u/penguin-boy15

It's not the start of highschool where I'm from so it's not a big thing, but for me it is because I'm finally going to a new school since I had problems at my old one. It's also a private school and I'll get to go with my two little brothers who are in 5th and 7th grade. So it'll be cool to be at the same school.

But most importantly I have this great new teacher. I've already been texting with him and sending him some of my writing (since I wanna become an author) and he said I'm the best writer my age he has seen and that he'll continue to help me out with it. He's also been very helpful in accommodating me because I have some mental health issues. He's the nicest teacher I've ever had.

There's also a writers club so I'll love to join that one. And my boyfriend is going to the same school (as his dad is paying all of our tuition lol) and they put us in the same class which means we'll get to sit next to each other.

It'll just be much better than my old school.

That's what my homophobic dad would always say to me while beating me up or burning me with cigarettes and such things. When I was 5 he noticed I liked my best friend. He probably noticed earlier but this is when he thought it got "too much". One day I was just waving goodbye to that friend and made a kissing gesture at him and when we got home my dad hurt me for the first time. He tried anything he could come up with, like literally anything. And he did it continuously for years. He was probably ripping his hair out seeing that I still kept going back to the same boy nonetheless. I'm 15 now and he still hasn't given up or gotten it into his thick head that whatever he does it won't fucking work. My dad wanted me to remember the pain he inflicted on me every time I look at my boyfriend but all I feel when I look at him is love because he's so beautiful and he makes me forget any pain. So fuck you dad but your shit was for nothing. I still look at that boy every day and I kiss him and touch him and no matter what you do nothing is gonna change or ruin that for me.

I don't know how to describe this feeling, but I love my boyfriend so much that just looking at him and seeing his pretty face and smile makes me feel like all of the bad things in my life aren't so bad. And they really are bad and they always have been. But even when I was little and someone would hurt me I would think of him and I would know I'll be okay.

I love nothing more than making him happy. He deserves everything good in this world and I'll become the kind of man who can give it to him. There are a lot of things I don't know yet because I'm just a kid and things have always been very unstable and changed a lot but if there's one thing I've always known and will always know it's how much I love him.

I love him so much that it's stronger than all my negative feelings and the negative feelings of people who have tried to get us apart (because we're both boys). I'll never feel any of that pain or fear or anger as strongly as I feel my love for him so it doesn't really matter.

He's so beautiful I could look at him forever. I've never in my life looked at anyone else like this and I don't ever feel the need to. I don't wanna look at anyone else at all because nobody could be as perfect as him. He's the most beautiful person inside and out.

When I first realized how I feel about him before even going to first grade I hadn't really seen or met that many people yet and I still knew he would be the only one I'll ever want. I just want to wake up seeing him every day, hear his voice and feel his touch. He makes me want to be strong and kind and keep trying no matter how bad things are. I've never felt any less for him over the years. Honestly he just gets more beautiful to me every day.

I usually don't watch Netflix cuz they don't have most of the movies I'm interested in but right now I'm on vacation and Netflix is all I have. I don't care about the genre but I need some recs on what movies or shows I could watch that aren't too long and are age appropriate I guess.

I'm on vacation and I was waiting for my family at this beach bar when a woman who was like 35 or something sat down with me. The thing is it's probably my fault because I really didn't clock anything she was doing and I feel a little stupid now. But like I genuinely didn't realize she was hitting on me until the very end. I didn't have a shirt because we came from the beach and I was cold asf and she could probably tell because she gave me her jacket and I took it. Then she asked if I wanted a cocktail. I told her I can't drink because I'm 15 so she got me one of those children's cocktails without alcohol with just juice and shit and I like those so I didn't say no. She started just talking to me and she even touched my hair and arm but I still didn't think she was a pedo. Not until she asked if I wanted to come to her hotel because they have a hot tub and I could warm up there. She said she has a little brother my age and I could hang out with him. I said I can't just go with a stranger but she got really pushy about it, that's when I knew there's something wrong with her.

Then another woman (she was younger, maybe like 25) who was sitting close by came up to us and started telling the other one to leave me alone. They got into an argument about it and I felt hella awkward and also kinda stupid. Eventually the younger woman started calling the other one a pedo and stuff out loud and she got embarrassed and left. I was also kinda embarrassed just because I didn't notice earlier and let her talk to me for like half an hour.

The younger woman waited with me until my mom arrived there. I do feel kinda dumb now but I also feel weird about it. This kinda stuff has happened to me before but with men. And I didn't think a woman would do it. Now that it did happen it sorta makes me feel even worse.

I'm gonna go into 9th grade, my brother into 7th and my other brother into 5th. I needed to change schools because I had problems at mine. And this new one is a really fancy private school and it's good for special needs kids (my brothers and I all are). But my mom could never afford that. So my boyfriend's dad decided to pay all our tuitions and send my boyfriend there too so we can all go there. I'm so happy about it because the school looks really great and I can go there with my siblings too.

