u/ScheduleCurious2505

Context:I'm not actually calling it a trend
With this post I quite literally do not care a single bit about grammar or punctuation if you don't like it then don't read it!

Right.. so I'm just supposed to stay in contact with the people who reported me missing for moving in with my boyfriend all because they didn't like how he showed me who my parents really were..

Right... so I'm supposed to stay in contact after years of covering my ears listening to him slam things into the wall fighting with my mom because she cheated

Right.. I'm supposed to stay after he choked me over an iCloud password and my mom defended it.

Right.. I'm supposed to stay after my moms religiously been jealous over me my whole life and makes fun of me for the tiniest shit

Right..I'm supposed to stay after my mom yanks my hair every right and religiously does things to get me in trouble

Right.. I'm supposed to stay after he kicked me out over getting flowers..

Right... I'm supposed to stay after he tells me to shut up or he will give me a reason to cry
Right..im supposed to stay after he hits me so hard my mouth bleeds and he tells me to get over it

Right..im supposed to stay after my moms religiously comments on my weight

Right.. im supposed to stay after my mom religiously favors my brother

Right... im supposed to stay after my dad religiously blames me for EVERYTHING and yells at me even after i say i didn't do it

Rightt…

people are biologically hardwired to want their parents.. but anyways

With this post I quite literally do not care a single bit about grammar or punctuation if you don't like it then don't read it!

Right.. so I'm just supposed to stay in contact with the people who reported me missing for moving in with my boyfriend all because they didn't like how he showed me who my parents really were..

Right... so I'm supposed to stay in contact after years of covering my ears listening to him slam things into the wall fighting with my mom because she cheated

Right.. I'm supposed to stay after he choked me over an iCloud password and my mom defended it.

Right.. I'm supposed to stay after my moms religiously been jealous over me my whole life and makes fun of me for the tiniest shit

Right..I'm supposed to stay after my mom yanks my hair every right and religiously does things to get me in trouble

Right.. I'm supposed to stay after he kicked me out over getting flowers..

Right... I'm supposed to stay after he tells me to shut up or he will give me a reason to cry
Right..im supposed to stay after he hits me so hard my mouth bleeds and he tells me to get over it

Right..im supposed to stay after my moms religiously comments on my weight

Right.. im supposed to stay after my mom religiously favors my brother

Right... im supposed to stay after my dad religiously blames me for EVERYTHING and yells at me even after i say i didn't do it

Rightt…

Context:I’m not actually calling it a trend
With this post I quite literally do not care a single bit about grammar or punctuation if you don’t like it then don’t read it!

Right.. so I’m just supposed to stay in contact with the people who reported me missing for moving in with my boyfriend all because they didn’t like how he showed me who my parents really were..

Right… so I’m supposed to stay in contact after years of covering my ears listening to him slam things into the wall fighting with my mom because she cheated

Right.. I’m supposed to stay after he choked me over an iCloud password and my mom defended it.

Right.. I’m supposed to stay after my moms religiously been jealous over me my whole life and makes fun of me for the tiniest shit

Right..I’m supposed to stay after my mom yanks my hair every right and religiously does things to get me in trouble

Right.. I’m supposed to stay after he kicked me out over getting flowers..

Right… I’m supposed to stay after he tells me to shut up or he will give me a reason to cry

Right..im supposed to stay after he hits me so hard my mouth bleeds and he tells me to get over it

Right..im supposed to stay after my moms religiously comments on my weight

Right.. im supposed to stay after my mom religiously favors my brother

Right… im supposed to stay after my dad religiously blames me for EVERYTHING and yells at me even after i say i didn’t do it

Right…

This post has nothing to do with grammar or punctuation and if you’re gonna comment on it truly don’t waste your time because I do not care.

CONTEXT:I’m 18 turning 19 in a few months

I feel guilty for wanting to move out and go no contact with my whole entire family.

My parents have not treated me the best for years it’s gotten worse recently and I just want to get myself out of this environment.

I have a boyfriend who doesn’t exactly have a great past but he’s gotten much better he’s relevant to this story because my parents blame him for me trying to move out a month ago so much so they reported me missing.

