u/OkKnowledge1489

Real life is sooooo lonely sometimes. Like, somehow the moment I actually start liking someone, they suddenly become busy as hell. And I’m just sitting here like wow okay, guess I’ll go back to being alone then. It sucks a lot.

They would literally be with no work before meeting me and meeting me is like their token to get some sudden work or migrate or what not. I don't know if it's some curse or something.

Not really as a rant but I am just bored and wanna talk to someone genuinely about anything.

PS: Not sure if its the right sub or the right kind of post and thus I apologize if it aint lol

On my way home from college today, I saw a guy with dwarfism walking by with a backpack literally just minding his own business. What caught my eye wasn't him. It was the people around him.

A few people started waving at him and saying hi in that overly enthusiastic way people usually talk to little kids and making all the hand gestures and stuffs. Meanwhile, the guy was just a normal full grown adult walking down the road. He smiled and said hi back and kept going.

Maybe they meant well, but it felt so weird to watch. Having dwarfism doesn't suddenly make someone a child. He's a grown man mentally and imagine treating a full grown adult like this.

Honestly, the fact that he responded so politely with a smile made me think he's probably used to this by now which is kind of sad. I don't know, maybe it's just me, but if you wouldn't greet an average height stranger like they're a toddler, don't do it to someone with dwarfism either.

It wasn't even a normal hi or bye but the way they all did it with cute hand gestures made me cringe first hand and I turned my head, the other side fr.

Long story short, things didn’t work out with someone and I really want to forget him. I usually do eventually but it takes a few days, ig and this time I just wish I could forget instantly. It hurts and I don’t really know how to deal with it. I didn't even get a proper closure and part of me is enraged that he put all the blame on me taking nil accountability while other part still misses him.

But, the only good thing amidst all this is we didn't really block each other but still I have nil urge to ping him mainly because he acted like I was the problem but I would say we both had our flaws. If his last message was acknowledging it instead of turning it on me, it would have been even worse for me to move on. That at least made it easy for me.

Now I only miss him but not really interested in patching up.

I have zero friends and no one I can reach out to for rants, casual conversations or emotional support. I’m socially awkward and whenever I do manage to make one or two friends, they eventually drift away or choose other people over me. This has been a recurring pattern throughout my life.

Lately, though, the loneliness has started taking a serious toll on me. I’m already dealing with family problems and severe depression, and having absolutely no one to turn to has made everything feel even worse. I’m literally ranting to ChatGPT because I have no one else to listen.

Please don’t suggest that I make friends or talk to people. Let’s assume that door is closed for me for a while.

How do I accept this loneliness, make peace with it temporarily, and remain somewhat sane and productive until things eventually change?

I booked two seats for this movie with Dad and then this morning he ended up ditching me and taking Mom instead because he was uncomfortable with who was going to sit next to me, and aisle seats weren’t available. I was so excited to watch this movie, and this is how I was treated.

I got upset and now I’m genuinely just minding my own business, but somehow they expect me to act like nothing happened and put on a smiley face. I was making a sandwich just now, an onion fell on the floor, and I suddenly burst into tears because this honestly feels like my last straw.

Life genuinely sucks right now.

I booked two seats for this movie with Dad and then this morning he ended up ditching me and taking Mom instead because he was uncomfortable with who was going to sit next to me, and aisle seats weren’t available. I was so excited to watch this movie, and this is how I was treated.

I got upset and now I’m genuinely just minding my own business, but somehow they expect me to act like nothing happened and put on a smiley face. I was making a sandwich just now, an onion fell on the floor, and I suddenly burst into tears because this honestly feels like my last straw.

Life genuinely sucks right now.

Same as title. Tried AIR1ca and didnt like it much. Any other suggestions pls?