u/mysterious-log123

A few years ago, I wanted attention. The only way to get that was to be lustful. Of course i know that it wasn’t the only way now, but back the to me it seemed to be. Ultimately, I made some poor decisions, bad things happened. This is the three-year anniversary of that time in my life. I’m so thankful that I have changed my lifestyle and views and I’m so thankful for the support that this group offers❤️

As well as that I dated people who had lust full problems that ultimately also ruined our relationships. I think lust affects everyone, and I hope that we can all overcome it and gain our lives back. ❤️

It’s so weird how sentimental we can get towards objects. But I can’t hold onto these things forever, and it’s time to move on. I hope that they find good homes ,and I miss them already and it’s just tough.

I thought i’d care about today more I thought I’d feel some sort of way, but I really don’t. Honestly I’ve only consciously thought about it three times today. I didn’t even know it was today until I got a memory on my phone.

Hey! I made a post a few weeks ago about Glam x Ches fanfiction. The comments convinced me to write my own, so i did!

Its called Stack the Deck on wattpad!

Im curious how to upload it onto AO3? It’s a browser right? So do i make an account on the browser? Anyone who knows i’d love some advice in the comments or a dm!

Anyone else write any fan fiction? I’d love to read some!! Im thinking about doing Lydia x ches next!

Anyway, have a great day!

I’m 17, i’ve never met anyone else with this. My friends dont understand, and my parents are just anxious. After my first episode where my eyes went all crazy i remember going to the doctor and saying “um, i’m dizzy i guess” and waiting 5 hours.

I’m on meds i have to take three times a day, and im just so dizzy. My jaw hurts, my ears hurt, my vision is messed up, i hate this. From what i’ve learnt online, there really isnt a cure. I’m hoping to get a referral to get ear infection meds, surgery to shave my adenoids down, as well as place in tubes. I had tubes for most of my life as my thing thar drains the bad stuff out is flat, so i got a bunch of ear infections. I’m really telling myself if they do that it will all go away.

A doctor told me hes had it on and off throughout his life, and people online are saying i’ll need neurological therapies and shit. I was going to apply to a job, but now idk. Im so dizzy how do i work? I have a lead in our school musical, well what if i have an episode on stage?

Help?

Just got put onto it, i have three pills a day for an unknown time. Google says it will thin my blood?? Weird stuff.

“Oh my gosh what happened to your arm?!”

looks down at my arm confused

“How didnt i notice?!”

clicks

mentally debates between planned excuse and something more logical

“Oh uhm…that was…well…my cat” blank stare

“I dont believe that” “but i’ll change the topic”

OH MY GOSH GUYS!! I wanted to die!! So embarrassing.

Went to a big park with friends. Road trips, camping, whole thing. So we’re hiking, and i thought it wouldn’t be that bad. Maybe she wouldn’t notice you know? But i have to wear a tank top because i’d probably die from overheating. But bandages would be more noticeable.

Anyway, i dont think she’ll say anything more. We have been friends a while, and she knows i harm. Just probably concerned.

Just ate day old food out of the trash. Was two days without binging. Tried to puke it up, couldnt. Never can.

So disgusting.

Nothing ever happened, he was always very professional.

He was young, maybe about 4/5 years older then us students. Because of this we shared a lot of pop culture, and he got along well with students. He played sports so the guys respected him, and he teased and joked around with the girls, so they liked him.

I was a bit of a trouble maker back then, he used to have to tell my group to focus a lot. I remember once i said to my friend

“Why should we listen to him anyway? He doesnt know us”

He retorted

“Oh i know your name \\\_\\\_”

Let’s just say i was beat red! I sat in the front so he always would look at me when teaching and always noticed my questions. He used to sit down with me and help me. It was really nice, i got to know him a lot.

He and i would walk to the photo copier together, and i’d stand in there with him as he waited. It was just the two of us in this small room, i was sooo crazy about him! We would gossip as we walked back to his class about my classmates, and our lives.

I remember once i was yelled at by a man on my way to school. He called me a slur and i came crying. It wasnt a required school day, it was for extra help. As a theatre kid we had to go in to practice. I came in crying and bumped into him. He stopped walking and asked me what was wrong. When i told him, he set down his papers and headed outside to check if the guy was still there. I thought it was soo protective and romantic!

