u/PiousBagelGuardian

I have ADHD and Misophonia and my mother is autistic and has some other degree of neurodivergence. She acts like a child when overstimulated, blurts out random information, and giggles and skips. All of this is perfectly fine with me, but the voice that she used when engaging with the behavior is absolutely nerves reaching

I love her and with all the trauma that she has been through it’s ok for her to feel this way, but this seruously bothers my ears and I feel guilty

What to do

Just want to ask a couple questions about the course

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Going to homecoming in a couple months and I want to do great on the dance floor

Going to homecoming in a couple months and I want to do great on the dance floor

My Jewish grandmother is in poor health. Her wish to me was to convert to Judaism, or reconvert as my mother was adopted into Judaism. This is very important to me, as I am a Yiddish speaker, I flirted with the Haredi world for some time through Kiruv programs as a freshman and sophomore in high school, but my mother had become a Christian since I was 9, I was never bar mitzvah, and I was given a millah, not a bris millah by a hospital, not a Mohel. I have spent the last years since going off the derech contemplating whether I should rejoin Yiddishkeit and become a proud Jew again. Christianity and Catholicism, and every time my mother says she loves me seem to near me towards Christianity, as that is the religion I was taught as a long child. I believe that I can only return to my innocence as a Christian, but my soul is a Jew. So this hurts. Also my mother’s lack of understanding religious boundaries whatsoever poses a challenge too.

Does anyone have any good arguments against Christianity that aren’t Isaiah 53 based?

I am very objective in terms of my thinking. I was brought up homeschooled by my mother with very high intellectual rigor until I was 12 years old. I was then put into public school. I greatly thank my mom for that as it was invigorating and eye opening learning.

Now, my mom is Jewish and she married a Christian and she eventually became Christian when I was around 10 through health issues and trauma and my Jewish grandmother almost kicking the bucket.

Christianity, since I was 3, has had an important place in my life, and even after I became immersed in Orthodox Judaism at some point in my life, my mother was still engaging in Christianity, as she thought that interfaith and mixed race marriages also mix the religions, and due to her lack of religious education, she still thought she was Jewish in practice while being Christian.

I am sixteen years of age now and I doubt a large amount of the facets of religion, but due to my research, various issues such as the various interpretations of Isaiah 53 (pre Rashi), and other messianic prophecies recognized by Rashi and Rambam (two high level olden Jewish scholarly sages), apostles martyrdom, Jesus Mass-Grace Hypothesis (doesn’t make sense as Romans compiled with Jewish burial practices which would have made for what Jesus’ burial was said to have been), fallacies in the claim that the gospels were written hundreds of years after Christ, and tons of other apologetics have hit me

Additionally, the fact that cancer and illness and infidelity have hit our family, and also not having much money while living in an affluent area and more have hit us hard, Jesus and Christianity sometimes seem like all we have, meaning that even when I was so immersed in being Jewish outside home, I was being programmed with Christianity.

How to end up fully deconstructing

I am still terrified of hell and still fear if this whole even questioning and how I even got into questioning by looming into Judaism reform style many years ago and eventually leading to orthodox and more was a trap by satan to get me to reject religion altogether

Please just let me know?

I am very objective in terms of my thinking. I was brought up homeschooled by my mother with very high intellectual rigor until I was 12 years old. I was then put into public school. I greatly thank my mom for that as it was invigorating and eye opening learning.

Now, my mom is Jewish and she married a Christian and she eventually became Christian when I was around 10 through health issues and trauma and my Jewish grandmother almost kicking the bucket.

Christianity, since I was 3, has had an important place in my life, and even after I became immersed in Orthodox Judaism at some point in my life, my mother was still engaging in Christianity, as she thought that interfaith and mixed race marriages also mix the religions, and due to her lack of religious education, she still thought she was Jewish in practice while being Christian.

I am sixteen years of age now and I doubt a large amount of the facets of religion, but due to my research, various issues such as the various interpretations of Isaiah 53 (pre Rashi), and other messianic prophecies recognized by Rashi and Rambam (two high level olden Jewish scholarly sages), apostles martyrdom, Jesus Mass-Grace Hypothesis (doesn’t make sense as Romans compiled with Jewish burial practices which would have made for what Jesus’ burial was said to have been), fallacies in the claim that the gospels were written hundreds of years after Christ, and tons of other apologetics have hit me

Additionally, the fact that cancer and illness and infidelity have hit our family, and also not having much money while living in an affluent area and more have hit us hard, Jesus and Christianity sometimes seem like all we have, meaning that even when I was so immersed in being Jewish outside home, I was being programmed with Christianity.

