The only thing I can't figure out about manifestation
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I've been dwelling in it for a few months now, and I think I got most of it understood pretty well. of course I don't claim to know every single thing, but I know the basics and logic behind it.
The only thing that is between me and my desires is just this: I don't understand how I am supposed to live a life and be satisfied with it without having it in the 3D.
I understand that the 3D is a reflection in delay, I understand it is not as real as the 4D. But we are still humans. and I just can't bring myself to be satisfied without having the physical desire.
For example I'm manifesting an S/P. it's my best friend who I fell in love with hard and she didn't love me back, but the situation got even worse when we got into a huge fight (first big real fight in my life) and everything got 10x as hurtful. now we don't talk at all and I'm even blocked.
The reason I enjoyed this relationship IS because I got these stimulations from it. of getting a text here and a gift there. Because it was nice from the outside world. cause and effect.
Even when I try to visualise these events, they don't feel as good. because I know to expect them, I know that story. it just doesn't feel as real or as satisfying.
So now I have this huge hole in my heart that I need fill, after getting it broken so hard a few months ago. and the pain is still there even after affirming and visualising. and I still find myself wanting to get her to just forgive me.
How am I supposed to find just my mind and my own visualisations satisfying? when the real thing hits my brain and emotions so much harder? it just doesn't make sense for me.