u/Beginning-Wafer-3951

Hello, I am a 19F here and I absofuckinglutely hate the existence of porn. Quit justifying porn, OF, and prostitution. Like what the hell. I posted a couple of months ago that porn, OnlyFans, stripping, and all those shitty professions needed to be banned. Some thought that I was the problem because I was complaining about it. Before I get beaten up, I just want to say that people are allowed to have opinions and they are allowed to agree or disagree with stuff. But, I am sorry, I just cannot justify the existence of porn. 

I look at it this way, if you ever had children (not forcing and you do not have to have them, but if you ever did), would you allow them to go in to this industry even if they are struggling to find a job or even if they are interested in entering that type of industry? Because no, I would never. I am still young and I do not have children and I respectfully choose not to have them. But I have thought of how to be a good parent. If they are struggling to find a job, I would feel bad for them but I would not let them jump into that industry. Like I struggled to find a part time job and porn was never an option (also I was a minor so yeah). There are better ways to earn money and have a roof over your head. I am sorry, I just do not want my children to earn money by being objects. Also, my parents would be disappointed in me if I allowed my children to get into that. I would tell them that this crap exists in the world and I would make sure that they are aware of its existence but I am not letting them into the porn industry. I am sorry but my children are not doing garbage for a career. I deeply care about what they would want to do for a living, and yes, I would also make sure that they are happy with what they do.

Being a porn or OF star or even a porn addict is a huge red flag in my opinion for like friendships or even someone or date. If my partner is secretly a porn star or even a porn addict, I am immediately breaking up with them and not just because it will make my family look bad. Like that is not even the first reason. The first is, it is disgusting. Two, I have heard terrible things about being addicted to porn. Three, it makes my family look bad. My family is healthy, loving, kind, and they are doing very well. They are also loving long lives. If I brought a porn star home, would be disappointed in me.

When you are addicted to porn, you are spending loads and buckets of money on shit. You are also at the risk of using pork as an escape for your loneliness and anxiety when there are better ways to cope with your emotions. You are also at the risk of looking at people as objects. Like that is disgusting. Porn is so not the option. 

Also, if you ever justify the existence of porn, do not even talk to me.

I know I have posted something similar to this a couple of months ago but I had to put this out there cause why did I see some people thinking “it’s a your choice, your life“ kind of thing when it is clearly not!!!!!! I know I am just one person but I am doing my best to speak up about this and do what I can to end this crap.

Hello. I am an 19F and I have been ghosted by 10 people (one of them was my distant family member, also not going to be including this person in this post), removed on Snapchat by 3 people, and blocked by 2 people.

I thought we connected with each other. I thought we cared about each other. I thought we could be friends. I thought we could trust each other.

Why am I the victim??? Why did you all make me suffer??? Why did you all stop caring about me??? Why do I have to always be the one starting the conversation????? You know you can stay the conversation too. Why do I have to be the one putting in the most effort???

I cared about all of you. I trusted all of you. I uninvited some of you to my grad party even though you did not invite me to yours (I uninvited 15 people in total and only 4 came, that part was a little depressing but it ended out fine). I gave you all multiple chances because I guess I was too nice. I started the conversations off with a “Hello” or a “Hi”. I asked you all how your day was. I put you before me. I asked you all ”What’s new“. I said “Happy Birthday“ and ”Have a great day” when it was your birthday. I never forced you to wish me on my birthday. Some of you wished me and some of you did not. I appreciated all of you. I looked up to all of you. I opened up to you because I trusted you and I wanted someone to talk to. Remember that. I trusted you and that is why I opened up to some of you. I chose some of you to open up to and I never forced you to open up to me. It was your choice and your life. I gave you all appreciation and never asked for anything in return and somehow, I was useless to you. Maybe it is a me problem and not you.

Now, to all the ghosters (not in my life), this one is for you.

