u/centralvoid__

It's rare that someone takes interest, but when they do, I get along with them at first. They enjoy my presence and talking to me, and after enough time has passed, I convince myself that it’s some kind of friendship. Before long, however, they pick up that there’s something slightly off or different, and suddenly turn cold towards me. I end up spending too much time in my head, only to realize they never really cared about me. It's a combination of me being awkward at times, not the best looks, monotone voice and passive demeanor that most likely turns them away. I also think people size me up, realize that I don't have much social value or clout, and move on to more interesting people.

It's rare that someone takes interest, but when they do, I get along with them at first. They enjoy my presence and talking to me, and after enough time has passed, I convince myself that it’s some kind of friendship. Before long, however, they pick up that there’s something slightly off or different, and suddenly turn cold towards me. I end up spending too much time in my head, only to realize they never really cared about me. It's a combination of me being awkward at times, not the best looks, monotone voice and passive demeanor that most likely turns them away. I also think people size me up, realize that I don't have much social value or clout, and move on to more interesting people.

27 and zero luck so far, no relationship/dating experience or anything romantic. Does it get any easier or better in your 30s? I'm wondering if I should just forget about it for now.

27 and zero luck so far, no relationship/dating experience or anything romantic. Does it get any easier or better in your 30s? I'm wondering if I should just forget about it for now.

edit: It’s Joever…

I don’t quite understand how that all works, like what needs to happen for people to start dating? I’ve gotten to know people in the past, but I don’t even know how to reach that dating stage let alone get into a relationship.

I wonder how I can break out of this lifelong isolation, especially since I’m entering my late 20s. Bad past experiences hold me back, and it’s always a possibility that I will mess up like every time before and make a poor impression due to autism or anxiety. My heart races and my body shakes uncontrollably when I get nervous. Even putting aside the nervousness, I’m too socially awkward.

27 and zero luck so far, no relationship/dating experience or anything romantic. Does it get any easier or better in your 30s? I'm wondering if I should just forget about it for now.

I find myself with nothing to talk about much of the time. I try so hard to think of anything to say, but my mind palace is empty. I wish I were talkative, could make others laugh and knew all the right things to say. At 27, it's not looking like this part of me will change, and it's lead to me being labelled weird, boring, gay (like what?), and creepy my whole life.

Realizing that you’re ugly or below average isn’t a great feeling, but overtime I slowly have come to accept my looks. I used to think I wasn’t bad looking in the past, but too many bad experiences and sour interactions have changed my perspective. It’s time to let go of the possibility of love or friendships ever happening, and fade into the crowd never to be noticed. What difference does it make endlessly ruminating on it, when none of it was ever a possibility to begin with. All I can do is feel happy for those who have people in their lives who appreciate and love them — I hope they never take it for granted.

Realizing that you’re ugly or below average isn’t a great feeling, but overtime I slowly have come to accept my looks. I used to think I wasn’t bad looking in the past, but too many bad experiences and sour interactions have changed my perspective. It’s time to let go of the possibility of love or friendships ever happening, and fade into the crowd never to be noticed.

I’m approaching 27, and looking back I don’t think I’ve had a single long-lasting connection. I never hung out with anyone in school. I tried putting myself out there in my early 20s, but most of those experiences were unfortunately negative overall.

And by zero friends, I mean zero. Totally isolated outside of work. The only messages I have received within the last few years are from my parents, from work, or were automated like from my phone company for example. I don’t know… it’s a strange feeling and it makes me wonder what could’ve been, and how nice it would be to just be normal and share memories with other people. Something so human yet out of reach for me.

I keep getting one-shotted by rogues in battlegrounds.

I rolled a Warlock for the first time after playing a Mage for years. It's honestly so fun leveling this class. I was briefly playing a Priest and couldn't say the same.

I’ve never been on a date before, and I get self-conscious about this since I feel like I missed out on young love or relationships in my teens and early 20s. Everyone I know is either married or in long-term relationships.

I tend to always think of conversational topics and talking points well in advance, especially if it's with someone I like, because otherwise I'm not good at carrying a conversation in the moment and default to just being quiet. There's been so many moments in my life where I don't have anything to say and it turns awkward, and people regard me as boring. Funnily enough, conversations rarely play out the way they do inside my head.