Terribly alone.
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No DMS, I probably won't even answer that's not the purpose
17F. Never had a bestfriend in my life. I'm in college. I see girls laughing and having fun and it feels so terribly heartbreaking.
I've had friends, but I've never had a true friend. All of them betrayed me at one point or left. Not because of anything in me but because being an army brat I have to shift every two years and so they turn their back on me the last few months.
I can't take it anymore. I try and try and try but I can't. I don't socialise anymore I don't even have any DMS or anyone at all. It's just me at this point and everyone claims college life is so fun U hang out with Ur friends and all and I don't have anything.
I don't have memories I feel used when I talk to someone, sometimes it's for homework or cheating in exams or just using me in any way they find.
I'm terrified to socialise anymore. I can't find my people and I just think that's how it's going to be for the rest of my life.
Nobody wants me as their bestfriend, I'm not rude or evil or as far as I'm aware I don't have anything that could push them away. I've tried to find out something but I just can't. I feel really alone. I just want to find my girl group.
Any tips? What should I do?