Did you know that the person you ghosted is probably going through so much pain? Did you know that they probably cared about you so much? Did you know that they might start having trust issues because of one simple thing that you did? Not talk to them and ignore them. Did you know that the person you ghosted might feel a loss of freedom, motivation, and they might want to be alone for a long time (Because I know I have felt that way. Sometimes, I do not feel like getting out of the house because I am really depressed And I know it is a bad excuse). Did you know that people who have been ghosted might treat this situation as a loss? Yes, it is like going to a funeral and not knowing what happened to the person. They are gone but what happened to them is unknown. Because I know that I have felt that way. It makes me want to rip my hair out.

So please, appreciate the people who genuinely care about you and want to get to know you better.

Also, I tried staying humble and I still do. I was so angry at this one guy who ghosted me and I wanted to blame him in person for he did but I just did not have that courage and I ended up forcing him because he is in my college, he is good looking, talented, funny, positive, and people do like him. I forgave him because of his personality and I just wanted to stay humble.

I was blocked by another person recently. It felt like the end of the world and I kind of lost motivation and I felt like I had no future. I still do feel that way. I am majoring in psychology and I am probably going to suck at that. I wish people would open up to me so that I can be trusted and I can help.

I have not watched the film yet but I want to. I could not help but love Tim’s confidence and boldness in some of the scenes of the film. He also looks amazing!!! As a 19 year old female, I am not the biggest fan of clothing like a lingerie, but he just looks so good in it. The makeup just looks good on him and so do the costumes. He just makes it hot! Also, I do think that he is a handsome guy (he has got a nice smile). I also love his speaking voice. Have any of you ever thought that too??? Have any of you felt that he looked really good in TRHPS???

After he died, I did what other people do after a celebrity dies. Look back into their stuff. Honestly saying, I have not seen much of Tim Curry’s movies. I have only seen him in Home Alone 2 and I found him to be a standout (MC was great too!). I really want to watch It (1990 version) and TRHPS.

When I looked back, I couldn’t help but love his speaking voice. His speaking voice is so soothing and I love the accent (I love accents). He was also really handsome. He reminded me of one of my former crushes. Tim had a beauiful smile. He also looks so good in TRHPS. The makeup and costumes look really good on him. His beauty is underrated.

Also, it is really cool that he chose TRHPS as his debut. The story seems unique and he got to play an interesting character. Please let me know how it is and feel free to recommend it to me. I really liked him I some of the scenes. He seemed very bold and confident.

RIP.

A few months ago, I made a post here about a guy who ghosted me over a year ago. Here is the link.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ghosting/comments/1txvelt/has_anyone_ever_been_ghosted_please_feel_free_to/

I know I will get beaten up for my actions. I was so stupid. I did tell one close guy friend about this guy (Guy 1) who ghosted me. He was so supportive of me and said that none of this is my fault and it is Guy 1’s. He was being a jerk to me and hated what he did to me. Now, he does not really hate Guy 1.

But Guy 1 is actually in my college. On the first day of college, when I saw him, I had a little heart attack (not an actual one). I was hyperventilating and freaking out for some reason. I guess I was a little scared of he would see me. I spoke to him twice ever since the first day. Well, the first time I went up to him, I pretended to hit his head (I am very silly 😂). He turned around, smiled, said “hi” and “good to see you“. The second time I spoke to him, I asked him how he is, what major he is doing, and he answered. He did not sound energetic but at the same time, he did not sound angry. A couple of minutes before that, I was talking to another friend and guy 1 sat in the same table as him. When I came over, he went on his phone and did not look at me. I thought it was a “me“ problem. But when I spoke to him, he did not sound angry.

I know I am yapping but I guess I do forgive him. I do not trust him (I have been ghosted by a lot of people and I am finding it hard to trust people) but I do not hate him. I forgive him because he is funny and confident. It is also so painful to think so much about the time he ghosted me and how depressed I was (Yes. I was a mess). I am also trying to not think of my feelings as a big deal. I am just trying to move on.

On July 28, I had this dream where some guy was dropping me off from Penn State Brandywine. I came in with a sister (even though I do not have one). This guy was about to steal all the frozen juice. We have frozen and regular juice at camp (lemonade, fruit punch, and iced tea). I did not want to come and my imaginary sister did not want to come either. I did not know how to stop him. I took a nap and soon, people throwing a party at my house. I heard music and there were disco lights. People brought drinks and someone brought their piano and their yorkie. The guy also painted his body with gold glitter. There was also a weird rule where people cannot bring slime into my house but they can throw it at the grass and ruin it. I did not know how to stop all of this. 

