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I've had emetophobia since I was seven. I got this terrible stomach flu and threw up, and have been deathly afraid of it since. I developed ARFID that year due to the fear, lost a ton of weight, etc.

I've been doing some healing in therapy and I got both an autism diagnosis and an OCD diagnosis which have made a lot of sense, but I also got chronically ill, (long COVID and POTS) when I was eleven. (15 now.) I'm permanently disabled and go through a lot of stuff with it, and I developed a fear of sickness along with my emetophobia. I still get horrific panic attacks if someone throws up/has a cold, or if I do.

Anyway, the success!! Today I had a friend over, at some point during the hangout they went to the bathroom, and let me know when they got back that they threw up a bit. They're very considerate and asked if they should leave or if we should go outside. (They're very prone to throwing up, pretty much always from stress. They also don't get hunger cues and had just eaten a bunch of fruit, that was probably just too much and they didn't realize.) I stayed calm!! I just asked if they felt sick, they said no, I asked if they were stressed, they said yes. I said that we should be good then, and I haven't panicked at all!!

I even took a bath later in the same bathroom (after spraying some disinfectant) but still! I'm so happy, I'm not freaking out at all! Very proud of myself and progress, I can't wait to tell my therapist!

Potentially triggering! Vauge mentions of throwing up

I've had emetophobia since I was seven. I got this terrible stomach flu and threw up, and have been deathly afraid of it since. I developed ARFID that year due to the fear, lost a ton of weight, etc.

I've been doing some healing in therapy and I got both an autism diagnosis and an OCD diagnosis which have made a lot of sense, but I also got chronically ill, (long COVID and POTS) when I was eleven. (15 now.) I'm permanently disabled and go through a lot of stuff with it, and I developed a fear of sickness along with my emetophobia. I still get horrific panic attacks if someone throws up/has a cold, or if I do.

Anyway, the success!! Today I had a friend over, at some point during the hangout they went to the bathroom, and let me know when they got back that they threw up a bit. They're very considerate and asked if they should leave or if we should go outside. (They're very prone to throwing up, pretty much always from stress. They also don't get hunger cues and had just eaten a bunch of fruit, that was probably just too much and they didn't realize.) I stayed calm!! I just asked if they felt sick, they said no, I asked if they were stressed, they said yes. I said that we should be good then, and I haven't panicked at all!!

I even took a bath later in the same bathroom (after spraying some disinfectant) but still! I'm so happy, I'm not freaking out at all! Very proud of myself and progress, I can't wait to tell my therapist!

I've had emetophobia since I was seven. I got this terrible stomach flu and threw up, and have been deathly afraid of it since. I developed ARFID that year due to the fear, lost a ton of weight, etc.

I've been doing some healing in therapy and I got both an autism diagnosis and an OCD diagnosis which have made a lot of sense, but I also got chronically ill, (long COVID and POTS) when I was eleven. (15 now.) I'm permanently disabled and go through a lot of stuff with it, and I developed a fear of sickness along with my emetophobia. I still get horrific panic attacks if someone throws up/has a cold, or if I do.

Anyway, the success!! Today I had a friend over, at some point during the hangout they went to the bathroom, and let me know when they got back that they threw up a bit. They're very considerate and asked if they should leave or if we should go outside. (They're very prone to throwing up, pretty much always from stress. They also don't get hunger cues and had just eaten a bunch of fruit, that was probably just too much and they didn't realize.) I stayed calm!! I just asked if they felt sick, they said no, I asked if they were stressed, they said yes. I said that we should be good then, and I haven't panicked at all!!

I even took a bath later in the same bathroom (after spraying some disinfectant) but still! I'm so happy, I'm not freaking out at all! Very proud of myself and progress, I can't wait to tell my therapist!

Hello! I've avoided posting here because I'm technically an otherfix which is pretty unheard of

(A temporary alterhuman identity caused by a hyperfixation that varies in intensity as the hyperfixation varies in intensity, can end up staying permanently) but it falls under the umbrella so I thought why not!

