My wife told me she was happy to see me laugh for the first time in a long time
I have been on Vyvanse/Dex for around 12 months so far. I made a decision about a month ago to come off all stimulants for various reasons. I struggled a lot throughout the month so ended up taking them again at various points. I've now been stimulant free for a week and after the fog/fatigue lifted, I'm starting to feel so much more like myself.
I was just joking around with my wife today and she told me she was so happy to see me laugh for the first time in a long time. I didn't tell her I had stopped taking the stimulants. I never realised how much of a zombie I had become. I was very productive, life changing in that regard, but I realised there's more to life than being a good worker bee. I feel like the stimulants made life very black and white, and I've started to see the colours again, able to stop and enjoy the butterflies in the garden.
I know stimulants are really good for a lot of people, but I wanted to share an experience from the other side, where they perhaps weren't the best fit.