u/infundibulum42

In my group project, I find myself in a strange paradox. I'm literally dealing with a herd of idiots. On the one hand, I'm incredibly uncomfortable shouldering the academic weight of the project alone and the inadequacy of the people on my team; on the other hand, I strangely enjoy using this inadequacy as a playground for my ego by manipulating and belittling them.

The current situation is exactly this: I've completely monopolized communication with the professor. The professor only interacts with me, and everyone else in the group is just a supporting character. I'm also subtly bullying and manipulating my teammates. I mentally corner them to do things the way I want, even insulting them, but I do it logically, consistently, and coldly, so they don't even understand what's happening to them, they really don't. Even when I belittle their capabilities, I present it as "system optimization," so no one reacts. I feel both a victim of this series of idiocies and experiencing the narcissistic satisfaction of being the only one in control. My ego is fueled by the feeling that I am completely in control and responsible, that my intelligence holds absolute dominance over others.

Why am I like this? Are there others among you who struggle with (and enjoy) a similar superiority complex?

İibf'li arkadaşlar, okulunuzda iktisat dersi için hangi textbook okutuluyor? Mümkünse Türkçe kaynak önerir misiniz? Teşekkürler.

I’ve always kept my distance from language learning because my brain finds linguistic rules completely arbitrary and illogical. Why follow a system that feels so inconsistent?

This mindset just cost me a hospital internship abroad for the second time. What’s worse, and I’m being honest here, is seeing people I consider objectively less intelligent pass these exams while I fail. The jealousy is real and cruel.

I’m incredibly frustrated. Knowing I have the potential for complex scientific work but being held back by a language barrier feels like wasting my life. It’s a mix of anger, envy, and the sharp pain of seeing my potential go down the drain over something that feels so trivial yet remains impossible to master.

Anyone else feel like their INTP brain is actively sabotaging their career because it refuses to engage with non-logical systems? And what should I do?

İnsanların kolektif histerilerine dahil olmayı reddettiğim için hakaret işitiyorum. Kendi önceliklerimi toplumun "duyarlılık" beklentisinin önüne koymam neden insanları bu kadar tetikliyor? Vaktim, zihnim neden başkalarının kaosuyla dolmak zorunda olsun ki? Mikro dünyamın huzurunu niçin değiştiremeyeceğim makro olayların gürültüsüne tercih edeyim?