
I LOVE MONSTERS
Del Toro and Steve Irwin had such a profound impact on my taste in aesthetics and my love for freaks.
I love all monsters, I love it when something abstract is represented in mishapen forms. I love folklore creatures and their many mutations from word of mouth. I love ghosts that look like they kept the damage that killed them and wrapped themselves in it. I love nameless things from beneath the Earth or from unknown outer spheres.
People were always afraid of me because I don't really know how to talk to people, and whenever I pretended to be like those loud and happy kids it was always painfully obvious and just unsettled people. I love wearing big boots, but the stomping and jangling of my house keys gave people anxiety. I love reading those CIA profiling guides and using what I learned while playing with tarot cards to "see" people, but it freaks most people out.
Monsters make me feel better, they make me feel like I'm actually cool in a different way and whatever fear follows me is a normal response. There's nothing wrong with me and nothing wrong with people who don't like me, this is just who I am.