In August, I had this dream where some girl group hated one girl and kicked her out of her group. I do not know why. One day, those girls were going out for a movie (it was Supergirl) and the girl who got kicked out came to the movies too and had a new gang. She also looked prettier. 

In December 2017, I had this dream where I was watching a movie with a couple of people. It was a movie about a half snake and half woman. Her name was snakewoman because she was a snakewoman. Her hair was long and black and she had bangs. One day, while some guy was meditating, the snakewoman but him and yelled and died. Me and a bunch of random people got terrified and ran away. Soon, we realized that the theater also had restaurant. Me and bunch of random people wanted to go home and we realized that it was raining hard so I asked some lady I could call my mom and I called her and she came and we went back home.

Somewhere in 2020, I had this dream where two girls hated each other. The protagonist (let’s call her Girl 1) and the antagonist (Girl 2) absolutely hated each other. Girl 1 was unhappy because Girl 2 was mean and would snitch a lot on her. Girl 1 was being falsely accusing of things and she was fearful. One day, she told her teacher about some of the stuff that Girl 2 did and she got her arrested. 

In January 2021, had this dream about an evil baby with red eyes. The baby was supposed to be extremely adorable but evil. It was evil because it had red eyes. One day, these two babysitters had babysit the evil baby during the weekend and they got terrified when they saw that baby. When the parents came to pick their baby up, they smacked the baby’s face on the babysitters face for in replace of a thank you and when they left, (this was paused in my dream) but they showed that this baby was super evil and their parents did not know that at all. 

In 2023, I had this dream where kids had to jump into hot soup whether they were punished. They had a slide in which the kids would come. Children would say goodbye before going into the soup. This lady was mixing butter in the soup. It was tomato soup by the way. Sometimes, boys would drink something or even swim while they were in the soup.

On June 3rd, I had this dream where a guy had an argument with his girlfriend for not spending much time with him. And he was known to be obsessed with his mom. He wanted to be closer with his mom and he ended up being obsessed. He had a hard time choosing between his mom and his girlfriend. He would also pray to his deceased cat. He was praying to have the both of them. Oh, and he really liked his girlfriend’s because she reminded him of his mom and looked like her.

On June 19th, I had this dream where there was a guy, and two women were living in the same apartment. The guy and girl 1 was his ex and girl 2 was his current girlfriend. One day, girl 2 character had some news to tell the guy. She accidentally fell on the floor and soon the news came out. She told him that she was pregnant Girl 2 and Girl 1’s characters were friends by the way. The guy was excited and said that he would come back but instead he left for somewhere. The women could not find him. Girl 2 was ready to marry him but unfortunately, he left.

On July 3rd, I had this dream was where a guy had a new girlfriend (let’s call her Girl 2). Girl 2 was kind and sweet but she did not like her boyfriend’s ex (let’s call her Girl 1) and was terrified of her. Girl 1 was jealous that her ex was dating someone else and wanted to get revenge at her. The guy also had a hard time talking about his past and what happened to his cat. One day, the video of that was shown. He was riding a bike with his cat and his cat jumped, fell, and died. Girl 1 hated him for that and probably broke up with him. Soon, she came back to her revenge at Girl 2. So yeah, both girls were fighting for the same guy. Girl 1 regretted breaking up with the guy and wanted him back.

On July 26, I had this weird dream where I was sleeping. And then I had this dream where Ray William Johnson (a YouTuber) was telling me the story. 😂 They said that people from BC were still alive today. They did not age at all. They were wearing old fashioned clothing but they still looked young. The BC people were arguing over something and they were waiting to enter a cave. The BC people were also playing with glow sticks for some reason. 😂 The scene looked very neon in my dreams. It was a dream inside a dream.

