after you die. you will be asked four questions under ground.
who is your god?
who is your prophet?
what is your book?
what is your religion?
so like. did Muhammad exist before adam and eve? what about the people that came before islam. do they get an exception? how the hell do people believe that?
i dont have any groomers in my city but the vet shaved her, also im a minor with absolute no experience. i couldn't even do the matted hair so i was scared to mess it up
another thing i want to add: since as i said in the comments that i had no groomers in my city. i THOUGHT because im not experienced that vets can groom them. i was actually horrified and shocked when the vet straight up shaved her. idk, she had tons of matted her (since the first day i saw her) i tried to undo it using my hands or a brush but it was too complicated so i couldn't do it. and alot of fleas that were hard to see or get out
there is this guy on tiktok that posted a video saying women who lost their virginity aren't scared they are just stupid. it has nothing to do with religion. the comments are mostly. im a muslim so i gotta be smart, Im a muslim, i wait till marriage, i agree with a hajib sticker. like i promise you that you are not cool and that this video has nothing to do with religion and your religion didnt save you because thousands of teenagers with religion get pregnant. they are muslims and Christians too
My SAT test is in 2 months. i really know nothing even tho im taking courses. the moment i atart readinf and studying my eyes fight to stay open, my body becomes weak. weither i fought or not it wont work. if i fought to stay awake my brain shuts down and i WILL eventually sleep and if i slept then im never studying. i use ai alot cause during the basic SAT course i would sleep cause i cant, my body is fighting for its life. is anyone feeling the same?
Imagine this, there was no religion since the beginning of life, nothing. and there was slavery, misogyny and the world was unfair. then people started protesting. asking for equality for men and women. fighting aganist slavery. refusing child marriages, LGBTQ rights, love is love, protesting for equal human rights between men and women.
and then religion come. a completely normal human being decided. i dont know all the questions about life so let me create god. i never seen it, i never heard it but i hallucinated and saw someone telling me someone in the sky exists. and then that guy goes around. promoting child marriage, women to be obedient, that women are less intelligent than men, that men cant love men, women cant love women and child marriage is okay (like Muhammad marrying a 6 year old), allowing slavery. imagining how would people react to this. of course they wont be life "oh my, i believe in something i never saw that wants all the bad things happening on earth and for us to devolve" no, they would hate on that guy and call him a psychopath. like a guy i saw on insta saying he was god. everyone mocked him, why? cause what is he even talking about.
and religion telling women to be obedient for their husbands. how would the women react if feminism came before religion. of course attack that man.
in my country one of the most things i heard about religion is women saying religion gave us rights. no, it gave you BASIC human rights. enough to convince women at that time who were oppressed, but he never gave you equal rights as a man. and if you cant believe it just imagine religion coming in our modern life now.
i see alot of religious people online arguing with atheists that without religion morality wont exist, that because of religion the world is filled with kind people. but some of these people are not with a good heart. they are just scared of what they were told as they grow up. punishment. im a self harmer and one time i went very deep. mom didnt get me to a hospital but today a cat scratched me and she is getting me to a hospital in a few minutes. i asked her what is the difference? especially that she admitted that she knew i should have gotten stitches. and she said "its because i dont want god to punish me. at least when you hurted yourself i didnt see it but this cat scratch i saw it so in the eyes of god i have no excuse". a mother only cared when there was something she believed was real. religious people dont have morality out of their kind heart but its out of fear
a few months ago mom discovered i was talking to the school counselor and she said why dont you talk to me? but literally what she does is whenever we fight she starts mocking me. and threating me with things she knows i suffer from. like telling me she is going to push me to the brick of suicide. yea, just like that. because she knows i have a long history with suicide. and she also mocks my self harm scars. like saying at least i dont slice my skin open. always, ALWAYS when we fight she uses words like this aganist me and it brings me so much urges to do bad things to myself and it really puts me down
i was taking care of my turtles, had her for 6 years and i noticed her nails are really long (idk if it is or am i just overreacting) and it got me wondering if we trim and clean turtle's nails. if so when to trim it and where or can i do it myself?
