the rural-ness.

5- drinking culture: i am not a drinker. ive never drank, i have no desire to drink or do drugs. will this put a large damper on my social life? im not against being AROUND alcohol, and i dont turn my nose to it- i just have zero interest in it. it tastes gross, and i hate headaches LOL.

6- grades: are they inflated or deflated? how rigorous is the school? are you super stressed?

i applied to dartmouth bound so hopefully i get accepted and can experience dartmouth this summer for a few days!

hello! im a rural, first gen, under 100k income student who is applying to college this fall. i live in western md in an underresourced area, and i attend an underresourced high school. i know i want to get out of my small town, and i want to go to a school that has a suburban or urban vibe to it. i know i dont want a huge school either, and i want to be at least 2 hours from home and no more than eight hours from home. i was wondering if i could get some help with some reccomendations for where to apply. we dont have any money saved up for me to go to college, so we are going to be relying on financial aid (we were very very poor when i was little). our agi is about 84k for a fam of four with one working parent who is 58 and nearing retirement. i applied for college prep scholars thru questbridge and was REJECTED LOL :(

my dream would be to go to a school in dc, but i dont think i would get enough aid to afford them

i want to major in political science, with the goal of either getting into law school, consulting, think-tank work in dc, or possibly federal law or a govt job.

here are the schools i like rn: college of the holy cross, george washington uni, american uni, u rochester

here are my stats:

4.0/4.5 gpa

1320 sat (highest in my class, school avg is about 990)

almost completely maxed out courseload of aps: gov, stats, world, lang, apes, spanish lang, psych

top 3 in class of 120

300 service learning hours (only 75 is required for graduation and is built into classes, so no outside service is required)

student member of the board for my county

school year book editor, student council secetary, president of three honor socities (regular, spanish, and social studies)

carson scholar, HOBY ambassador

county leadership program, first gen scholars member

doing the democracy summer online summer scholars program this summer

pls keep in mind that i come from a school where 68% of the kids qualify for free or reduced lunches, and it's a very crappy school/area. i dont think we've had anyone get into a competitive school in probably 15 years or something.

im rocking a whopping 1320... i come from a title 1 rural school that is extremelt underfunded, and the 1320 is the highest score in my grade out of the ten people who've taken it. we make 80k ish a year with one working parent. i have one 4 for an AP Score, and am expecting some 4s and 5s this summer (besides APES LOL). ive maxed out my courseload and i have good extracurriculars for my circumstances, along with a perfect gpa and im top of my class. do i have a shot if i apply ED?