How to end up fully deconstructing

I am still terrified of hell and still fear if this whole even questioning and how I even got into questioning by looming into Judaism reform style many years ago and eventually leading to orthodox and more was a trap by satan to get me to reject religion altogether

Please just let me know?

Do you have any good and safe recommendations for a high school and studying themed discord

I love my mother so much, but the last couple years after she had cancer which to my understanding, put her into perimenopause, I’ve seen that she has been in lots of pain, sweating, anxiety and has big muscle cramps and tightness. I helped her by just being by her side and doing special back massages to break the muscles.

Sometimes she can be cranky and I will try to calm her down. She is such a good person and I don’t want to let her get too sick from this.

I left an Orthodox stream of Judaism that I had gotten into through groups who went to my school and unfortunately because she had converted to another religion (was originally Jewish), we had a couple squabbles, but I still love her so much. Our relationship as been getting better and better and it’s just sad to see her go through this

What are some ways to comfort her?

My mother has no understand of the difference between Judaism and Christianity before. She is not with a community of Christians but over the last few years became a do-it-yourself Christian. Like non denominational style. She absolutely has no understanding what Judaism and Christianity are and she still thinks that she is Jewish, has forgotten all Jewish law, and believes that she has every right to go inside a synagogue and participate in Jewish life as a Christian and also jumps up and down and smiles and says “I don’t care what people think because I’m a child of G-d!” and claims that this is a “marching to her own beat” and other much odder behavior. Additionally she does not understand the difference between Spanish and Italian. It’s seriously weird as well. Besides the fact that she then says she doesn’t need Judaism as a religion but also wants me (who she raised Christian.. I later became an Orthodox Jew and have sense deconstructed from religion altogether) to attend Shabbat dinners under the expectation that I’m a Christian but also Jewish. If that makes any sense

Can anyone help. This makes zero sense to me and seems like just sludge created from an aging mind. I love her so much but this is so odd

Additionally this has led to her believing that immigrants don’t know how to use computers (she is absolutely not racist, but this has come. As well as China is Japan, every Asian is Chinese. Tried to help her with this and she can recognize “Filipino” I’m trying to help her geography while World Cup with her (Me and her always watch sports and contests, it’s one of our favorite things to do). She additionally seems to also claim that if she has an opinion and if it is untrue, the whole world is ignorant. It’s very confusing

Apparently Chemotherapy is one hell of a drug. This is a couple years after as well.

Looking for a discord server about leaving the “religion”

This song is the best thing I’ve heard in a while. Every arrangement from the original by Pandora’s box’s to Celine Dion, and of course Meat Loaf’s is absolutely beautiful. Jim Steinman does an amazing job making it grow, crescendo and just burst with emotion. I mean truthfully this is one of the best pieces I’ve ever heard

I got a synth last year that had an Ableton program pre installed into it. This synth is really good and I recently got back into it. I decided to go back into my mom’s computer (I didn’t have my own at the time) and go into my old chrome user I made just for music, and I discovered that the user has been compromised by some kind of browser blocking PUP malware thing, and also that my Ableton account survived though, and my email needs to be verified by Google in 48 hours.

I quickly changed my Ableton password, switched and email, and installed my stuff onto my new pre owned MacBook I got for Hanukkah.

Is Ableton going to flag this as suspicious activity or am I good? I don’t want to lose Ableton to malware or them being confused

Is discord truly dangerous? I just watched a documentary about cult activity and terrible abuses that occured in discord and was really scared that it could potentially harbor really dangerous people. Knowing that this literally came from discord and Roblox and literal cult related dangerous activity was occurring with these, I’m afraid that either discord will look suspect (I am only in philosophy, music, celebrity, and Catholic servers, I think one Orthodox Christian and Protestant one), and made another account with my very distinct Hebrew derived name that is for AP courses stuff and more.

I’m also very scared that there could be criminals

Are they really common or is it just too late at night and too much true crime documentaries

I usually watch true crime stuff but this one scared the shit out of me

Give my your greatest of all time medieval coded songs

Please let me be privy to some funk rap fusions. Particularly 80’s and 90’s. Some hip hop