One of the dreams I had was where a bunch of women were living in the same apartment. They all were best friends. They would sing about how much they laugh and even made a song about it, they would play with water guns, and sha la la. They were all so happy until one day, there was a fire accident in New York. An old woman reporter was staging her own murder. She died while going in a trashcan. That scene looked very cartoonish in my dream. This changed the women’s lives forever. 

The other dream I had was where my mom found a movie on some streaming platform. In that movie, two best friends were getting married on the same day. Both the wedding were from different cultures. One was an American wedding, the other one was an Indian wedding. My grandma felt like the Indian bride looked very familiar and someone she has seen in real life. The Indian bride had a breakdown and wanted to cancel her wedding. The other bride was like “If you are not getting married, I am not getting married.” The Indian bride ran away and the best friend came along with her and everyone else came. They ran so far that the place they stopped only had grass. Somehow, I saw a counselor from camp (I was a camp counselor) was in the movie. She was wearing her camp shirt (specifically orange). The camp shirt looked somewhat different in the dream. I was also telling my mom on who she was and I was shocked that she was in the movie. The wedding took place in Texas. In the end, the American bride got the Indian bride to chill and both got married on the same day so it was a happy ending. They got married outside. 

1. The dream was where a guy had a new girlfriend (let’s call her Girl 2). Girl 2 was kind and sweet but she did not like her boyfriend’s ex (let’s call her Girl 1) and was terrified of her. Girl 1 was jealous that her ex was dating someone else and wanted to get revenge at her. The guy also had a hard time talking about his past and what happened to his cat. One day, the video of that was shown. He was riding a bike with his cat and his cat jumped, fell, and died. Girl 1 hated him for that and probably broke up with him. Soon, she came back to her revenge at Girl 2. So yeah, both girls were fighting for the same guy. Girl 1 regretted breaking up with the guy and wanted him back. 

2. The dream was where my mom found a movie on some streaming platform. In that movie, two best friends were getting married on the same day. Both the wedding were from different cultures. One was an American wedding, the other one was an Indian wedding. My grandma felt like the Indian bride looked very familiar and someone she has seen in real life. The Indian bride had a breakdown and wanted to cancel her wedding. The other bride was like “If you are not getting married, I am not getting married.” The Indian bride ran away and the best friend came along with her and everyone else came. They ran so far that the place they stopped only had grass. Somehow, I saw a camp counselor in the movie (I worked at a camp). She was wearing her camp shirt (specifically orange). The camp shirt looked somewhat different in the dream. I was telling my mom on who she was and was shocked that she was in the movie. The American bride got the Indian bride to chill and both got married on the same day so it was a happy ending. I think they got married in Texas. They got married outside.

 

The dream was where my mom found a movie on some streaming platform. In that movie, two best friends were getting married on the same day. Both the wedding were from different cultures. One was an American wedding, the other one was an Indian wedding. My grandma felt like the Indian bride looked very familiar and someone she has seen in real life. The Indian bride had a breakdown and wanted to cancel her wedding. The other bride was like “If you are not getting married, I am not getting married.” The Indian bride ran away and the best friend came along with her and everyone else came. They ran so far that the place they stopped only had grass. Somehow, I saw a counselor from camp (I was a camp counselor) was in the movie. She was wearing her camp shirt (specifically orange). The camp shirt looked somewhat different in the dream. I was also telling my mom on who she was and I was shocked that she was in the movie. 😂

Hello. I survived a car accident on 8/5. I was driving to camp (I was a camp counselor) and another car hit me and no injures so yeah. Unfortunately, the car did have to be totaled. I have been disturbed ever since that day. Before the accident and on that day, I had this dream where another counselor was late to camp because of a car accident and in real life, it happened to me.

I have trouble sleeping. I keep rolling over. I am tensed and I keep picturing the incident. I try to think about something that makes me happy (my dogs or even camp). Last night, I kept rolling over in my bed and moving my hands and feet. I sounded terrified and I kept thinking about the accident. It took me 2 and a half hours to sleep. The images of the incident appear way too much even when I try to think about something that makes me happy. In those images, there are worse accidents, car damages, and injuries. I get terrified when I see my parents drive (they are good drivers), but I get scared when other cars seem to be coming close. I cannot relax and I am too tensed. I also have chest pains (I am used to it and I have had it for a few years) and I think I am stressing too much. I even had two dreams about car accidents. One was where I was in the ER on 8/5 (the day of the accident) and my neck was injured, my right arm was broken, and my left leg was broken. The other dream I had was where I was driving the Tesla (my dad‘s car) with my mom and soon, I accidentally hit another car. When we stepped out, the front part of the car was slightly broken. This was terrifying because I was driving in the dream.