However I know my boyfriends past isn’t a problem because they go through this with me once a year or every 2 years and this is just the first time I’ve refused to leave someone because I know he isn’t the problem

I’ve always had a rough relationship with my family my moms hit me and she has a jealousy problem (she also cheated) and she’s just mentally screwing me up
My dad choked me when I was 13 because he thought I gave away the iCloud password
He kicked me out over flowers or because he was mad at me mom and whenever he’s mad at one person he blows up
My brother is 12 he’s done nothing wrong but I’m afraid if I keep contact with him my parents will try to manipulate him into hating me, force him to cut contact with me, or will try to talk to me through him
My aunt/uncle will just tell me I’m being dramatic and unreasonable and that I’m making a dangerous decision by moving in with my boyfriends but my aunt/uncle only know what my parents tell him and my parents will do anything so that I can’t move out

Am I right for feeling guilty? Should I?

This post has nothing to do with grammar or punctuation and if you’re gonna comment on it truly don’t waste your time because I do not care.

CONTEXT:I’m 18 turning 19 in a few months

I feel guilty for wanting to move out and go no contact with my whole entire family.

My parents have not treated me the best for years it’s gotten worse recently and I just want to get myself out of this environment.

I have a boyfriend who doesn’t exactly have a great past but he’s gotten much better he’s relevant to this story because my parents blame him for me trying to move out a month ago so much so they reported me missing.

However I know my boyfriends past isn’t a problem because they go through this with me once a year or every 2 years and this is just the first time I’ve refused to leave someone because I know he isn’t the problem

I’ve always had a rough relationship with my family my moms hit me and she has a jealousy problem (she also cheated) and she’s just mentally screwing me up
My dad choked me when I was 13 because he thought I gave away the iCloud password
He kicked me out over flowers or because he was mad at me mom and whenever he’s mad at one person he blows up
My brother is 12 he’s done nothing wrong but I’m afraid if I keep contact with him my parents will try to manipulate him into hating me, force him to cut contact with me, or will try to talk to me through him
My aunt/uncle will just tell me I’m being dramatic and unreasonable and that I’m making a dangerous decision by moving in with my boyfriends but my aunt/uncle only know what my parents tell him and my parents will do anything so that I can’t move out

Am I right for feeling guilty? Should I?

This post has nothing to do with grammar or punctuation and if you’re gonna comment on it truly don’t waste your time because I do not care.

CONTEXT:I’m 18 turning 19 in a few months

I feel guilty for wanting to move out and go no contact with my whole entire family.

My parents have not treated me the best for years it’s gotten worse recently and I just want to get myself out of this environment.

I have a boyfriend who doesn’t exactly have a great past but he’s gotten much better he’s relevant to this story because my parents blame him for me trying to move out a month ago so much so they reported me missing.

However I know my boyfriends past isn’t a problem because they go through this with me once a year or every 2 years and this is just the first time I’ve refused to leave someone because I know he isn’t the problem

I’ve always had a rough relationship with my family my moms hit me and she has a jealousy problem (she also cheated) and she’s just mentally screwing me up
My dad choked me when I was 13 because he thought I gave away the iCloud password
He kicked me out over flowers or because he was mad at me mom and whenever he’s mad at one person he blows up
My brother is 12 he’s done nothing wrong but I’m afraid if I keep contact with him my parents will try to manipulate him into hating me, force him to cut contact with me, or will try to talk to me through him
My aunt/uncle will just tell me I’m being dramatic and unreasonable and that I’m making a dangerous decision by moving in with my boyfriends but my aunt/uncle only know what my parents tell him and my parents will do anything so that I can’t move out

Am I right for feeling guilty? Should I?

This post has nothing to do with grammar or punctuation and if you’re gonna comment on it truly don’t waste your time because I do not care.

CONTEXT:I’m 18 turning 19 in a few months

I feel guilty for wanting to move out and go no contact with my whole entire family.

My parents have not treated me the best for years it’s gotten worse recently and I just want to get myself out of this environment.

I have a boyfriend who doesn’t exactly have a great past but he’s gotten much better he’s relevant to this story because my parents blame him for me trying to move out a month ago so much so they reported me missing.