Hey, I'm Sirius Black, NOT the original version. I am a version of them that is very much only from fanon and fanfic, and is pretty much an OC at this point. I do not support JK Rowling!! I am not the Harry Potter version of Sirius (nothing against you if u kin that one ofc!) But the young marauders era version.

I use they/he pronouns, and she/they/he pronouns for Sirius. Doubles are fine, I just have pretty specific hcs for them and I have some trouble with perceived mischaracterization, so please don't argue about which hcs are correct or the version of them that I kin.

Uhh yeah that's about it but I'm glad to be here!

I'm posting here because I need advice and I need to stop myself before I accidentally fall down this rabbit hole. I'm a teenager, not gonna say age. For context;

I have never had any issues with my body before. I am chronically ill, so I guess partly struggling so much with my health just makes me appreciate the body I have.

Every doctor I've been to says I am at a healthy weight. My mom taught me from a young age that all bodies are beautiful, so except for a bit when I was like ten, I've never been insecure, in fact, I've always thought I'm beautiful, and that my stomach just makes me look like aphrodite, and my stretch marks are like tiger stripes.

Now to the issue. I think in normal teenage fashion probably, I started noticing myself or weight. Not in a self conscious way. Not judging myself. I've just been sort of noticing things, like how all the cool girls at my school are thin, how all the alt girls at school are thin and all the thin girls wear low waisted stuff and have belly button rings and wear skin tight stuff but the bigger girls don't do that.

How a bigger girl and a really thin girl get treated differently wearing the same thing.

I started noticing that. I haven't been insecure abt it, just kinda noticing it. But recently I've been thinking that it would be a bit nice to be skinny, because then I could get cute clothes easily and not have to search everywhere for them. I only buy from thrift stores and small businesses, and that makes it really hard to find cheap, plus size, or clothes that I actually like.

So recently I ended up on ED Tumblr. This is the big part of the issue. It was initially because the tags recommended it. I was scrolling mental health tags, and it recommended worse and worse ones and I didn't click off. I ended up scrolling for like 2 hours. It was just really kinda mesmerizing, but I wasn't feeling insecure or anything.

But then I ended up doing it again and again, just because I was bored and it's addictive. I started wishing that I could look a bit more like that, but not actually like feeling bad about myself for not looking like that or wanting to do anything about it, just noticing it.

But last night I was scrolling and I ended up saving pictures of thinspo. It just hits some part of my mind that wants to look thin or sick and it equates that to being cool and I don't know why, because I know that's not true. But it doesn't stop me sort of wishing I could be thin and smoking a cigarette and all that "aesthetic" stuff that I KNOW isn't true. So I don't know why I still kinda want it.

The part I'm really worried about is that this has kind of happened before, influencing something on myself. I started watching these Christian videos like 2 years ago, they were basically the most conservative hateful stuff you could find. Because I felt guilty for being queer and thought it couldn't hurt. I ended up watching videos for hours every day about how I was damned to hell. Even talked to some of them too, because I thought I deserved the guilt. I ended up basically inducing religious trauma on myself because I thought nothing would happen. I'm still doing therapy to heal.

I'm easily susceptible to those kinds of influences, and it could happen with this too, and I'm terrified it will.

I need advice on how to get out before I go too deep, because I'm not very insecure yet. I need someone to tell me the actual reality of this. I can't have some glorified picture of it in my head and I need to get out before it's actually too late and I get stuck.

Any advice is very appreciated.

I'm posting here because I need advice and I need to stop myself before I accidentally fall down this rabbit hole. I'm a teenager, not gonna say age. For context;

I have never had any issues with my body before. I am chronically ill, so I guess partly struggling so much with my health just makes me appreciate the body I have.

Every doctor I've been to says I am at a healthy weight. My mom taught me from a young age that all bodies are beautiful, so except for a bit when I was like ten, I've never been insecure, in fact, I've always thought I'm beautiful, and that my stomach just makes me look like aphrodite, and my stretch marks are like tiger stripes.

Now to the issue. I think in normal teenage fashion probably, I started noticing myself or weight. Not in a self conscious way. Not judging myself. I've just been sort of noticing things, like how all the cool girls at my school are thin, how all the alt girls at school are thin and all the thin girls wear low waisted stuff and have belly button rings and wear skin tight stuff but the bigger girls don't do that.