Do you think I might be having PTSD? Do I seem to be showing the symptoms? I kind of feel like I am.

It was where there was a movie where about 6 women were living in the same apartment (Saumya Tandon, Katrina Kaif, Deepika Padukone, and 3 other women). They all were best friends. They would sing about how much they laugh and even made a song about it. Their laughs were recorded in the song. They would play with water guns, and sha la la. They were all so happy until one day, there was a fire accident in New York. An old woman reporter was got a guy to kill her, She died while going in a trashcan. That scene looked very cartoonish in my dream. It failed to be extremely emotional. This changed the women’s lives forever. They were scared and depressed. 

Also, what do you think of this casting? Is it good? 

Hey. I am a camp counselor. I am a senior counselor (I am 18) and it is my second year working there. I have had a great time being with everyone and the kids! 

But there is this one kid who hates me. Let’s call him Boy 1. He was here last year too. I hate myself and I might have been a little annoying but I was helpful. I know I have a hellish personality but I am doing my job. This year, Boy 1 has not been the nicest to me but I have to controlled myself. 

But last year, I remember I was randomly talking about movies with him and said that I have so many movies to watch. Like I just put it out there for fun and he thought that because of this, all I do is sit around and eat. He also made fun of my appearance. 

One day, he was making an imaginary weapon (the kids are allowed to do that and it is not hurting others). When some parts dropped when he was walking, he was laughing at himself and I was laughing too and just having fun. He said that it is because of my appearance which is why he dropped it.

At camp, we have this bridge that we cannot cross (it is slippery and the rule was made last year) and over a month ago, I was watching the kids and some of them did cross the bridge. I told them to not do that and I was just doing my job. I was just making sure that they were safe and following the rules. Boy 1 crossed the bridge and did not care. I kept telling him to not do that and he would not listen. He was mocking me and imitating and making a joke out of the situation when I told them that they cannot cross the bridge. Since he was not listening, I reported him to the head counselor and he took care of it. 

Three weeks ago (July 21), I told Boy 1 to not use violence on anyone and told him to respect  the kids and counselors (me included). He then said “What if I said that you’re fat.” I controlled myself and told him to not say that to me or anyone. He did not care. He is around 9-10 or something, so he is still really young to know that saying stuff like this is wrong. When I was around that age, I learned that saying stuff like this is wrong so, I was trying to be understanding. But what is bad is that he is not listening to me. He does not care if he is disrespecting me. That Boy 1 told me to shut up when I told them that talking about Hitler or Epstein is inappropriate for camp. The head counselor told the kids that talking  about that stuff is not right and it is disturbing. I just let them know again that they cannot be mentioning it and Boy 1 told me to shut up when I told him what he cannot say at camp. On July 23, I said “hi” with a smile to a girl camper (I say “hi” to the counselors and the kids when I see them and I also say “bye” when they leave.) and Boy 1 came up to me and said “If I was a counselor, I would run away from you because I think you are creepy.” and I said not everything is about him and I was not talking to him. The counselors were like “Ooo” when I roasted him. I do not like calling kids names but he was being hypocrite here. He hates me but he is the one who came up to me and said that. I did not even go over to him. On July 24, he asked me to take him to the creek because he wanted to make a bamboo house and I took him there. I took him and some other kids for a walk. I got scared of taking them too far and that kid was like “Are you scared that you are going to be exhausted?” and “Are you out of shape?” I told him to stop taking to me like that. another kid was like “Why are you always so mean to her?“ I even asked him why he hates me and he said that it is because of my existence. And then he was like “What if I said that about my sister?” (he wanted to call his sister “fat”). I told him that he should not say that about anyone. He did not care.