However I know my boyfriends past isn’t a problem because they go through this with me once a year or every 2 years and this is just the first time I’ve refused to leave someone because I know he isn’t the problem

I’ve always had a rough relationship with my family my moms hit me and she has a jealousy problem (she also cheated) and she’s just mentally screwing me up
My dad choked me when I was 13 because he thought I gave away the iCloud password
He kicked me out over flowers or because he was mad at me mom and whenever he’s mad at one person he blows up
My brother is 12 he’s done nothing wrong but I’m afraid if I keep contact with him my parents will try to manipulate him into hating me, force him to cut contact with me, or will try to talk to me through him
My aunt/uncle will just tell me I’m being dramatic and unreasonable and that I’m making a dangerous decision by moving in with my boyfriends but my aunt/uncle only know what my parents tell him and my parents will do anything so that I can’t move out

Am I right for feeling guilty? Should I?

Update:this post has nothing to do with moving in with my boyfriend just explaining the context and that I’m going into a safe place moving in with my boyfriend is non negotiable:) I was only asking for advice on feeling guilty but not me moving in with him

This post has nothing to do with grammar or punctuation and if you’re gonna comment on it truly don’t waste your time because I do not care.

CONTEXT:I’m 18 turning 19 in a few months

I feel guilty for wanting to move out and go no contact with my whole entire family.

My parents have not treated me the best for years it’s gotten worse recently and I just want to get myself out of this environment.

I have a boyfriend who doesn’t exactly have a great past but he’s gotten much better he’s relevant to this story because my parents blame him for me trying to move out a month ago so much so they reported me missing.

However I know my boyfriends past isn’t a problem because they go through this with me once a year or every 2 years and this is just the first time I’ve refused to leave someone because I know he isn’t the problem

I’ve always had a rough relationship with my family my moms hit me and she has a jealousy problem (she also cheated) and she’s just mentally screwing me up
My dad choked me when I was 13 because he thought I gave away the iCloud password
He kicked me out over flowers or because he was mad at me mom and whenever he’s mad at one person he blows up
My brother is 12 he’s done nothing wrong but I’m afraid if I keep contact with him my parents will try to manipulate him into hating me, force him to cut contact with me, or will try to talk to me through him
My aunt/uncle will just tell me I’m being dramatic and unreasonable and that I’m making a dangerous decision by moving in with my boyfriends but my aunt/uncle only know what my parents tell him and my parents will do anything so that I can’t move out

Am I right for feeling guilty? Should I?

UPDATE:grammar and punctuation are literally not the point of this post. When I’m crying trying to type something deep and trying to leave a toxic situation punctuation and grammar are the least of my worries if ur just gonna comment about my grammar and punctuation there isn’t a point to it as I’m gonna fix it all before I send it.

CONTEXT:IM 18 ALMOST 19 i have tried to move out before and they proceeded to report me missing and also got my aunt to text me multiple times and call me so the police told me to go to them so they can explain to my parents why they cannot report me missing and i will be with the police when i send this text to my parents

I’m going to cut contact with my whole family hopefully this week because of things my parents have done and i know they will try to get my aunt and uncle and cousin to text me trying to tell me to go back home

I feel guilty for cutting off my 12 year old brother my aunt my uncle and my cousin but I know my parents will have them try to get me to come back and say im being unsafe and dramatic and I also know they will side with my parents especially aunt and uncle because they don’t really know anything about me

This is what I’m going to text my mom and dad
“I am going no contact with you for mental health reasons you can blame my boyfriend all you need but I’ve wanted to move out the second dad choked me when i was 13 bc he thought i gave the iCloud password out I’ve wanted to move out since he threw me to the ground when i was 16 i wanted to move out when he hit me so hard my mouth was bleeding and he didn’t even care i wanted to move out when i could no longer accept his apologies because i no longer thought his apologies were meaningful I’ve wanted to move out since he kicked me out for the first time over flowers or the times he kicked me out while i was trying to eat all because he was mad at you mom for something you did that i have no control over. I’ve wanted to move out since the time he refused to talk to me for days all because he thought i was telling you mom every bad thing he said about you when in reality I wasn’t and he’s said more about you than you’ll ever know. I’ve wanted to move out everytime I’ve heard you two fighting yelling him kicking you out or him leaving because that’s not an environment I want to be in. So blame him all you need to but in reality I'm trying to find peace in myself. Just because you've been through worse doesn't make the trauma you guys put me through any better"

This is what I'm sending my aunt
"I understand you think this is dangerous and | shouldn't do this because they are my only parents however I was their only daughter. It's my first time living to but in reality whats dangerous was staying in an environment I've been thrown down in or hit or choked and honestly as I told them you can blame my boyfriend all you need to but I'm just trying to find peace and just because you've all had it worse doesn't make it better!"

