I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to but i do. i want some relief. i want to be numb. i don’t know what to do. i dont want to throw 4 and a half years away but also its worth nothing, today was so fucking horrible and i’m fucking tired. what are ways I can replicate the feeling without actually harming myself.
I’m 27. I am considering doing so. I have had two “serious” relationships that lasted a bit. The current one more serious than the one before, and longer than the one before. I always lose myself in the relationship, despite the fact I’ve been in therapy. I thought I was doing better in this one, though. I really thought I was.
My current partner would tell me how much she loves me, how proud she is of me, how I’ve done so many things that I should be proud of myself. Positive things. And a fight will happen, because I’ve said the wrong thing or the wrong tone, and my partner will then say things like “I have to walk on eggshells around you” or “you make every day feel horrible”. And I’m thinking okay. I’d like to fix these things. So I ask what can I do better, how can I be better, how can I be the way you need me to be so I’m not hurting you?
I’m not a mean person… people always tell me I’m nice, funny, outgoing, etc. I want to fix myself but I don’t know if I can. I don’t think I’m meant for a romantic relationship maybe. I don’t really think I’m meant for any relationships, romantic or platonic. Have any of you abstained from relationships because you’re just too much to deal with? Any advice on how to…. stop being… too much?
edit: it is not my backpay, I already received it and get it every 6 months until it’s paid to me. This is random and my first month getting paid, that’s why I am confused.
I live in RI, hence why I’m not asking in the social security sub (but will post there if this isn’t appropriate). I was approved for SSI last month, $662 from SSI themselves and $39 and some change from the state for supplemental pay. They come from two separate payment places. Today I woke up expecting $662 and then $39; around $700 to be in my account. Woke up with a little over 1k and TEN deposits of $39.
Do I call the state? Did someone make a mistake? I don’t want to have to end up paying the money back even if *they* made a mistake. Here’s what it looks like on my bank app.
Didn’t realize the crunchy cookie m&ms have also been discontinued, as I’ve been to a bunch of different five below a bc that was my usual m&m plug. LOL. I’m in the US. It doesn’t have to be an m&m, obviously, but are there any other chocolate candies I can get here that would be the same candy ish as those?
I was approved the 15th of June, insurance will be terminated 7/1/26. Called the state (Rhode Island DHS) and they told me I won’t be getting Medicaid via the state but directly from SSI so I won’t have a lapse in coverage. She wasn’t able to tell me which insurance I was being switched to. Who do I call to find out which health insurance they’re putting me on? Or do I just wait for the insurance card to come in the mail? I only ask because I have doctors appointments and ongoing physical therapy appointments.
Sorry if this shouldn’t be posted here.
i’ll never be enough for anyone lol i’m so lonely i want to cry and cry and cry and cry none of this is worth it anymore. i’m so lonely my chest hurts. my vision is going blurry. i can’t breathe. i am so far gone
i don’t know what to do. i’m just really tired. i don’t have anyone, ive tried reaching out but i also i don’t want to blther anyone you know. i don’t want to hurt myself but i do. like obviously i don’t want to give in to it. i am just in so much emotional pain
I really like kettle corn too. I wish there were more spaces for people to hang out that were just hangout spaces. I feel like I was just as lonely as a kid but when I was a kid it was ok to talk to yourself and play with dolls. Now it’s weird and autistic when I do it. Alexa sang me happy birthday. I don’t remember ever not being lonely. Oh well
I received a bill from them in 2025 stating I owed a little less than $300. I am in the process of receiving disability, so at that time I could not pay the $300. Fast forward to a few months ago, I get another paper bill (from the school directly) and email stating they’re going to send the less than $300 over to collections. Again I tell them I have no income, etc etc.
I get a bill in the mail yesterday, from UAS (never received anything from them before) stating I owe them (my school) $2,000+. All of my loans are deferred and via Nelnet, just deferred them again in May bc I was eligible again and don’t have income as of now. So I’m unsure of why this bill is suddenly $2,000+, and why I have never heard of this bill before until now.
What do I do? Do I ignore it until it gets sent to collections and then file a report with a credit bureau and dispute because they’ve sent me inaccurate statements about the bill and the cost? They’re not two separate bills, because I only had one singular bill with the school that was under $300, no other communication was made about a $2,000+ bill.
Thank you, sorry if this isn’t appropriate for this sub
Which grocery stores around here have the best birthday cakes? I’m looking for a smaller one (serving like 4 ish people, so nothing crazy), possibly carrot cake, but I want it to look really nice and taste nice.
Any suggestions? Distance doesn’t matter, just quality, so I’m open to anything (even if it’s a small bakery or something maybe) :) thank you!
I have two locations near me, both of them suddenly don’t have soup. I thought maybe they’d sold out for the day but I’ve checked back and it’s still not there. Are they getting rid of it nationwide or perhaps just my local stores are getting rid of it/low on stock?
I may be approved for SSI if all goes well, which means I will get backpay, which will be a good chunk of money. I have the following questions:
1.) Can I have a savings account? If yes, what is the dollar amount limit on the savings account?
2.) How much money am I allowed in my checking account at once?
3.) In relation to the above question, how quickly do they expect me to go through backpay? Am I allowed a grace period of having such a large amount of money in my account?
Thank you :)
Just looking for the cart, I have my own battery that holds up to 3g carts and I’m tired of buying disposables. TIA
I have no friends or anything (not seeking to make any on this sub) and I was wondering, how do you guys fill your days? I have crippling anxiety so I mostly keep to myself, but what activities/things/hobbies (preferably low cost) are you guys doing to get through the day? I feel like the days keep getting longer and longer the lonelier I get.
I used to go for long car rides but gas prices are crazy and there’s too many people driving around to enjoy it anymore. I’m hopefully getting on a new medication to make me less anxious, so I want to try getting out more. If anyone could recommend some things that would be nice. Thank you.
Was going to use my points to get a McChicken before I realized they’re 2,000 points now. These app “deals” are a joke now and so are the prices
Decided to try these today with points in case I didn’t like them when I grabbed some hashbrowns. I almost hate that I tried them because they are the most decadent buttery piece of bread/roll paired with one of thebest fast food nuggets that I have ever had in my life. Not like a chicken sandwich. They are perfect. I can’t believe I ever thought they were weird and never had them, and I understand why a 10 count exists lmaooo
edit: the ranch is NOT for the minis, hence why it is not opened, i ate them plain 😭
Something personal about themselves, not something mean to you or abusive towards you.
If you have, how have you navigated it?
I feel like I love and care about people more than they love and care about me, and I seem to overestimate the importance of myself in people’s live’s. I feel like I’m meant to love and care about them, so they can feel better and feel loved, and that I’m not quite meant to experience the reciprocation of those feelings. And if I am they don’t last long, as I seem to maybe not deserve it.
Not romantic. Not looking for a partner. Not looking for anything.
Just asking, does anyone else feel like they truly just… weren’t meant to be cared about or loved and that they’re simply just a burden on everyone else?