u/Beneficial-Pomelo567

I also have a Leo mars, Virgo saturn & a Capricorn pluto.

I used to be so intelligent, bubbly, confident in myself and such an extrovert and now i just feel like the complete opposite. Any advice on how to get that back? Im really trying to be gentle with myself but it's hard because of the massive amount of resentment i have towards myself.

Heres a list of things that ive been feeling lately,

- Hair becoming really dead out of nowhere
- Things continuously dont seem to be going my way.
- Feeling nauseous out of nowhere but its consistent and happens 1-3 times a day for a prolonged time, could be something to do with my health though, but just an observation)
- Self esteem dropped.
- No motivation for anything.
- Feeling so dead.
- Ringing in right ears.
- Less confidence.
- Forgetting how to socialise 💀 people who have known me for a while KNOW that im very talkative.
- The guy that likes me back is leaving me on delivered longer than before, he usually replies super quickly.

The other day i just had this feeling where i felt like i was being talked about. And the next day, i found out that i was indeed being talked about. I dont know how to explain it but i could literally just feel it and i know i probably sound crazy but i hope someone gets me.

And a few hours ago, i had a friend message me to check up on me and asked if i was going to school tommorow and told me that her and another friend of mine will always be there for me. So i replied back 40 mins after and told her that its all okay, im just feeling sick and probably wont be at school tommorow and that im grateful to have them by my side and said "i love you a lot more :)" and said that her and my other friend were the best.

And i got left on read.

Its been 3 hours and she reposted something on social media about 20 minutes ago. Im still left on read.

And now that i think about it, everytime ive told her about something good thats happening in my life, things tend to go sideways.

I remember months ago when i told her that i was glad that something wasnt happening between my partner (i dont remember what it was exactly.) but after i said it, she chuckled and said "not yet." basically implying that he hasnt messed up YET

And, basically the whole school has seen me walking with a guy last week and ever since then, ive just feeling pretty low 🤨

I dont know mann i could just be looking too deep into it and its actually all on me but im not even joking, i feel really ill, like deathly ill.

What the title said. 16F and struggling with life and i feel so behind. Any kind words would help :)

What the title said. Im new to this dating thing and i just need a tinyyy bit of help

What the title said

I reassured this guy that likes me back, about a different guy that he's overthinking about and i explained everything and he thanked me through text and i replied with "you're so welcome"

Is that an okay response? Because thinking about it now, he shouldnt have to thank me and i shouldve said that instead

P.s this guy and i aren't dating yet

Okay ill try my best to not make this too long but long story short. Guy A likes me and is taking me out this Sunday but i have feelings for Guy B and guy b is definitely the better option.

For the past four days, guy A and i have been walking around together at school to talk about how things are for ourselves now and things that have happened in the past since this guy was my first love and i was his first love aswell (it all started in elementary school). And if im being really honest here in the four days we've talked, our conversations weren't flowing MOST of the time. Lotsss of awkward silences. All good things aside, this guy and i have mistreated each other in the past and he has a history of being racist & doing dumb things. And that he mistreats people i know.

And for guy B, he's a great guy. Genuinely. Sweetest guy ever. Ive only met him this year. Hes funny, cute, caring, thoughtful & a pretty cool dude. And hes very attentive. Andd when he sees that i need help, he offers help in a heartbeat. I dont even need to ask. And hes consistent. My conversations flow better with him and i feel more safer around him compared to how i feel around guy A.

HERES THE THING THOUGH!! Basically the whole school has seen me and guy A walking around together. People are most likely thinking ive got something going on with him. Ive had many people ask me what was happening between the both of us. And id say 70% of his entire classmates in his grade know about us. I walked past his friendgroup today and they were all clapping. And people have been dapping him up wherever we go. I felt like it could work out again until ive realised that we aren't really compatible anymore. I dont feel like myself around him. His friends are supportive of this andd its just.🥴. I dont like him. I like guy B.

Something tells me that its better for me to try with somebody new. But i dont know where to go from here. Also, i think guy B saw me and guy A walking around together today.

Okay ill try my best to not make this too long but long story short. Guy A likes me and is taking me out this Sunday but i have feelings for Guy B and guy b is definitely the better option.

For the past four days, guy A and i have been walking around together at school to talk about how things are for ourselves now and things that have happened in the past since this guy was my first love and i was his first love aswell (it all started in elementary school). And if im being really honest here in the four days we've talked, our conversations weren't flowing MOST of the time. Lotsss of awkward silences. All good things aside, this guy and i have mistreated each other in the past and he has a history of being racist & doing dumb things. And that he mistreats people i know.