UPDATE:grammar and punctuation are literally not the point of this post. When I’m crying trying to type something deep and trying to leave a toxic situation punctuation and grammar are the least of my worries if ur just gonna comment about my grammar and punctuation there isn’t a point to it as I’m gonna fix it all before I send it.

CONTEXT:IM 18 ALMOST 19 i have tried to move out before and they proceeded to report me missing so the police told me to go to them so they can explain to my parents why they cannot report me missing and i will be with the police when i send this text to my parents

I’m going to cut contact with my whole family (really only my parents brother and aunt and uncle and cousin) hopefully this week because of things my parents have done but the reason I want to cut my brother cousin aunt and uncle off as well is because i know my parents will try to get my aunt and uncle and cousin and brother to text me trying to tell me to go back home and say im being dramatic and all this and my aunt and uncle and cousin will all side with my parents saying what im doing is dangerous when in reality they just don’t like it

AM I UNFAIR FOR CUTTNG THE REST OF MY FAMILY OFF FOR MY PARENTS DOING? AND ARE THESE TEST OKAY TO SEND?

This is what I’m going to text my mom and dad
“I am going no contact with you for mental health reasons you can blame my boyfriend all you need but I’ve wanted to move out the second dad choked me when i was 13 bc he thought i gave the iCloud password out I’ve wanted to move out since he threw me to the ground when i was 16 i wanted to move out when he hit me so hard my mouth was bleeding and he didn’t even care i wanted to move out when i could no longer accept his apologies because i no longer thought his apologies were meaningful I’ve wanted to move out since he kicked me out for the first time over flowers or the times he kicked me out while i was trying to eat all because he was mad at you mom for something you did that i have no control over. I’ve wanted to move out since the time he refused to talk to me for days all because he thought i was telling you mom every bad thing he said about you when in reality I wasn’t and he’s said more about you than you’ll ever know. I’ve wanted to move out everytime I’ve heard you two fighting yelling him kicking you out or him leaving because that’s not an environment I want to be in. So blame him all you need to but in reality I'm trying to find peace in myself. Just because you've been through worse doesn't make the trauma you guys put me through any better"

This is what I'm sending my aunt
"I understand you think this is dangerous and | shouldn't do this because they are my only parents however I was their only daughter. It's my first time living to but in reality whats dangerous was staying in an environment I've been thrown down in or hit or choked and honestly as I told them you can blame my boyfriend all you need to but I'm just trying to find peace and just because you've all had it worse doesn't make it better!"

UPDATE:grammar and punctuation are literally not the point of this post. When I’m crying trying to type something deep and trying to leave a toxic situation punctuation and grammar are the least of my worries if ur just gonna comment about my grammar and punctuation there isn’t a point to it as I’m gonna fix it all before I send it.

CONTEXT:IM 18 ALMOST 19 i have tried to move out before and they proceeded to report me missing so the police told me to go to them so they can explain to my parents why they cannot report me missing and i will be with the police when i send this text to my parents

I’m going to cut contact with my whole family hopefully this week because of things my parents have done and i know they will try to get my aunt and uncle and cousin to text me trying to tell me to go back home

This is what I’m going to text my mom and dad
“I am going no contact with you for mental health reasons you can blame my boyfriend all you need but I’ve wanted to move out the second dad choked me when i was 13 bc he thought i gave the iCloud password out I’ve wanted to move out since he threw me to the ground when i was 16 i wanted to move out when he hit me so hard my mouth was bleeding and he didn’t even care i wanted to move out when i could no longer accept his apologies because i no longer thought his apologies were meaningful I’ve wanted to move out since he kicked me out for the first time over flowers or the times he kicked me out while i was trying to eat all because he was mad at you mom for something you did that i have no control over. I’ve wanted to move out since the time he refused to talk to me for days all because he thought i was telling you mom every bad thing he said about you when in reality I wasn’t and he’s said more about you than you’ll ever know. I’ve wanted to move out everytime I’ve heard you two fighting yelling him kicking you out or him leaving because that’s not an environment I want to be in. So blame him all you need to but in reality I'm trying to find peace in myself. Just because you've been through worse doesn't make the trauma you guys put me through any better"