One day, he asked me to take him down to the creek and I did. I asked him what he wants to do there and I was asking out of curiosity. And he was like “What I need is for you to shut up and let me do my own thing.” All I did was ask out of curiosity and he responds like this. You might have me for this but I was like “Quit talking to me like that.” and he would not listen. He was imitating me for telling him that he cannot be talking me or anyone like that. 

Yesterday, I had to tell some kids to not cross the bridge and one girl got it all mixed up. Boy 1 crossed the bridge even though I told him not to. He also said that I have no brain cells and he walked with his big boy feet. He got really angry at me for doing my own job. After that, I was done and had to report this to the head counselor. I also told him that Boy 1 is not very nice to me and I opened up about it after 5 weeks of him l not being nice to me. It took me this long because I thought I had to be embarrassed that a kid hates me and I also tried to put up with it and not make it a big deal. But I did open up and the head counselor took care of it. He also told the kid to not be mean to me anymore.

On Wednesday, I got into a car accident while going to my camp (I am a camp counselor). My car went upside down and it was unfortunately totaled. I had to go to Main Line Health and the ER. I got a CAT Scan even though there was nothing stuck in my body. I did have neck, chest, and abdominal pain after the accident. It was more of the abdominal pain and I threw up when I came home. Ever since the accident, my sleep has been disturbed. I keep imagining the car accident and sometimes, I am injured or dead in the images. It is all I can talk about now even though I am not trying to be annoying. It took me 2 hours to sleep last night even though I meditated and exercised. I was about to yell in my sleep because I was so disturbed. I think I also feel chest pains (I am used to it) a lot now and it is probably from shock.

I miss him so much. I actually ended up falling in love with a camp counselor at my camp. My 22nd crush.

Yesterday was his and his cousin’s last day (there is next week, which is the last week of camp). I canpt help it. He is kind, caring, helpful, positive, sweet, charming, handsome, cute, hot, immature, childish, and cringe. I am happy I said “bye“ to him but I still do miss him. I will miss the times when I would mess around with him. He is such a joy. Oh, he also has such a soft speaking voice. He is such a package. ❤️

Hello. I am a camp counselor and it is my summer job. On Wednesday, I had this dream where a counselor was late to camp because of a car accident, but thankfully, she ended up alive. While I was going to camp today, I was about to turn, and then a car hit me and my car turned upside down and it was damaged. I got a little sick. I did throw up. The guy was speeding and hit my car real hard but he did not get hurt and his car was not damaged at all. This is the most terrifying dream of my life. 

Hello. I am a camp counselor and it is my summer job. Today, I just had this dream where a counselor was late to camp because of a car accident, but thankfully, she ended up alive. While I was going to camp today, I was about to turn, and then a car hit me and my car turned upside down and it was damaged. I got a little sick. I did throw up.

Hello. I am a camp counselor and it is my summer job. Today, I just had this dream where a counselor was late to camp because of a car accident, but thankfully, she ended up alive. While I was going to camp today, I was about to turn, and then a car hit me and my car turned upside down and it was damaged. I got a little sick. I did throw up.

Just letting you know, I am 18F who works as a camp counselor. Yesterday, I had this dream where some kid asked me if I was 40. I said “no”. And then, he asked me if I was 50 and of course I said “no”. And then the kid asked me if I had children (specifically two kids - a boy and a girl). He showed me a picture of the children and the boy was probably around 10 and the girl was probably around 6. We do not know who the father is but the kids had mixed ethnicity (I am Indian). 

Also, I do not plan on having children. I do not know how this happened. This dream was so weirdly specific. 😂

Just letting you know, I am 18F who works as a camp counselor. Yesterday, I had this dream where some kid asked me if I was 40. I said “no”. And then, he asked me if I was 50 and of course I said “no”. And then the kid asked me if I had children (specifically two kids - a boy and a girl). He showed me a picture of the children and the boy was probably around 10 and the girl was probably around 6. We do not know who the father is but the kids had mixed ethnicity (I am Indian). 

Also, I do not plan on having children. I do not know how this happened. This dream was so weirdly specific. 😂