And for guy B, he's a great guy. Genuinely. Sweetest guy ever. Ive only met him this year. Hes funny, cute, caring, thoughtful & a pretty cool dude. And hes very attentive. Andd when he sees that i need help, he offers help in a heartbeat. I dont even need to ask. And hes consistent. My conversations flow better with him and i feel more safer around him compared to how i feel around guy A.

HERES THE THING THOUGH!! Basically the whole school has seen me and guy A walking around together. People are most likely thinking ive got something going on with him. Ive had many people ask me what was happening between the both of us. And id say 70% of his entire classmates in his grade know about us. I walked past his friendgroup today and they were all clapping. And people have been dapping him up wherever we go. I felt like it could work out again until ive realised that we aren't really compatible anymore. I dont feel like myself around him. His friends are supportive of this andd its just.🥴. I dont like him. I like guy B.

Something tells me that its better for me to try with somebody new. But i dont know where to go from here. Also, i think guy B saw me and guy A walking around together today.

Reconnected with a guy two days ago in person and i remember him asking me if there were any major things that have happened since the last time him and i talked. I started with "there's this guy that liked me.." and then mid sentence i realised that telling him that definitely wasnt necessary and probably killed his mood deep inside or thought "i dont care".

Im not even kidding im so embarrassed. That is not a major thing at all. Am i thinking too deep? Surely if he was interested he would've been curious to know more about it? But someone comfort me please. I probably gave him the wrong impression of me when i said that💔💔 what do i do

Reconnected with a guy two days ago in person and i remember him asking me if there were any major things that have happened since the last time him and i talked. I started with "there's this guy that liked me.." and then mid sentence i realised that telling him that definitely wasnt necessary and probably killed his mood deep inside or thought "i dont care".

Im not even kidding im so embarrassed. That is not a major thing at all. Am i thinking too deep? Surely if he was interested he would've been curious to know more about it? But someone comfort me please. I probably gave him the wrong impression of me when i said that💔💔 what do i do

Reconnected with a guy two days ago in person and i remember him asking me if there were any major things that have happened since the last time him and i talked. I started with "there's this guy that liked me.." and then mid sentence i realised that telling him that definitely wasnt necessary and probably killed his mood deep inside or thought "i dont care".

Im not even kidding im so embarrassed. That is not a major thing at all. Am i thinking too deep? Surely if he was interested he would've been curious to know more about it? But someone comfort me please. I probably gave him the wrong impression of me when i said that💔💔 what do i do

Reconnected with a guy two days ago in person and i remember him asking me if there were any major things that have happened since the last time him and i talked. I started with "there's this guy that liked me.." and then mid sentence i realised that telling him that definitely wasnt necessary and probably killed his mood deep inside or thought "i dont care".

Im not even kidding im so embarrassed. I knoww i couldve said other things but i was just so nervous. That is not a major thing at all. Am i thinking too deep? Surely if he was interested he would've been curious to know more about it? But someone comfort me please. I probably gave him the wrong impression of me when i said that💔💔 what do i do

Reconnected with a guy two days ago and i remember him asking me if there were any major things that have happened since the last time him and i talked. I started with "there's this guy that liked me.." and then mid sentence i realised that telling him that definitely wasnt necessary and probably killed his mood deep inside or thought "i dont care".

Im not even kidding im so embarrassed. That is not a major thing at all. Am i thinking too deep? Surely if he was interested he would've been curious to know more about it? But someone comfort me please. I probably gave him the wrong impression when i said that💔

1. Friend A broke the powder that was attached to my compact mirror. And it ended up having no more powder in it at all. It all broke off. But thats not what made me mad, what made me mad was the fact that she didnt apologise for doing that. All she did was gasp and say something along the lines of "Oh no." and moved on about her day.
2. Friend B. I had a teacher come up to our desk and friend B asked the teacher for an example to use for our essay in English class and the teacher ended up giving her a great one so i told them that the example that he came up with was really good and i said "I'm taking that". And friend B was being passive agressive towards me, telling me that she was gatekeeping it and then

she said

1. "im sorry i know if its mean but..." i forgot what the rest of that sentence sounded like. But it was

so

1. condescending.

I need to speak tf up. But all i want to do now is just distance myself. Because i sat down today, and i thought about the little things that they've said and done in the past that i didnt like but never spoke up about, and everything just hit me. I also notice that when i tell them bad news that happens to me, they stay silent and wait till i or somebody else changes the topic. Friend B literally goes dead silent. Ive thought about the little comments that theyve made towards me before that are shady. Its weird. And i know that ive only laughed at those comments theyve made. I need to speak up. Im angryyy

They've been together for basically their whole life. And my brother in law and her have three children together. The guy that my sister cheated on my brother in law with, got her pregnant. 😢