This is what I'm sending my aunt
"I understand you think this is dangerous and | shouldn't do this because they are my only parents however I was their only daughter. It's my first time living to but in reality whats dangerous was staying in an environment I've been thrown down in or hit or choked and honestly as I told them you can blame my boyfriend all you need to but I'm just trying to find peace and just because you've all had it worse doesn't make it better!"

UPDATE:grammar and punctuation are literally not the point of this post. When I’m crying trying to type something deep and trying to leave a toxic situation punctuation and grammar are the least of my worries if ur just gonna comment about my grammar and punctuation there isn’t a point to it as I’m gonna fix it all before I send it.

CONTEXT:IM 18 ALMOST 19 i have tried to move out before and they proceeded to report me missing so the police told me to go to them so they can explain to my parents why they cannot report me missing and i will be with the police when i send this text to my parents

I’m going to cut contact with my whole family hopefully this week because of things my parents have done and i know they will try to get my aunt and uncle and cousin to text me trying to tell me to go back home

This is what I’m going to text my mom and dad
“I am going no contact with you for mental health reasons you can blame my boyfriend all you need but I’ve wanted to move out the second dad choked me when i was 13 bc he thought i gave the iCloud password out I’ve wanted to move out since he threw me to the ground when i was 16 i wanted to move out when he hit me so hard my mouth was bleeding and he didn’t even care i wanted to move out when i could no longer accept his apologies because i no longer thought his apologies were meaningful I’ve wanted to move out since he kicked me out for the first time over flowers or the times he kicked me out while i was trying to eat all because he was mad at you mom for something you did that i have no control over. I’ve wanted to move out since the time he refused to talk to me for days all because he thought i was telling you mom every bad thing he said about you when in reality I wasn’t and he’s said more about you than you’ll ever know. I’ve wanted to move out everytime I’ve heard you two fighting yelling him kicking you out or him leaving because that’s not an environment I want to be in. So blame him all you need to but in reality I'm trying to find peace in myself. Just because you've been through worse doesn't make the trauma you guys put me through any better"

This is what I'm sending my aunt
"I understand you think this is dangerous and | shouldn't do this because they are my only parents however I was their only daughter. It's my first time living to but in reality whats dangerous was staying in an environment I've been thrown down in or hit or choked and honestly as I told them you can blame my boyfriend all you need to but I'm just trying to find peace and just because you've all had it worse doesn't make it better!"

UPDATE:grammar and punctuation are literally not the point of this post. When I’m crying trying to type something deep and trying to leave a toxic situation punctuation and grammar are the least of my worries if ur just gonna comment about my grammar and punctuation there isn’t a point to it as I’m gonna fix it all before I send it.

Am I wrong/am I being unfair for wanting to send these text and cut off my whole family even tho my aunt has done necessarily done nothing wrong and my brother hasn’t done anything wrong either he’s only 12 but I feel as tho if I don’t cut him off my parents will contact me through him or make him cut me off

CONTEXT:IM 18 ALMOST 19 i have tried to move out before and they proceeded to report me missing so the police told me to go to them so they can explain to my parents why they cannot report me missing and i will be with the police when i send this text to my parents

I’m going to cut contact with my whole family hopefully this week because of things my parents have done and i know they will try to get my aunt and uncle and cousin to text me trying to tell me to go back home

This is what I’m going to text my mom and dad
“I am going no contact with you for mental health reasons you can blame my boyfriend all you need but I’ve wanted to move out the second dad choked me when i was 13 bc he thought i gave the iCloud password out I’ve wanted to move out since he threw me to the ground when i was 16 i wanted to move out when he hit me so hard my mouth was bleeding and he didn’t even care i wanted to move out when i could no longer accept his apologies because i no longer thought his apologies were meaningful I’ve wanted to move out since he kicked me out for the first time over flowers or the times he kicked me out while i was trying to eat all because he was mad at you mom for something you did that i have no control over. I’ve wanted to move out since the time he refused to talk to me for days all because he thought i was telling you mom every bad thing he said about you when in reality I wasn’t and he’s said more about you than you’ll ever know. I’ve wanted to move out everytime I’ve heard you two fighting yelling him kicking you out or him leaving because that’s not an environment I want to be in. So blame him all you need to but in reality I'm trying to find peace in myself. Just because you've been through worse doesn't make the trauma you guys put me through any better"