He told me i was his favourite student, because of this he gave me snacks. The science class he taught in had a door that lead to a private office. I’d let myself in and he would secretly give me snacks. All teachers had some, but he had decided his students took advantage of them. So he stopped giving them to students. Just me. I always showed up to his class early. He gave a quiz every friday so you had to show up. I forced him to leave his door open in the mornings so i could ‘review’

I always wanted to follow him (insta) when i turned 18, but thought it was stupid/wouldnt remember me.

Anyway. Nothing ever happened, but gosh did i have a crush.

My friend, lets call him Mike, is muslim. Mike struggled with internal homophobia, and still does. He got the guts to confess to a guy, lets call Josh. Josh told him he was straight and not interested. Mike would yell at him and tell him not to say those things. He actually would try and get Josh to touch him and try and touch Mike. Mike would hear Josh say “No” or “i dont really want to” and take that as him not being ready.

Meanwhile, Josh would try and kill himself in front of Mike. Once, Mike and him got into an argument. Josh tried to strangle himself, and Mike held him down and tried to stop him. This all sent Mike spiralling. Mike started having panic attacks, and had to go to the hospital. That evening while he was at hospital, Josh tried to kill himself. Mike begged his family to leave so they could see Josh, but they would not let him. He started hitting them and they called the cops…

I know my opinion doesnt matter. But he kept this hidden from myself and my friend for two years. He also only told us about the self harm and manipulation, i only found out about Mike forcing stuff when i read a chat he didnt want me to see. When i asked, Mike told me he didnt wanna talk about it. He told me it was nothing sexual.

I know they never actually dated. Mike tried to touch him, and faced mental health problems because Josh kept trying to kill himself. He even tried to jump in front of cars in front of Mike. He ignored how upset Mike got over the reminder of his rejection.

I just…feel like Mike is wrong?? I know you cant be ‘wrong’ in bad relationships, but i just cant see past this? Mike said he wasnt even Joshes friend, he just wanted him romantically. It felt like he couldnt handle rejection….

I wish i could hear Joshes prospective.

Now, Josh started dating one of Mikes friends, its a really big thing now. But i just dont know if i can stand by Mike.

Am i missing something?? Can you find someones reaction to abuse wrong? Can i have an opinion? I need an outside pov.

More important, how do i help him? How so i support? What should i say?

I’m afraid shes done it better than i did.

Honestly, i underestimated her. She was outcasted and disliked. So, we invited her to join our groups. We talked to her and were nice to her. Then, she starts acting weird around me. I realize shes blocked me on everything. How weird!

I then find out, not only is she dating my ex boyfriend, but shes also befriended my ex best friend. Both of them grew to hate me and cut me out of their lives.

The cherry on top? I was the first girl to date him, he was really only known for dating me. So when everyone found out, THEY KEEP SENDING ME PHOTOS OF THEM TOGETHER!

I DONT WANT HIM!! I just am so jealous. Does his mom like her more than me? Does his sister think shes cooler? Do my ex boyfriend and ex best friend trash talk me and they all sit there on the couch i was one fingered on and laugh about how annoying i am?

Thanks for letting me get this off my chest. They both use reddit and i think this is a pretty recognizable post, so if they see this, i hate you fucking cucks.

I’m afraid shes done it better than i did.

Honestly, i underestimated her. She was outcasted and disliked. So, we invited her to join our groups. We talked to her and were nice to her. Then, she starts acting weird around me. I realize shes blocked me on everything. How weird!

I then find out, not only is she dating my ex boyfriend, but shes also befriended my ex best friend. Both of them grew to hate me and cut me out of their lives.

The cherry on top? I was the first girl to date him, he was really only known for dating me. So when everyone found out, THEY KEEP SENDING ME PHOTOS OF THEM TOGETHER!

I DONT WANT HIM!! I just am so jealous. Does his mom like her more than me? Does his sister think shes cooler? Do my ex boyfriend and ex best friend trash talk me and they all sit there on the couch i was one fingered on and laugh about how annoying i am?

Thanks for letting me get this off my chest. They both use reddit and i think this is a pretty recognizable post, so if they see this, i hate you fucking cucks.

I think this is a pretty irredeemable character moment
for Elliot. From Seans perspective, she had been telling Sean not to worry about JD. JD was a major insecurity point in their relationship, that she quickly proves valid. After the act, she does not tell him, and proceeds to have sex with him. From JDs perspective, he has been lead on, (not really but from his pov) off and on with this girl for years, and she just uses him whenever she wants sex. She offers no actual explanation, or apology. She just expects him to be okay with it. The excuse of “you know how it ends” that is nottt fair.

