u/crazyst1ng

I play bass drum in my schools marching band (going into my 4th year on it) and I am heavily considering doing DCI/WGI in the future. I am battery section leader at my school but I’ve never felt like I was that amazing of a player, just the best out of all of us (along with other reasons I was chosen to be a leader). Because of this, I hadn’t considered band after graduation, but I’m realizing that I would really love to do it.

I’m trying to grind and workout some of my flaws (ex. reading time signatures, conditioning) and something that is really holding me back is hand speed, especially in my left. I think naturally my left hand is much weaker since I am right handed and we most commonly play important notes on our right hands, but it’s holding me back!

What are some good exercises or ways to fix this??

I play bass drum in my schools marching band (going into my 4th year on it) and I am heavily considering doing DCI/WGI in the future. I am battery section leader at my school but I’ve never felt like I was that amazing of a player, just the best out of all of us (along with other reasons I was chosen to be a leader). Because of this, I hadn’t considered band after graduation, but I’m realizing that I would really love to do it.

I’m trying to grind and workout some of my flaws (ex. reading time signatures, conditioning) and something that is really holding me back is hand speed, especially in my left. I think naturally my left hand is much weaker since I am right handed and we most commonly play important notes on our right hands, but it’s holding me back!

What are some good exercises or ways to fix this??

I have a friend who I got close to about a year ago, she’s a lesbian and I’m bisexual and when we met I was in a relationship with a guy.

Once we broke up, I started realizing how funny, kind, and beautiful she was. I started to have a bit of a crush on her but knew deep down she wouldn’t like me (she had already told me she liked one of our mutual friends at the time) so I “moved on” and started to like a guy I was getting closer to as well. Even when I said I had a crush on him, every moment I was with her just felt so different and special, and I couldn’t help seeing her beauty.

One of our mutual friends knew I liked her and told her about my crush to help me but she only told him that she had never seen me in that way, but if I approached her she would try to consider it and see where it leads. I knew more than anyone that that means there was no guarantee that things would turn out even if I did really go for her and I was scared to pursue anyone because I’m very shy.

Before I could do anything, I was approached by a guy who I then dated for a few months, but we broke things off about a month ago and again it’s like every time I see her my feelings come flooding back to me. She’s my friend so she’ll message me pretty often and I just can’t help but think about how much I love talking to her and being around her.

But I know she’d never like me back.. how do I get over someone so perfect who I can’t just cut out from my life??

during the movie
all i could think about was you.

your smile,
your hair,
the way you make me laugh,
the things that get you talking,
what you think about,
what you spend your time on,
the people you hangout with,
the things i don’t know i’ll get to experience

like the way your hand feels on mine,
the way it feels when you hug me after a long day,
the way you calm me down when i’m stressed,
the things you would tell me that seem mundane to you, but not to me,
how it would feel to know you inside out,
to be the one person who gets to see you through and through,
to be someone who keeps you going, even when you don’t think you want to.

these feelings drown in the sounds of action
of fighting
of reconnection
of the love story that i wish would be like ours.

they go down, and down, and down,
until i can’t recognize them,
and they come back up in the form of sadness
because i don’t know i’ll ever have you
not in the way i think i can’t help but want
and i don’t think you’ll have the courage to unscramble me
since you don’t even have enough to solve it for yourself.

I’ve never really been much of a dreamer but recently my sleep issues have been making me dream much more often, sometimes even a few times a night. I’m curious how I should interpret them, since that’s never been something I’ve gotten into before. How would I start doing that? Are there any tips or resources to learn how?

Looking for everyone’s favorites since I’m trying to get into more casually listening to video game music. Are there any that are too good to not listen to at some point?

I’m looking for stuff with a similar vibe to hollow knight and those type of platformers. Kind of like Thomas Was Alone but on IOS, since that’s not available on the app store anymore. Any suggestions?

there are parts of you that i’ll never really see,
the parts that go deeper than i’ve dared to reach,
the things you don’t want me to know.

i wish i could get closer,
to look into your soul,
to feel your skin against mine,
to understand what you may be thinking.

i regret to admit that i know nothing,
and i wish i had stayed stupid,
because, even in all this time,
i’ve never thought to take a second look
until the day you left me.

this fact will tear me apart
until the time i find you again.

(IM BAD AT WRITING POETRY PLEASE FORGIVE ME.. this is just emotional vomit)

I’m a big fan of Ethel Cain and Hayden’s albums, but I’ve had some trouble finding other music with a similar vibe/sound. Anyone know any good artists like that? I already listen to Noah Kahan and Lizzy McAlpine but I feel like even their sounds aren’t that close.