This is what I'm sending my aunt
"I understand you think this is dangerous and | shouldn't do this because they are my only parents however I was their only daughter. It's my first time living to but in reality whats dangerous was staying in an environment I've been thrown down in or hit or choked and honestly as I told them you can blame my boyfriend all you need to but I'm just trying to find peace and just because you've all had it worse doesn't make it better!"

UPDATE:grammar and punctuation are literally not the point of this post. When I’m crying trying to type something deep and trying to leave a toxic situation punctuation and grammar are the least of my worries if ur just gonna comment about my grammar and punctuation there isn’t a point to it as I’m gonna fix it all before I send it.

CONTEXT:IM 18 ALMOST 19 i have tried to move out before and they proceeded to report me missing so the police told me to go to them so they can explain to my parents why they cannot report me missing and i will be with the police when i send this text to my parents

I’m going to cut contact with my whole family hopefully this week because of things my parents have done and i know they will try to get my aunt and uncle and cousin to text me trying to tell me to go back home

This is what I’m going to text my mom and dad
“I am going no contact with you for mental health reasons you can blame my boyfriend all you need but I’ve wanted to move out the second dad choked me when i was 13 bc he thought i gave the iCloud password out I’ve wanted to move out since he threw me to the ground when i was 16 i wanted to move out when he hit me so hard my mouth was bleeding and he didn’t even care i wanted to move out when i could no longer accept his apologies because i no longer thought his apologies were meaningful I’ve wanted to move out since he kicked me out for the first time over flowers or the times he kicked me out while i was trying to eat all because he was mad at you mom for something you did that i have no control over. I’ve wanted to move out since the time he refused to talk to me for days all because he thought i was telling you mom every bad thing he said about you when in reality I wasn’t and he’s said more about you than you’ll ever know. I’ve wanted to move out everytime I’ve heard you two fighting yelling him kicking you out or him leaving because that’s not an environment I want to be in. So blame him all you need to but in reality I'm trying to find peace in myself. Just because you've been through worse doesn't make the trauma you guys put me through any better"

This is what I'm sending my aunt
"I understand you think this is dangerous and | shouldn't do this because they are my only parents however I was their only daughter. It's my first time living to but in reality whats dangerous was staying in an environment I've been thrown down in or hit or choked and honestly as I told them you can blame my boyfriend all you need to but I'm just trying to find peace and just because you've all had it worse doesn't make it better!"

UPDATE:I AM NOT A MINOR IDK WHY BUT IVE GOTTEN DMS SAYING TO GO TO MY HIGHSCHOOL COUNSELOR BUT I GRADUATED AND IM ALMOST 19

Am I wrong for wanting to move out? I’ve been wanting to move out since I was 13 but all of a sudden now that I have a bf he assumes it’s his doing since he’s older and we have a conversation abt my attitude once a year (I’m almost 19) then my dad makes it seem like he’s never done any wrong
I only do a few chores and get paid for them however he snaps a lot and doesn’t realizes it he’s choked me a few times kicked me out a few times for a few hours one time over flowers and one time bc he had an episode and wanted everyone out
He barges in my room when I’ve asked not to
He blames me for everything even if it’s not me for example:my brother put a dent into a chair and he yelled at me for it
He’s hit me a few times
He yell a lotttt
Anytime he’s mad at anyone he gets mad at everyone
Everytime I have a bf all of a sudden my attitude is bc they are turning me against them he’s thrown my phone and shattered it before he gets mad at me for being in my room at the time but yells at me id I lay on the couch for too long in his eyes
And this is just my dad my mom does her own things she always tries to make it a competition with us she yells at me a lotttt she blames me for everything as well like when dishes aren’t taken care of (my brother takes care of them) or if my brother makes a mess all of a sudden it’s my mess
And both of them compare there trauma and make it a compition everytime I try to talk about how I feel an I tried to talk to them about some thing the other day he snapped at me even tho he said I can always talk to him and I wasn’t that bad I just wanted to see if he could yell a little less

