u/themermaidmuse

Acknowledging the wisdom in your blood and bones; your connection to the land and sky?

I feel like infps are considered quiet, tranquil, calm, I try to be like that and I am at times, but not really that often. My beloved said I should have been an actress. I feel like I fit the r/enfp mould much more, and I've been visiting there. But I don't like being with people etc. I like reflection and inwardness all the time. But I'm fifty percent extrovert. I guess we are all deeply variegated and multifaceted.

I truly dread going to sleep, I am left alone by spirits all day, but during sleep time they wreck me, I truly wake up a wreck. It takes me an hour or two in the morning to recover. They drain me too. It's very physical. I also always have bad dreams pretty much since things started. Before that I had beautiful sacred dreams. I also at that time think about all the bad things in my life. So yes I dread going to sleep. Also, my meds give me incredibly shallow sleep so I feel like I never slept at all. Every time I go off the meds I sleep deeply, but obviously I've got to be on aps.

P.s if you have a problem with me referring to them as spirits please don't reply to my post, understanding spirits is a deep part of my ancestral and cultural heritage. 🌿🌀

Are they like enchantresses? I guess they have the power to transform into humans in some folklore, and they enchant men to their deaths in folklore too. But is there anything in the folklore or tales that says they have magical gifts or powers? Or maybe just your own intuitive thoughts on this, or experiences, or dreams? doesn't have to be from the folklore. Sending 💙🌀🌊

It is much better than Pinterest which is full of ai, I found endless seascapes, ocean reels 🌊🐙, seashell purses, mermaid tail hairpins, mermaid tea parties, mermaid jewels, oceanic scents and perfumes. I was having an okay sunday morning, but i am now totally inspired to make mermaidesque amulets and jewels, clothing and paintings. To also write sea & siren stories and poetry. it brightened my morning so, so much, with all the aqua colours, crystals, shells and oceanic things. also I'm reading a book, daughters of the tide that is abour selkies and the sea so check that out too. Mermaid & oceanic things truly are what make me happiest.

Some of the beautiful things I found

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DREY9GdkT4x/

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DLJRVakIf1t/

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZSh9zjR0oO/

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DTiIsbqCAp4/

https://www.instagram.com/p/DZ81b\\\_iq1bU/

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ\_EwQFRL8F/

For me:

https://www.instagram.com/vyborova\_art? ( Russian artist who uses alot of colour, she makes me want to be a painter so so much, and to paint bohemian women in a similar style with lots of colour) 🎨

https://www.instagram.com/margaret\_r\_thompson (she makes me want to make sacred art and I love all the research, depth and meaning she brings to her art practice) 🌿🌚

https://www.instagram.com/jill\_lewis.art ( makes me want to paint folkloric, intutive & free ) love Jill!

https://www.instagram.com/catherineanholt ( I just 💙 her art, she's a genius 🌀)

Im on psych meds, I can't daydream really at all now. Realise how lucky you are dreamers to have that relief! and to be able to escape the helll-lands that is life. Just one daydream would cure me right now.

Sorry for absent words, and u instead of you, but the strictures on this forum won't allow me more than 72 characters in the title. do you feel one day in the far future they will develop or find other ways to manage this besides meds? Have you ever mused on what those treatments may be?

I mean 'on the road' by kerouac sort of work, just about moments of fleeting beauty, awakening and authentic connection. Just some kind of poetics of place, of journeying, traveling and freedom. An ode to free spirits, anything. Have any van lifers written any books like that?

I feel like noone has a clue about it anymore, everyone is very rational and pragmatic. If you fall madly in love nowadays they tell you oh it's love bombing, it's a hyper-fixation, oh it's limerance, oh it's a trauma bond. That's literally all I hear everywhere on here. There's all this rational analysis and psych babble, and disorder, rather than understanding what deep unwavering passionate love is etc. I just wish I knew more people like myself who comprehend that.

I feel like noone has a clue about it anymore, everyone is very rational and pragmatic. If you fall madly in love nowadays they tell you oh it's love bombing, it's a hyper-fixation, oh it's limerance, oh it's a trauma bond. That's literally all I hear everywhere on here. There's all this rational analysis and psych babble, and disorder, rather than understanding what deep unwavering passionate love is etc. I just wish I knew more people like myself who comprehend that.

remember it is brief, referring to life, tattoo this on your arm and never forget.

I wish so much that I could read my beautiful poetry books to my partner, could drive to the ocean at night and just stare out and talk about our night dreams and a thousand other things together,, wish I could show him my paintings, could go to little independent bookshops and buy books for each other 📚, could take a spontaneous journey to Paris with. I had a beloved, who was so suited to me in every way but to my despair he died. I still go into shock over it every day. I have had many other loves but none of them worked out or were destined. It's misery tonite to be such a lover, such a passionate person, such a poetic romantic and have no one. Yes there are people in love with me, sure, one guy even stalks me, but it's not the same as mutual, catastrophic crazy love. People with no partner, where do you get your support??l I am never ever sad, but I'm so so. saddened tonite, my life is so so brutal and I have no one, I get why people eat a carton of ice cream finally, never understood that. Hehe.