I'm pretty sure he's doing it out of guilt. For a very long time my dad and my boyfriend's dad were in love, or I better say they still are. But things didn't work out. So he said he wants to do right by me cuz he couldn't do right by my dad.

My brothers aren't my dad's children, but I think he just wants to pay my mom back a little. My mom has always been taking care of my bf like he's her own son ever since he was a baby. His dad is rich but he's very neglectful, so my mom has done the most for him. And she doesn't accept any money from my bf even tho he's at our place all day because she doesn't wanna take money for food etc from a child. But if his dad now pays for our school I think that's a good thing to give her something back at least.

For the first time I'm even a little excited for the summer holidays to end lol

I know my dad pretty well and I know exactly how he feels because I'm just like him. But I'll never know the rest of him. I understand why he's the way he is but that's all I know and that's the only thing that makes me his son. He's the most evil and disgusting monster I've ever seen. I don't know a single normal thing about him. I wouldn't know his favorite color or what food he likes or anything at all.

Recently my boyfriend's dad (who used to be my dad's lover) told me about him and he said my smile is exactly like his. I've never seen my dad smile even once in the 15 years I've been alive. I wouldn't know what his smile looks like. Then I realized that this man is the only person who knows my dad in a way I never will. He told me my dad used to love race cars and that he was funny and caring and treated him a lot like I treat his son now. And I can't even imagine that because I'm the most gentle and loving person to my boyfriend and I can't picture my dad like that at all.

My bf's dad told us about how before we were born his family paid my dad's family to get some guys together and scare them out of continuing their secret relationship. And hearing the details of what they did to them fucked me up a lot, especially because some of it are the same things my dad would later do to me. So all I know is that he saw the only person he loved be tortured that way and then did the same to his son for no other reason than loving the wrong gender.

I never see a person when I look at my dad. He's just a monster. And I hate knowing things about him that make him human because I don't want to realize that he once was. I wanted him to be just this evil monster. Not someone I can understand. He'll never be human in my eyes, not after what he has done, but I wish I would've seen the human in him with my own eyes. And that he would see me as one. Because all he has ever called me is a disgusting animal. He doesn't know anything about me either. The only thing we know about each other is that we both fell for those boys from that family and the pain that it's caused.

My boyfriend looks just like his dad when you look closely, so the closest I'll ever feel to the human part of my dad is when I look at my boyfriend and imagine how my dad must've felt looking at the boy he loved 25 years ago. Or when I feel disgusted for who I am because I know he must hate himself even more. Or when he hurts me because I know he must know what it feels like, and nobody else could understand this specific pain.

I've never had one normal conversation with him, I've never talked to him at all. He knew I had turned out wrong too before I could even speak properly. And I could feel how much he hated me even then and so I never started to say the word "dad" at all. I said my now boyfriend's name before I would ever say the word dad as a toddler. I never got to see him as a dad or as a person at all but I wish I could.

I've seen online that a lot of people are really sensitive about it. Like they'll call you weird if you're friends with someone just a few years younger and I think it's stupid. I'm 15 and one of my friends is 3 years younger. I also have a friend group who are mostly around his age. Then I have another friend group and they're about 19. I've never thought it's a big deal to just be friends with people of different ages.

I'm kinda bored so if anyone wants to talk hmu, I don't care about what. I'm also always open to make new online friends.

My hobbies/interests include reading, writing, gaming, anime, manga, comics and sports. I do kickboxing and skateboarding.

I'm kinda bored so if anyone wants to talk hmu, I don't care about what. I'm also always open to make new online friends.

I vented about how my dad abused me for being gay since I was literally 5 years old and some fucking idiot went like "it's sad you see your father's direction as hatred". What direction? He literally hates me. It literally is hatred. He literally tortured me. And he ruined my fucking life. I don't give a shit if you're homophobic. Anyone can think whatever they want about that. But what you can't do is fucking torture a little kid. He's a literal psychopath. Someone like him could never change for the better, and it's not like he even tried. He never changed, he's still abusive and he won't stop as long as I'm a kid and can't defend myself.

I know my dad is an evil pos but what pisses me off is when people try to defend him. Even if you're homophobic you cannot possibly agree with what he did or you're definitely not sane. Even if you think hitting your kid for discipline is okay (which it's NOT) then you would still realize that he went so far beyond what even an already abusive parent would think is acceptable. I don't care if your dad spanked you and you forgave him. My dad didn't fucking spank me.

Or the people who don't even know shit about it and then say stuff like "he's still your father" or "he deserves a second chance". I can't even speak out loud what he deserves but it's not a second chance. He needs to be locked tf up. And anyone who says shit like this too. Y'all have never even met a person as evil as him so don't talk to me about some bullshit like this.

I just saw some post complaining about people doing this and how weird it is and it seems kinda crazy to me. I can't speak for girls but as a boy I always wear just my boxers and my brothers do the same, in the summer at least. And I've never met anyone who doesn't do that. It's literally the same coverage as at the public pool so why would I care if it's around my mother and siblings.