So can someone give me some advice and see if I should move out or if Its not a big deal

UPDATE:he’s only choked me like 3 times and it’s been awhile and he also hasn’t hit me in awhile it’s mainly just been yelling and I tried to move out before and he reported me missing

UPDATE:I AM NOT A MINOR IDK WHY BUT IVE GOTTEN DMS SAYING TO GO TO MY HIGHSCHOOL COUNSELOR BUT I GRADUATED AND IM ALMOST 19

Am I wrong for wanting to move out? I’ve been wanting to move out since I was 13 but all of a sudden now that I have a bf he assumes it’s his doing since he’s older and we have a conversation abt my attitude once a year (I’m almost 19) then my dad makes it seem like he’s never done any wrong
I only do a few chores and get paid for them however he snaps a lot and doesn’t realizes it he’s choked me a few times kicked me out a few times for a few hours one time over flowers and one time bc he had an episode and wanted everyone out
He barges in my room when I’ve asked not to
He blames me for everything even if it’s not me for example:my brother put a dent into a chair and he yelled at me for it
He’s hit me a few times
He yell a lotttt
Anytime he’s mad at anyone he gets mad at everyone
Everytime I have a bf all of a sudden my attitude is bc they are turning me against them he’s thrown my phone and shattered it before he gets mad at me for being in my room at the time but yells at me id I lay on the couch for too long in his eyes
And this is just my dad my mom does her own things she always tries to make it a competition with us she yells at me a lotttt she blames me for everything as well like when dishes aren’t taken care of (my brother takes care of them) or if my brother makes a mess all of a sudden it’s my mess
And both of them compare there trauma and make it a compition everytime I try to talk about how I feel an I tried to talk to them about some thing the other day he snapped at me even tho he said I can always talk to him and I wasn’t that bad I just wanted to see if he could yell a little less

So can someone give me some advice and see if I should move out or if Its not a big deal Update!!: he’s only choked me 3 times and he hasn’t in awhile he also hasn’t hit me in awhile it’s mainly just yelling and him making me feel bad basically saying he’d understand if I was beat and stuff (he’s forgetting/ignoring the things he’s done which sure maybe not as bad as what he’s gone through but he’s still done it) also I tried to move out before a few weeks ago and he reported me missing

Can someone tell me some advice if I should move out or not or if it’s just not a big deal. I’ve been wanting to move out since I was 13 but all of a sudden now that I have a bf he assumes it’s his doing since he’s older and we have a conversation abt my attitude once a year (I’m almost 19) then my dad makes it seem like he’s never done any wrong
I only do a few chores and get paid for them however he snaps a lot and doesn’t realizes it he’s choked me a few times kicked me out a few times for a few hours one time over flowers and one time bc he had an episode and wanted everyone out
He barges in my room when I’ve asked not to
He blames me for everything even if it’s not me for example:my brother put a dent into a chair and he yelled at me for it
He’s hit me a few times
He yell a lotttt
Anytime he’s mad at anyone he gets mad at everyone
Everytime I have a bf all of a sudden my attitude is bc they are turning me against them he’s thrown my phone and shattered it before he gets mad at me for being in my room at the time but yells at me id I lay on the couch for too long in his eyes
And this is just my dad my mom does her own things she always tries to make it a competition with us she yells at me a lotttt she blames me for everything as well like when dishes aren’t taken care of (my brother takes care of them) or if my brother makes a mess all of a sudden it’s my mess
And both of them compare there trauma and make it a compition everytime I try to talk about how I feel an I tried to talk to them about some thing the other day he snapped at me even tho he said I can always talk to him and I wasn’t that bad I just wanted to see if he could yell a little less

So can someone give me some advice and see if I should move out or if Its not a big deal

Update!!: he’s only choked me 3 times and he hasn’t in awhile he also hasn’t hit me in awhile it’s mainly just yelling and him making me feel bad basically saying he’d understand if I was beat and stuff (he’s forgetting/ignoring the things he’s done which sure maybe not as bad as what he’s gone through but he’s still done it) also I tried to move out before a few weeks ago and he reported me missing