since i was 9 my grandmother started telling me i should wear more modestly. and that my body will attract me. she used to sit with me for hours telling me how i shouldnt wear something revealing. and since i used to sit with her alot i started feeling like. wow, i hate being a girl. my grandmother is right. i should cover up so men wouldnt be attracted. imagine religion telling young girls as young as 8 since some girls hit puberty at 8 to cover up from head to toe so they wouldnt attact old men. i remember fighting with my mom telling her at 11 that i want to wear the hajib. i cant go out showing my arms, i cant go out showing my hair. thats haram. and idk, i feel alot of girls relate and some of these girls think like this forever and its genuinely heartbreaking how some girls are raised on these propagandas and think if a man flirts with them its their fault
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my mom and i were talking. i don't really
remember how the conversation started but it shifted to women in Afghanistan. and i replied to her telling her like. cant you see the oppression happening to women in Afghanistan? mom they literally have a fucking CAGE infront of their eyes. she replied "its not a cage, its religion" fuck religion mom i dont give a flying fuck about it or its fucking weirdos who invited this cult. i had my jaw on the floor. imagine a woman defending what the men are doing to these poor women. but here comes the twist. this woman, my mom literally fought for her independence. she and my dad dont talk. they live like divorced couple without the law saying. why? because my dad is a misogynistic bitch who thinks women should focus on kids, home. while men provide. so he fought with her alot not to work and she fought for it. fought to work cause she thinks she has the rights. she then continued by saying "thats the internet, the internet is making you pull away from religion (little does she know im an anti-theist)" i didnt reply but im THANKFUL it did. i cant wait till i turn 18 to move out
i was scrolling on reddit and saw a post saying "how to communicate with an atheist kids" honestly seeing that an atheist kid just exploring is not even left alone was really sad, but then i opened the comment and it was full of people joking about using violence. like someone saying "Where is the black strap?" or "whip him out of this shit" and something i just saw is "electricute them" or "hit them with the electric (the electric straps that are used in tv) i dont know which one is the right translator but both are still severely wrong ON A CHILD and it make sense why no kid is able to come out to their parents including me. the fact that they are joking about hitting a child for just having doubts about the existence of god is heartbreaking. if you want a child, just accept them as they are and let them explore the world, they werent brought to this world to live on your terms
my family keep saying that i should cover up but how can i cover up when my arm improved THIS much? im still struggling with SH but i stopped it entirely on my arm. first pic is my arm now and second pic was a year ago :)
i have been trying to find alternatives for self harm. showering, holding an ice cube till it melts, writing, making myself busy. but one worked the most. i saw it on tiktok. snapping a rubber band onto my wrist. at first i didnt snap too hard and it was okay. it helped. but when i snapped it too hard. my wrist was red and swallon and i dont know if that is considered selfharm or no.
i remember my online friend telling me he was from Louisiana when we were first friends. we have been friends for over a year and i have him followed on insta. but i noticed he follows one high school, we are both 16 so we are still in high school and when i searched i noticed it was in in a state that was not in Louisiana. he posted a story about a teacher from a post the school posted because he love this teacher. it makes me wonder. did he lie to me about where he is from but if he really lied. why are we still friends? he isnt secretive at all or at least i think so. like he told me he has no siblings. so we are like siblings he doesnt have a dad but has a mom. but i remember telling him about a friend of mine that lost his dad to suicide and immediately said that his dad did too. now im skeptical did he say that for attention? i KNOW his dad is dead because he posted a story saying his dad would habe been (age) today. and he said his dad wasnt a good man. and one time he told me his friend commited suicide and when i told him if i can do anything to cheer him up he said maybe send a photo. he isnt as weird as a year ago. but question. is it a coincidence that he moved to another state while in our one year friendship? cause if no then im questioning all the things he said
i tried searching but i didnt find what i want. im assuming im doing braids the wrong way. but i dont know how to do the right because this is a very normal basic braid and when i searched it showed the same steps i do and the braid was perfect but mine isnt
i have been wondering for years what my eye color is. normally in the sun it looks green. in the light it looks blue. i think its green hazel but im not sure
i genuinely would rather not have an ID forever than to wear a hajib. when i turned 15 my dad was like. its time to wear the hajib since they wont let you get an ID without one :) now thats a bullshit excuse. im from egypt and i definitely know its more than allowed he just wants me to wear it in anyway that when i was 14 he threatened to force me if i wont wear it willingly. he is a bullshit excuse of a man anyways. rarely paying in the house and expecting to boss around. I have left islam secretly a year ago.
i dont know what to do. i will not go out wearing a hajib. not disrespecting anyone but i cannot walk around with it. and i know if i told him i want to take it off its like telling him to kill me. what should i do?