u/miseryofcourse

I’m doing an MRI in a few weeks, but this has been a persisting symptom for an entire year now. I’ve seen an ophthalmologist a couple of times and he ran a lot tests and thinks it’s all benign, but due to other symptoms (vertigo, brain fog, etc.) I’m somewhat concerned about it all. I see starbursts of light every now and then and I recently developed 2 floaters. My eyes were checked for pressure several times and there was no indication that anything was pressing against them. I’m taking that as a good sign, but just wanted to check here. When I brought it up to my doctor, she said she didn’t think that would play a role in having a brain tumor, but all of my symptoms are just freaking me out.

I don’t see any bears in NYC at all.

I will go on a crusade to find someone to have sex with when I feel very sad in my life. It’s like I believe I can’t feel better unless I go and have sex, but often times it feels worse after and I begin to cry. Why don’t I seek out sex and hook ups when I’m in a good place? Why is it just when I feel extremely low?

Maybe I’m jumping the gun a bit, but I don’t see any reason why a building in a prime location would be sold if the motivate wasn’t to renovate or demolish it. I know the tenants have a right to not leave, I just really don’t want to deal with any drama from here on out. Am I just going to be harassed for the rest of my tenancy if they want to renovate and kick me out? I might be ok with a buyout, however the rental market is not something I ever want to enter ever again. I would have to be guaranteed relocation in the same price range. Has anyone else ever went through this?

I’d prefer a stationary wood chair to be honest. Something similar to a bankers chair, not so bulky or on wheels.

Tweets I’ve been seeing since last night’s Euphoria episode like “her career is over” or “she’s dumb, stupid, evil” just for being naked in a television show are…a lot, to say the least. Keep in mind these are the same people who consider themselves “progressive.” Very interesting ouroboros. I actually think Cassie’s storyline is the only one that works because it’s so obviously in on the joke and provoking interesting conversations about/revealing people with contradictory feelings toward women and politics. If a women has the right politics, she is free to and praised for being sexually liberated. But if she does not, those same people slut shame her. I don’t have a political opinion about Sydney Sweeney, but it’s just very obvious that is what’s happening here and it’s unveiling any facade of sexual liberation we were led to believe was taking place unilaterally amongst all women.

Edit: Damn, y’all will say anything to avoid accountability. This is a post about slut shaming and now it’s a referendum on Twitter lol.

I’ve never considered myself a 10 or anything, but Grindr in NYC is so brutal. I feel like I have to get my ass to the gym to even have a shot here and even a perfect body wouldn’t guarantee anything considering I’d be competing with all the other perfect bodies here. I’m a pretty average weight and height, but I never really considered that to be an impediment before being here. In other cities, I’d say most times I reached out to someone they would respond (like 80% success rate). I would have real conversations with guys in other cities, here I’m lucky if at least one decent guy utters a word to me. It has gotten me really down tbh. Sex is nice every now and then, but ultimately I’m really looking for a relationship and the majority of any interest in NYC revolves around the most shallow aspects of attraction, like fitness, career, and social status. It feels like there no point even trying cause none of those things are priorities of mine, so just sort of at a crossroads. Is it dumb to leave a city just because your romantic life is shit? What do all the other non-perfect 10 gay men do here? Am I supposed to really be intentional about leveling up or am I just supposed to accept defeat? Strange situation to be in that I’ve never had to experience before. I’m trying to figure out if this is or isn’t a normal experience here. I mean, it’s not like I haven’t talked to anyone I match with, only I’m just not used to it being so sporadic and inconsistent.

Hope I’m not exaggerating cause I love this franchise so fucking much, but damn that mirror shot is incredible. The thing I love about Evil Dead films is that they’re really artistic without being pretentious or “elevated horror.” The film techniques are always top notch Oscar worthy stuff. Just really, really good visually artistic horror.

As someone who grew up poor, I realize I don’t have a good frame of mind for buying clothes. When I try to pick out outfits with my current wardrobe, I realize I don’t have as many options as I’d like and I usually walk out the door feeling unsatisfied with what I’m wearing. I’d like to change this. I guess overall: is the goal to always walk out the door feeling proud of what you’re wearing? If so, that probably means I have to start buying more clothes. I can afford to buy pretty much whatever I want now, but I always hesitate to pull the trigger on any such clothing item. In my head, I think I have to get the “perfect” shoe or the “perfect” shirt because I have this idea I wont be able to buy another shoe or another shirt for months or even another year. This is a dearth mindset I have that I know isn’t exactly true anymore. I guess I’m wondering how normal it is to just go online, find something you like and just buy it. Or do most of you plan out what you’re going to buy in advance and decide beforehand how much you’re going to spend? Do you spend days or even weeks contemplating if you’re going to buy any one such thing the way I do? It’s the difference between browsing to curate and buying to supply oneself. I think I really want to get into the habit of just buying stuff for myself, I just don’t know why it’s so hard and stressful to pull the trigger on it. I suppose what I’m really wondering is what all your processes for buying clothes are. Is it casual, committed, or rehearsed? Do you just browse or do you think of stocking up on clothes when buying? And when you don’t have a clothing item you wish you did have, do you try to save up for it specifically or do you just buy it outright if you already have the money?