Don’t give very popular anime’s or ones that most people have watched (ex. Hunter x Hunter, Deathnote, One Piece, AOT, etc) please give more underrated ones!

- no more than moderate gore
- as little fanservice as possible please!

Currently struggling to make out my own feelings, please give stories about your own experiences!

Currently struggling to make out my own feelings, please give stories about your own experiences!

I always find myself being bored when I don’t have constant responsibilities, so what are some easy and fun things to break boredom?

I’m a very awkward and shy person myself but, for some reason, I often have problems with getting close to other more reserved people as I get nervous that they just don’t like me specifically. This has led me to have some problems with making new friends and more recently, with trying to help my friend feel comfortable enough to express his feelings for me (he is very shy himself).
How do more outgoing people make these sorts of people comfortable or help them open up? And how do people combat the feelings of self-doubt revolving around those interactions?

Ever since I was 10 I’ve had trouble sleeping, but after that escalation, it quickly died down for me and I was able to sleep close to normally (being falling asleep around 11-12 every night).
Recently though, I’ve been having major trouble falling asleep and usually can only manage it around 3:30-4 AM, even causing me to stay up until 5 or 6 some nights. Even when I do fall asleep, I usually wake up a couple times every night before I actually get up the next day. To add on to that, I’ve been waking up around 3 PM every day and I already know it’s going to be a nightmare to get back on a normal schedule.
I used to take melatonin before I slept when I was younger, but since I haven’t needed it. Any tips on how to sleep better or reasons why this might be happening? Please help!

Ever since I was 10 I’ve had trouble sleeping, but after that escalation, it quickly died down for me and I was able to sleep close to normally (being falling asleep around 11-12 every night).
Recently though, I’ve been having major trouble falling asleep and usually can only manage it around 3:30-4 AM, even causing me to stay up until 5 or 6 some nights. Even when I do fall asleep, I usually wake up a couple times every night before I actually get up the next day. To add on to that, I’ve been waking up around 3 PM every day and I already know it’s going to be a nightmare to get back on a normal schedule.
I used to take melatonin before I slept when I was younger, but since I haven’t needed it. Any tips on how to sleep better or reasons why this might be happening? Please help!

I’ve never had a pc before, but recently I was given one from my stepdad because I was starting to use his work pc too much. I’ve always been a gamer but usually I played more cozy games than anything else so I’m curious what can help me build skills on my new pc. What are some good/beginner friendly games that I could try out?

I’ve been single for a while but I’ve recently cut off things with a situationship of sorts. Although we didn’t date, my schedule was pretty much formed with his and it felt almost like we were dating even though we technically were not. We both decided it would be best for us to be friends instead so that we could focus on ourselves and grow as people since the “relationship” was causing more stress than comfort.

Even though this was my decision, I can’t help but wonder—what comes next for me? What do I do to stop feeling alone and like there isn’t anything out there for me?

Is anyone going through something similar or have any advice?

I have a good friend I’ve known for about 3-4 years who a lot of people have told me they believed he was interested in me, but I feel like he avoids contact with me if we aren’t together in person.
Whenever I text him trying to talk he either won’t respond or will barely respond, even if it’s about a shared interest or something he told me to keep him updated on.
I know for a fact that he has never dated anyone and I have been interested in/dated multiple people since I’ve become friends with him most of which he was fully aware of. He’s a pretty awkward guy so he might just not be much of a texter, but it’s kind of confusing me because he always tries to be close to me in person and has even gone so far to ask me to go to the same college as him (which he hasn’t mentioned to any of our other friends or even his own).
Are his actions a sign that he’s not interested, or is it perfectly normal in our context?

I have a good friend I’ve known for about 3-4 years who a lot of people have told me they believed he was interested in me, but I feel like he avoids contact with me if we aren’t together in person.
Whenever I text him trying to talk he either won’t respond or will barely respond, even if it’s about a shared interest or something he told me to keep him updated on.
I know for a fact that he has never dated anyone and I have been interested in/dated multiple people since I’ve become friends with him most of which he was fully aware of. He’s a pretty awkward guy so he might just not be much of a texter, but it’s kind of confusing me because he always tries to be close to me in person and has even gone so far to ask me to go to the same college as him (which he hasn’t mentioned to any of our other friends or even his own).
Are his actions a sign that he’s not interested, or is it perfectly normal in our context?