To me, in this episode she cheats on her long term boyfriend, and disregards everyone elses emotions. Honestly Elliot always victimizes herself and is ALWAYS down on her luck. Yes, i do like her, and i love her character. But she has literally told other people to stop pitying themselves. Anyway sorry this turned into a hate post.

“How about you remember you’re supposed to be my friend?”

How about you treat him that way?! Shes always changing their relationship and hes just supposed to stand by and accept it??

I’m very tired of constantly seeing people online discuss Charlie Swan. They constantly defend his character, and describe how twilight must’ve been very traumatic for his character, and how Bella didn’t deserve him. Lets get something straight, book Charlie and movie Charlie are not the same guy. But even movie Charlie is neglectful.

Charlie Swan is often portrayed as a well-meaning but flawed father whose passivity and emotional distance contribute significantly to Bella's parentification. Although Charlie recognized that Renee struggled to provide Bella with a stable home, he never sought custody or attempted to become her primary caregiver. Instead, throughout Bella's childhood, he spent only one month each year with her until she was fourteen, after which their visits were reduced to just two weeks annually. This arrangement left Bella to assume adult responsibilities while caring for her mother, despite Charlie being aware of the situation.

When Bella moved to Forks, Charlie's parenting style remained largely passive. Rather than establishing himself as the responsible adult in the household, he allowed Bella to immediately take over cooking, cleaning, grocery shopping, and laundry without objection. Having lived alone for seventeen years, Charlie appeared surprisingly incapable of managing basic domestic tasks himself. At one point, he even attempted to microwave an unopened metal can of spaghetti, requiring Bella to intervene before he caused an accident. These moments reinforce that Bella functions less as his daughter than as his caretaker, while Charlie grows comfortable relying on her to maintain their home.

Charlie's emotional support is similarly inconsistent. Much of his free time is devoted to work, fishing, or spending time with friends, leaving Bella alone for extended periods and reinforcing her independence rather than providing parental guidance. When he does intervene, it is often through punishment instead of communication. For example, he disables Bella's truck engine because he suspects she might sneak out rather than discussing his concerns with her. During Bella's severe depression following Edward's departure, Charlie responds primarily with frustration, slamming the table and yelling instead of offering emotional comfort. He even considers sending Bella back to Renee rather than seeking professional help or exploring healthier ways to support her recovery.

Charlie's attitudes toward Bella's autonomy are also problematic. After Jacob kisses Bella without her consent, Charlie praises Jacob by saying, "Good for you," dismissing Bella's lack of consent while jokingly asking Jacob whether he wanted to press charges after Bella punched him in self-defense. He also repeatedly encourages Bella's relationship with Jacob because he personally prefers him over Edward, placing his own opinions above Bella's clearly expressed wishes. These moments suggest that Charlie often fails to respect Bella's emotional boundaries or treat her decisions with the seriousness they deserve.

Although Charlie occasionally demonstrates practical care, such as putting snow chains on Bella's truck or worrying about her physical safety, these gestures do little to outweigh his broader pattern of emotional detachment, passivity, and dependence. As a character, Charlie is not portrayed as malicious, but as a parent whose failure to take initiative consistently leaves Bella without the guidance, protection, and emotional support she needs. His inaction forces Bella into the role of caretaker from a young age, making parentification one of the defining aspects of their relationship.

This is one of the major reasons she even likes the Cullens! because they’re the only people who don’t force a caregiver role on her. If her family was better, there’s a chance that she may have never even liked the Cullens. I’m willing to say that a lot of the reason she did is solely because she enjoyed the escape and being looked after for once, I mean not to repeat myself, but literally while she’s having an emotional breakdown, her father can’t deal with it and wants to send her away!

I’m watching her now. Instead of crying, arguing, commenting, i’m posting here. Thats what all this stuff is for right? Support? Comfort? Off my chest? Well here i am, trying those things.

Shes holding a cigarette in one hand, joint in the other, and is downing her wine. I hate camping season, she drinks everyday drunk every night. Does her head hurt? Lungs? I imagine her lungs, how they look. It upsets me, makes me feel tears in my eyes. Her lazy movements, stumbling, how physical she gets or loud. Its just hard to be around. I hate it.

Wish she’d stop. But she won’t, she’ll die first.