How a bigger girl and a really thin girl get treated differently wearing the same thing.

I started noticing that. I haven't been insecure abt it, just kinda noticing it. But recently I've been thinking that it would be a bit nice to be skinny, because then I could get cute clothes easily and not have to search everywhere for them. I only buy from thrift stores and small businesses, and that makes it really hard to find cheap, plus size, or clothes that I actually like.

So recently I ended up on ED Tumblr. This is the big part of the issue. It was initially because the tags recommended it. I was scrolling mental health tags, and it recommended worse and worse ones and I didn't click off. I ended up scrolling for like 2 hours. It was just really kinda mesmerizing, but I wasn't feeling insecure or anything.

But then I ended up doing it again and again, just because I was bored and it's addictive. I started wishing that I could look a bit more like that, but not actually like feeling bad about myself for not looking like that or wanting to do anything about it, just noticing it.

But last night I was scrolling and I ended up saving pictures of thinspo. It just hits some part of my mind that wants to look thin or sick and it equates that to being cool and I don't know why, because I know that's not true. But it doesn't stop me sort of wishing I could be thin and smoking a cigarette and all that "aesthetic" stuff that I KNOW isn't true. So I don't know why I still kinda want it.

The part I'm really worried about is that this has kind of happened before, influencing something on myself. I started watching these Christian videos like 2 years ago, they were basically the most conservative hateful stuff you could find. Because I felt guilty for being queer and thought it couldn't hurt. I ended up watching videos for hours every day about how I was damned to hell. Even talked to some of them too, because I thought I deserved the guilt. I ended up basically inducing religious trauma on myself because I thought nothing would happen. I'm still doing therapy to heal.

I'm easily susceptible to those kinds of influences, and it could happen with this too, and I'm terrified it will.

I need advice on how to get out before I go too deep, because I'm not very insecure yet. I need someone to tell me the actual reality of this. I can't have some glorified picture of it in my head and I need to get out before it's actually too late and I get stuck.

Any advice is very appreciated.

I'm posting here because I need advice and I need to stop myself before I accidentally fall down this rabbit hole. I'm a teenager, not gonna say age. For context;

I have never had any issues with my body before. I am chronically ill, so I guess partly struggling so much with my health just makes me appreciate the body I have.

Every doctor I've been to says I am at a healthy weight. My mom taught me from a young age that all bodies are beautiful, so except for a bit when I was like ten, I've never been insecure, in fact, I've always thought I'm beautiful, and that my stomach just makes me look like aphrodite, and my stretch marks are like tiger stripes.

Now to the issue. I think in normal teenage fashion probably, I started noticing myself or weight. Not in a self conscious way. Not judging myself. I've just been sort of noticing things, like how all the cool girls at my school are thin, how all the alt girls at school are thin and all the thin girls wear low waisted stuff and have belly button rings and wear skin tight stuff but the bigger girls don't do that.

How a bigger girl and a really thin girl get treated differently wearing the same thing.

I started noticing that. I haven't been insecure abt it, just kinda noticing it. But recently I've been thinking that it would be a bit nice to be skinny, because then I could get cute clothes easily and not have to search everywhere for them. I only buy from thrift stores and small businesses, and that makes it really hard to find cheap, plus size, or clothes that I actually like.

So recently I ended up on ED Tumblr. This is the big part of the issue. It was initially because the tags recommended it. I was scrolling mental health tags, and it recommended worse and worse ones and I didn't click off. I ended up scrolling for like 2 hours. It was just really kinda mesmerizing, but I wasn't feeling insecure or anything.

But then I ended up doing it again and again, just because I was bored and it's addictive. I started wishing that I could look a bit more like that, but not actually like feeling bad about myself for not looking like that or wanting to do anything about it, just noticing it.

But last night I was scrolling and I ended up saving pictures of thinspo. It just hits some part of my mind that wants to look thin or sick and it equates that to being cool and I don't know why, because I know that's not true. But it doesn't stop me sort of wishing I could be thin and smoking a cigarette and all that "aesthetic" stuff that I KNOW isn't true. So I don't know why I still kinda want it.

