u/RagAndBows

I live in Oregon which is likely safer than other parts of the country but I'm concerned about the social implications of wearing my hijab in public. I am a new convert.

He is at the mosque two times per day now, daily prayers, Friday prayers, has already taken part in a funeral ritual, changing his views on people etc I am doing my best to be curious and supportive but I'm terrified of how quickly he is changing. He seems more judgemental and cold now.

It's only been a few weeks. We have two young children together. I've been learning about the religion and have seen that if I do not eventually convert then he will leave me. I am agnostic and believe that all religions are valid and should be respected, that character and humility matters. He said his mentor told him to practice patience and that divorce would be bad for our children. I am also a stay at home mother. We had an argument about this specific topic last night and he did tell me that I should convert to Islam and if he has to choose, he will choose his faith.

What does "be patient" mean? I am too intimidated to go to a mosque and talk to his imam myself. I don't know what to do. I feel like my life is in this tortuous state of limbo right now, to which he is anything but empathetic because he is obsessed and absorbed with his new faith and community. I do not have any friends or community so the isolation I feel is so scary. I only have him and our two children and my world is falling apart.

He hasn't ever been able to sweat before!

He would just get red and hot to the touch.

The last 2 days I've found sweat on his forehead! The relief and hope I have for him is immense!

Guess I'm just in chronic pain and bleeding out every month for no reason. Great.

I can no longer feel the sensation of peeing if I'm leaning forward, elbows on knees on the toilet. I can feel the warmth and wetness but not the actual sensation of peeing, if that makes sense? I can however, feel it if I'm upright. Sounds like nerve compression to me. I have a pelvic ultrasound on Wednesday and I'm getting really anxious about it. What if they don't find anything? What if I have to keep living with all of these horrible progressing symptoms and pain? My doctor said "i think this is your uterus" when pushing right under my belly button. That would be very swollen if so but she didn't say it IS my uterus. I just want definitive answers. I've been dealing with pain and symptoms for 10 years, 2 ultrasounds with no abnormal findings. I'm so tired.

Have any of you guys been through this?

I have a 3 year old and a 10 year old who has autism. I am also awaiting a hysterectomy for my Adenmyosis that causes constant pain. I had to be hospitalized last Monday for panic attacks. I am working with the county for resources for my family. Therapy and wrap around services. He is suddenly converting to Islam and is literally like a different person.

I'm really struggling.

What are the odds that I will find a good man who is actually interested in me now? I'm 36, slender and conventionally attractive but I have been a stay at home mom off and on for 11 years, have no college degree and two children. I'm afraid I'll only get people wanting to have sex with me with nothing beyond that.