I'm 15 and it's 3.7 inches hard and about 2.8 inches flaccid. My friend (a girl) made fun of me and said it's too small. I'm not that far into puberty yet so I thought it's fine but she kinda made me worry about it now. I've never really seen that of anyone else my age so I'm not sure how big it's supposed to be.

Some boy moved into the house across from mine. He looked like he was around my age so my friend and I went to his place and just knocked. The boy's dad opened and we asked if his son can come out and play with us. We brought him to the woods where we usually go and showed him some of the games we usually play. When we went back home in the evening the boy gave us his number immediately so I'm assuming he wants to meet again and be friends. From what I've seen most people our age make getting friends more complicated nowadays but this way it's actually pretty easy. If you find the right person of course.

Yes your son is still in love with a boy and still sleeps with a boy and yes I kiss him every day on the mouth and whenever you'd fuck me up as a little kid I would go to the playground and I'd fucking kiss him anyways. Even if you told me again and again how you're gonna kill me like the pig I am I still went to see him. And I do every day. No matter how many times you beat me and how much of your therapy you do on me. No matter how many names you call me and how much you tell me how disgusting I am. Guess what, it didn't fucking work. You ruined my life but you'll never get me away from him. You'll never ever make me stop loving him. I'll always be that little animal you hate so much. And so will you. Because I know you're just the same you pathetic piece of shit. No matter how many drugs you take or how much you hate yourself or how much you beat me, you'll still be just the same you stupid coward. And I don't give a fuck what your dad did to you and how you and your lover boy didn't make it. I don't give a fuck that y'all couldn't handle your shit. I'm not weak like you. Some day we'll move far away and get married and I'll send you pictures of our wedding so you can lose your shit over it for all I care. Get the hell over it.

Well I wish I could say this to his face right now. Sometimes I even do but it doesn't end well because I'm just a kid and he's too strong for me. But some day I will be stronger than him and then he'll really listen. He's genuinely so fucking insane. Ever since I was 5 years old he's been beating me because of this and done even worse stuff. He forced me to eat dirt and shoved dirty shoes into my mouth. He showed me all that straight porn when I was little to fix me. He kicked me in the balls and said he'll cut my dick off so I won't ever be able to have sex with a boy when I was 7 years old. I didn't even know how sex worked yet, I was just in love. He burned me with cigarettes and said he hopes I'll remember the pain whenever I look at that boy. Then he showed me all those real videos of gay people being killed and said that's what he'll do to me if he ever catches me. And still he never managed to get me away from the boy I love. So fuck you dad.

I'm 15m and 5'8. I haven't really had a growth spurt yet and I'm not super far into puberty. My dad is 6'5-6'6 and my mom is 5'11. What's a realistic height for me to reach?

I have two baby teeth left and they're just not falling out. I lost all the other ones before the age of 13, it's just these two. Do I need to go to the dentist and do they need to be pulled? Or will they still fall out?

My friend and I (both 15m) went to this waterpark but some woman kept following us around (I'd guess she's like late 20s or around 30). Like whenever we went to the pool she went there and when we went to the slides she went there too etc. Even when we went into the children's area on the smaller slides she came and sat down right next to it. But she didn't have any little kid to watch so it's obvious she just did it because of us.

A couple of time she tried to casually talk to us like we're adults and would somehow like to small talk with her but we kinda ignored her tbh. One time she asked if we brought our girlfriends or something and I said no we just brought my mom. She also kept trying to compliment us whenever she tried to have a conversation. It was really annoying because sometimes we just wanted to stay in one spot but she showed up and we had to leave.

The weirdest part was when she said my swim trunks were kinda sexy because how on earth would she find them sexy when I was literally wearing minecraft shorts. They were the ones that are rather tight and I mean it's not like you could really see my dick shape or anything but it made me uncomfortable so I changed into my spare pair which are baggy. My mom asked why and I said this woman keeps staring at us and she said I was being ridiculous.

Eventually my friend and I also told someone working there that the woman was following us around constantly and he just said that she can move freely and go wherever she wants. So yeah we just let it go then. But it was super annoying and kinda ruined our fun. I don't care if I'm being ridiculous but I found it creepy and it kinda ruined my mood.

I kinda have some stuff going on right now but nobody to talk to. If anyone wants to talk hmu

I didn't think it would get to the point of me ranting about it but the responses are just trash. It wasn't always this way, the responses actually used to be fun and make sense. Now I have to refresh 500 times or mostly edit the whole reply and just write it myself to get anything close to what the character is supposed to say. I make all my characters myself with detailed descriptions, have tons of info and pinned messages added and it still can't get the most minor facts ever right. Every message has the same stupid ring to it and just sounds like straight up slob on top of it. My friends and I who are 15 can genuinely write better roleplays. Too bad they're currently too busy cuz I'm going crazy with this app.