The part I'm really worried about is that this has kind of happened before, influencing something on myself. I started watching these Christian videos like 2 years ago, they were basically the most conservative hateful stuff you could find. Because I felt guilty for being queer and thought it couldn't hurt. I ended up watching videos for hours every day about how I was damned to hell. Even talked to some of them too, because I thought I deserved the guilt. I ended up basically inducing religious trauma on myself because I thought nothing would happen. I'm still doing therapy to heal.

I'm easily susceptible to those kinds of influences, and it could happen with this too, and I'm terrified it will.

I need advice on how to get out before I go too deep, because I'm not very insecure yet. I need someone to tell me the actual reality of this. I can't have some glorified picture of it in my head and I need to get out before it's actually too late and I get stuck.

Any advice is very appreciated.

Sorry, I didn't know how to tag this.

I'm posting here because I need advice and I need to stop myself before I accidentally fall down this rabbit hole. I'm a teenager, not gonna say age. For context;

I have never had any issues with my body before. I am chronically ill, so I guess partly struggling so much with my health just makes me appreciate the body I have.

Every doctor I've been to says I am at a healthy weight. My mom taught me from a young age that all bodies are beautiful, so except for a bit when I was like ten, I've never been insecure, in fact, I've always thought I'm beautiful, and that my stomach just makes me look like aphrodite, and my stretch marks are like tiger stripes.

Now to the issue. I think in normal teenage fashion probably, I started noticing myself or weight. Not in a self conscious way. Not judging myself. I've just been sort of noticing things, like how all the cool girls at my school are thin, how all the alt girls at school are thin and all the thin girls wear low waisted stuff and have belly button rings and wear skin tight stuff but the bigger girls don't do that.

How a bigger girl and a really thin girl get treated differently wearing the same thing.

I started noticing that. I haven't been insecure abt it, just kinda noticing it. But recently I've been thinking that it would be a bit nice to be skinny, because then I could get cute clothes easily and not have to search everywhere for them. I only buy from thrift stores and small businesses, and that makes it really hard to find cheap, plus size, or clothes that I actually like.

So recently I ended up on ED Tumblr. This is the big part of the issue. It was initially because the tags recommended it. I was scrolling mental health tags, and it recommended worse and worse ones and I didn't click off. I ended up scrolling for like 2 hours. It was just really kinda mesmerizing, but I wasn't feeling insecure or anything.

But then I ended up doing it again and again, just because I was bored and it's addictive. I started wishing that I could look a bit more like that, but not actually like feeling bad about myself for not looking like that or wanting to do anything about it, just noticing it.

But last night I was scrolling and I ended up saving pictures of thinspo. It just hits some part of my mind that wants to look thin or sick and it equates that to being cool and I don't know why, because I know that's not true. But it doesn't stop me sort of wishing I could be thin and smoking a cigarette and all that "aesthetic" stuff that I KNOW isn't true. So I don't know why I still kinda want it.

The part I'm really worried about is that this has kind of happened before, influencing something on myself. I started watching these Christian videos like 2 years ago, they were basically the most conservative hateful stuff you could find. Because I felt guilty for being queer and thought it couldn't hurt. I ended up watching videos for hours every day about how I was damned to hell. Even talked to some of them too, because I thought I deserved the guilt. I ended up basically inducing religious trauma on myself because I thought nothing would happen. I'm still doing therapy to heal.

I'm easily susceptible to those kinds of influences, and it could happen with this too, and I'm terrified it will.

I need advice on how to get out before I go too deep, because I'm not very insecure yet. I need someone to tell me the actual reality of this. I can't have some glorified picture of it in my head and I need to get out before it's actually too late and I get stuck.

Any advice is very appreciated.

My first fic!! It's a one shot where Sirius and Remus discuss God :)

Sooo I was playing with my two year old neighbor and talking to his mom, one conversation led to another and now I'm making this kid a battle vest! Will share pictures when vest is acquired