I can't even comprehend wts rly going on in my life.. if life isn't depressing enough already, I have got Anhedonia and I just can't seem to push myself for anything- I don't want to drive, play,spend money or anything.

Last yr- i tried to push myself after shifting here. It was rly tough to adjust, and with weird thoughts I still kept fighting and studying despite going to multiple hosp every month. Started off with 4hrs of studying in a single day till 11hrs, at times even 12+hrs when I had weekend tests. Just one month before my exam, I got so depressed that I couldn't even drive properly and I gave up on studies completely.

Got the opportunity to study at an okayish uni but i felt like nah.. I can do better and I decided something else by doing istekhara. Welp, my istekhara didn't work ig. I took another worse decision. The white texts on black bg explain all things I did last yr.. I went through my worst phase of my life where standard of living dropped severely and i couldn't adjust here yet I held strong to my deen that i was alot pious back then.. not even listening to music and all that..but i can't do it anymore. I'm losing my faith.

I don't want to go in deep but i observed that I barely find things interesting and within a while that goes away from me or it's cursed to me. I like a food item? Great! It causes me health issues!! Every single time?! It became so worse that I can't even name wt i like to eat now. I have a skill in something? Good! It's cursed to me- for example: Rubix cube- used to solve it so quickly that i became popular in my schl for it... And whenever I would use it, i get immense headache. Chess? Headache again. I use Kohl- my eyes burn. Change in weather?- Boom, I get sick!

I still can't figure out where my interest lies. Hated math yet somehow I manage to get atleast 90% in it... And now I'm forced into engineering.I lose interest in things pretty soon so i still dk wt i want to do. It's hard to live with ppl with barely any bond and use u as their investments. There's mess all around here which i can't sort it out, i cried to him for months until the eyes stopped weeping anymore. Now I don't feel anything anymore. Sometimes I get high surge of emotions making me feel alot things at a time... And when I try to cry in masjid for it, he pauses them. So i can't even cry for the pain I'm suffering with?

I'm so done wallahi. I get nauseous at times, almost met with 3 accidents within 5 min...just goes on.

After my dad neglecting my needs and me for years... He wants me to be that prodigy kid again and show him my skills which he never appreciated by throwing off my medals i won in competitions...Alhamdulillah, he isn't forcing me into something.. but that doesn't mean i neglect all things I suffered and I'm still suffering due to his decisions. But now he wants me to study hard... But where? Study in this messed up environment? I can't even think of going to a library coz apparently my sis needs my help. And i gave up on studies now. Im not worried Abt anything.. i don't have any desires either.

At times idk how to even talk to my dad or siblings I don't have bond with.. I just help them out but i can't. I don't wanna do anything anymore. I realised that even after giving them my time, spending money on them that I won and all that... I'm still not enough. When I started saying NO to one of my sibling's orders... I got cursed.. I was said jab Teri shaadi hogi, jab teri aulaad hogi.. like seriously? My life isn't hell enough already?

If anyone of u is studying for any exam- my tip would be that u give ur best but don't neglect ur mental health and dosto me zyada time waste mat karna. Find ppl who are ambitious and push u towards ur goal.Maybe I did few mistakes, and as a result i failed.

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So wts this collage?

This collage comprises of characters in anime/series i related with at some or the other point or even the whole series was relatable.

(So i just combined the top 4, there are alot more... It was tough to decide the top 4 ngl. So i just added them up and added my profile pic to indicate that i relate with them. Saw these months or yrs back... Been alot time since I watched any,so if ur someone who watches new series/movies...sry I'm the one under the rock)

If u have watched couple of series/movies at any point- then add them over to a collage and post it. If u feel difficult to make collage- then just hit me up, tell the names of characters and I'll make it and send it to u.

This way- sub becomes lively and ppl get to know u better!

Every few months, we see these posts- i rly dk how true they are but this is just sick if it's true.

Why are grown ahh ppl going over teen girls?? Like come on, find someone close to ur age. Times have changed, theres vast gap in maturity... especially in this era.

If parents rly want their daughters to get married asap- then why not do it with someone close to their age? That too WITH THEIR CONSENT.

I mean- I mean kyaaaa?

Cringe bhi lag rha hai, khushi bhi hai bhai ke liye.

Post it everywhere u could- and update us in the comments with a ss.

Credits- to the guy who who edited this vid (can't doxx him sry)

SURAT R!OTS (1992)

Rumours regarding raping of Kathiawadi women by Muslims were spread openly when a meeting was held on 7 December 92 at around 6.30 pm at Mangadh Chowk on Varachha Road. 5000 people had gathered there for the meeting. The meeting was allegedly addressed by the BJP MLA Kanubhai Mawani and other leaders of the BJP, who wield considerable influence over Kathiawadi migrant labour. It is also alleged that weapons like pipes, hockey sticks, swords and other sharp instruments were distributed after the meeting. Some selected people were also given fire weapons. The crowd was exhorted to avenge Hindu deaths and rapes. They also provoked the crowd by suggesting that any one who did not kill a 'mian' (Muslim) was an illegitimate son of a 'mian'. The crowd, then, went berserk. The same evening, a Khoja Muslim, incidently also from Kathiawad, who lived nearby on Varachha Road was attacked. There was another such meeting where weapons were distrib-uted, near Geetanjali Cinema.

Before the r!ots began, hndus started writing "Hndu ka ghar" outside their homes making it easier for the mobs to identify mslims homes... Yet, Surat had a history among mslims and hndus and would celebrate their unity by sitting together and eating dinner at times.. they would even marry among the communities to maintain the ties... But this incident led to chaos. Few hndus tried to save mslims by placing idols infront of mslim homes .. but mobs had info Abt mslim homes already which they collected in the name of renewing Ration cards earlier.

I had saved alot of vids,pics regarding the atrocities.. and even the good deeds done by our community which didn't make up to the news.

As I decided to withdraw/ take a break for a while... I thought why not just combine and make a final edit.

Yet there are few more vids...

(By any means- I'm not generalising anyone. Bad ppl exist everywhere, the sole reason of making an edit is to highlight wts being suppressed)

Neend nhi aarhi,upar se I'm on surveillance kinda.. raat ke 1 baje checking chal rhi hai..

Assalamualaikum! I've seen ppl doing gender wars and wts worse is rejecting a Sahih Hadith.

Abu Musa reported: The Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “A time will come to people when a man will go around with gold to give in charity, but he will find no one to accept it, and a single man will be seen followed by forty women seeking refuge with him, due to the scarcity of men and abundance of women.”

Source: Ṣaḥīḥ al-Bukhārī 1414, Ṣaḥīḥ Muslim 1012

The reason for more women following Dajjal wouldn't be bcoz they are less pious or anything. It's Abt the population at the time of Dajjal. Even now, we can see that male population is decreasing whereas the female population is increasing.

Dajjal will be a master manipulator. Think about social media in today's world, women are more inclined to hop on trends and be attached to celebrities etc.It makes sense that more of them will be female.

He will have leadership qualities and women also like that quality a lot.

It's not that only women would be following Dajjal- even men would be. Had it been that only women would be following him, our Prophet wouldn't advise the Ummah to run towards the Ka'aba. He would just say only girls need to run, guys won't get affected.

Allah knows the best!