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I have a vision in my head but the actual steps are lost on me and I really do wanna give my bed a little extra pizzazz y'know? Like it's gotta have that OOMPH factor to it. I wonder where people buy their curtains 😭

The site I've been watching on is down for some reason. I stopped at the 6th episode then took a break because I was trying to mentally prepare myself but now when I'm back the site is 😭💀

So where could I keep watching? Please I need to know what happens to my beloved Kate and Emilico 😭

Greetings o fellow children of light! Today I stand before you to humbly request your kind assistance in completing this quest.

I am at my wits end and thinking of finishing the quests fill me with dread, for I am 2 persons short of the requirement!!!

Technically my sister could join me but even so I lack 1 more person!! Help!! I really want the book case and tent 😭

Seriously. I did an Eden run today and I happened to be with 2 other players.. I swear I was the only one actually lighting up every torch on the way ( final phase). Like I know the entire point of Eden is you die, but I want my ascended candles damnit! And it's important the torches are lit because then you have all these recharge points near the statues, and you effectively save your winged light for them and not for the rocks!!

I lit up as many as I possibly could, but towards the end the red shards were getting more and more aggressive and there weren't too many charging points I could run to so I feel like I lost a lot more light than I should've

I feel like I did the heavy lifting 😭

Not talking about capes, I'm talking about the actual clothes beneath the capes. Should mention I'm f2p

I wanna buy the duet guide's seahorse mask for an outfit I wanna make, but I can't access the friendship tree cuz I was in the middle of the quest 💀

It's the part where you have to play the cello to help the compassionate cellist, but I really really really FUCKING hate Sky's music sheets. Like I get I'm meant to follow the star but for some reason I just can't clear that last quarter of the piece.. with the circles. Reminds me a bit of MaiMai but also MaiMai doesn't piss me off the way sky instruments do. I just can't get past the final part 😭😭😭 and I really do want that damn mask

This also irks my inner completionist. With sky I mainly just care about 100%ing all the quests. Don't really care for the realms

Shit, is there a way to cheat this stage?

I love the band my chemical romance ( if you couldn't already tell from my pfp and bio and everything else)

But it's not just love, it's an actual hyperfixation. And it gets so bad I become nauseous and dizzy and sweaty and breathless. Obviously I'm not going to cut them out of my life because they're such an integral part of me and they helped me discover myself. I do have to frequently take breaks from their material or fan base though, because it gets really bad

And this is nothing new for me, but I think lately it's been getting worse, because I've been getting genuinely so distressed meeting other people who like the band and actually know more of their music beyond just the most popular tracks.. it feels like my identity is being stolen? I know it's a very popular band and they don't belong to me. Mcr is not my property, but it's so special to me.. like, it's my thing, y'know?

I know all the lore, all the songs, the most obscure facts, anything and everything concerning this band. And it gets worse because they're performing here in November this year, and I couldn't even get tickets. And I'm broke, and my parents are crazy about second hand online transactions so getting a reseller ticket is out of the question. Whenever I see someone gushing about going to the show I get so unbelievably upset, like my heart is being ripped apart. And I tell myself I'm over it and don't care, but when I think I'm okay, I suddenly get reminded all over again and it tears me up inside.

I feel like a fake fan? Not worthy enough or not hyperfixated enough. Again I know they're super popular so obviously in a sea of autistic fans with an mcr hyperfixation, there's bound to be someone with knowledge more extensive than my own. Still... I feel so jealous and upset

It should have been me. I should be at their concert. Me. Who knows all their songs, including the ones literally shoved away in nooks and crannies, who knows the most niche facts. Like an Alexandria library of just mcr knowledge. I feel my heart inflating like a balloon when I'm engaging with anything mcr.

I keep thinking that if someone else likes mcr, then nothing defines me anymore. If I'm not "the MCR girl", who am I? ( Yes people have referred to me that way and I love it)

It's been getting so bad that I've been feeling hollow, alongside other reasons, and have done things to myself or had thoughts I'm not happy about

What the fuck is wrong with me oh my Gerard I'm a horrible fucking person

Using the help/ serious tag because I just really need to vent or get help on how to stop feeling so worthless over this thing

I have a keloid on my shoulder from a nasty fall when I was 8. I bruised my knees and arms too, but those scars didn't become keloids

My I'm concerned because I got my cartilage piercings 5 months ago and recently noticed something like a keloid. could be a keloid, but treating it like an infection first and oh my god I'm so worried 😭 I really want tattoos someday 😭

I love piercings and tattoos so much and I really hope I can get tattoos someday, but I've recently noticed a bump near my cartilage piercing.. and I already have a keloid on my shoulder from when I had a nasty injury at 8 years old 😭

I went to the doctor last week and she said to treat it like an infection first. So I took antibiotics for 5 days, and I've been applying an ointment 3 times every day

Then I went to another doctor for a second opinion and he removed my stud and found some dried up puss. I also told him that my bump had decreased in size since last week, but I'm honestly not that confident it's an infection anymore 😭

I'm so sad because now I feel like there's no way I can enjoy any more piercings or tattoos 😭 I just wanted to vent

Y'know that door in the forest caverns? When you help the hair tousle teen? I've never known how to get past that damn door 😭 how do you do it 😭

I'm a broke bitch, but if I won the lottery today you'd probably notice a danger days boxset AND Prom Knight jacket in my room

The danger days watch by Tokyo Flash is also so cool I don't wear watches but I'd get it so fast if I could

Jokes I'm pretty sure in a world of some 8 billion people, there's bound to be people who understand this. Sorry if it's silly or whatever :/

I have an extreme hyperfixation on the rock band My Chemical Romance. I love everything about them, spend ( or, spent) hours reading and doing my own deep dives, I desperately want to see them in concert but unfortunately they sold out so fast I could never get them, and even if someone would buy or sell me them, I don't have the means to pay so there's that!

Anyway that was just some context, the real meat of this post is here: I sometimes get so hyper around my interests, especially mcr, that I end up avoiding them completely. Mcr makes me so excited and breathless and giddy and nauseous with love that I have to be picky with when I interact with their music or the fandom. I'm actually listening to three cheers for sweet revenge, for the first time in a while right as I type this

This is so stupid, but my avoidance makes me feel like such an impostor in the community; like I'm a fake fan 😭

But this band is the whole world to me. Really everything. They were there for me when I needed it the most, and quite literally saved my life. Everyone I've ever met just knows me as "the MCR girl", and DARE I SAY, I'm their biggest fan at least in my country. Like if there were an mcr Olympics or something here, I'd win so quick

But I don't know, I can't even bear to read a short post on them, because it gets me all hyper and makes it harder to breathe, and then I get stuck in this loop of thinking I'm so fake and not actually a fan 😭😭😭

Yea that's about it. In June I decided that I wanted to commit to farming for 6000 candles, and I'm at 801, and so happy about it... But also I've been waiting for the spinning Mentor and now she's coming back but I'm so deep into my CRs and getting richer that I suddenly don't want to spend, BUT I DO WANT TO SPEND!! 😭😭😭 I want that cape but I also don't and I'm serious about hitting my goal so I'm thinking be strategic and only buy capes for outfits I'm sure I'll make and like

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