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I know this is a pretty low age for this sub, but I really need advice, its not major but still.

So as a regular teenager, I have my own crush, and while my crush is a very complicated story that I would rather not share right now, I still need help.

So there's this girl in my school (14F might be 13 I'm not sure), who I think likes me, now before you start readin this, I'm just gonna give you some details.

Me: unattractive (in my opinion), socially awkward but good talker(with people im comfortable around), very tall (6'2/186 cm) and if that changes anything, I have au(high functioning).

Her: very attractive (according to classmates of mine and myself), seems really easy to talk to, has a great vibe, pretty tall (5'6/170).

Now thing is, I've always seen her as this really cool person I'd like to be friends with, but I always thought I blew that chance when last year, we got to talk a lot the first 2 months (my 1st year in that scholl), but because of my awful social skills, she seemed like she kinda gave up on that idea because she was always the one to start the conversations.

But when this year started I noticed that we have almost every class together, for context: we are in a democratic school, which means we get to choose what to learn.

So I would always catch her looking at me and when she would notice that I saw her, she would instantly move her head to the opposite direction, and when we would sit close next to each other, she would always glance over at me without noticing that I noticed her.

Another thing is that around 3 weeks ago when the school year ended, we were given these notebook-like things so you would go around and people will write in yours about their experience with you that year, so she approached me and specifically asked to write in mine, she wrote some pretty generic stuff like "gope you have a great summer" and specified that she hopes to get to know me better during break.

Now the only way i could meet her is through my best friends, because she and her best friends are really close to him, so i really hope that happens.

Also I would always catch her feiend looking at me in a very judging way, which is kinda not like her from what ive seen.

The most complicated thing for me except for getting to know if she actually likes me, is the fact that when you convice yourself someone has feelings for you, you start seeing them in a much different light, so I would like to assume I dont like her, but I like to keep that option on the table since I dont know her well enough.

Ok so Im very sorry if my grammar is poor because english isnt my first language and also its 3:40 am for me at the moment and i cant fall asleep, so i decided to post this.

Theres probably been some parts i forgot and left out so feel free to ask any questions and i will answer asic.

But please, if anyone has experience with this, please let me know, ive been really confused about this for a good couple of months now.

So now before yall kill me, i have high functioning autism myself so im not tryna hate on him or something.

To me it would make sense, i kinda caught it when i was watching his interview with bencar, obviously theres the amount of filler words that he uses, how awkward he is on camera, how he behaves around his friends and you can kinda catch him making an expression of disappointment after saying something/doing something stupid, and i can confirm.

Something that is quite amazing is that ive seen so many people say that the smartest/kindest people they know are autistic, and opposite.

You can just tell that popoff fits one of these categories, hes just such a chill person and he still seems kinda on high alert.

So idk if its just me but i think he is, im being serious rn no offense to popoff this post is actually a bit of a compliment (if you wanna know why ill reply to ur comment or smth), so no im not trying to be offensive, just a conspiracy of mine.

I started learning like two months ago, 30 minutes lesson per week.

According to my teacher, i progress in an above average speed, just kinda feel like teachers say that to every student.

Its been really fun and i wanns get more into it, i dont have a way of practicing tho, but does anyone have any tips?

So like i just joined this sub and i dont know if this is allowed nor if this is even the right sub for this type of post, but im cureently 13 (turning 14 mext week), and as a regular teenager, i have my own crush obviously, but ive been noticing that this one girl in my class has been giving me the most confusing hints.

So more details, the thing thats confusing me is just, why me?

Like i am considered not attractive by any means (for me atleast), and the opposite goes for her, but the thing is, im just too bad at reading hints, so let me just tell you what happend and tell me what you think.

So theres the usuals, i randomly catch her looking at me in class, when were like both in the same room (usually before class), she just kinda seems on high alert even when im chilling with my headphones on.

There were a couple times when she would go out of her way to talk to me but theres this thing, im one of the worst people when it comes to being comfortable around someone you dont know (to clarify, im high functioning), so every time she would talk to me i would kind of just make small talk and stop because i wouldnt be able to thing of any topics.

And one last thing, on the last day of school we all had these thing when you get this notebook type thing and would just write to eachother about what we think of them and our experiences throughout the year and all of that.

Well she specifically approached me and asked to write something in mine, essentialy what she said was, she hopes i have a great summer and that we get to know each other better of be friends, plus she added two hearts next to her name of thats useful.

Luckily im very close friends with my crush and i talked to her about it and she said she thinks theres a 80% chance she likes me (exact sentence by the way).

Ive come to realize that when you kind of convince yourself that someone has feelings for you, you stary seeing them in a different light, but ill get to that after im certain.

This might seem insanely cringy but please like dont make fun of me and stuff because im only 13 and focusing on this stuff, also sorry i didnt add capitals and that my grammar is bad, im not an english native and its also 3:37 AM for me.

In my life Ive watched 4 animes, they were all amazing and one of them is still going, but now i realized, theyre all so good its too hard for me to rank all of them, and because im a romance person, some great animes get piushed down, so i need some bad ones to watch.

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My top 4 currently:

1. Re:Zero (by far), my second anime

2. Blue Box, my my third anime

3. TFFBWD, my forth anime

4. Death note, my first anime

Edit: yall can stop sending recommendations my phone is about to explode so ill delete this post in a bit

I reckon Mugman's "i know my brother, and if hes not down here, then he's not dead" belongs in the top 25 quotes in fiction.

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Not only did was that delivered so well with such perfect timing, it was delivered by a kid with a mug as a head playing with some marbles, in the devil's face, quick reminder the show is rated 7+, and even if you like it theres way more hidden meanings behind that.

This probably not the best community to post this in but lately ive been getting such terrible ping, for example, i play on EU servers and my regular ping is 60 - 80.

The past couple of days my ping has been stuck on 180 which is usually what i eould get if i play on NA servers.

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The only reason i can really think is that lately ive been connecting my monitor to my ps5 to play rocket keagur, my tv isnt working atm and my regular controller is currently paralyzed (stick drift), i dont know how that would make any sense but still do you have any ideas

Favorite genre: Romance (mostly teen romance ig)

Animes Ive watched:

Re:Zero, Death Note, Blue Box

My top 5 favorite shows atm:

1. Re:Zero

2. Blue Box

3. The Owl House

4. Death Note

5. Di4ri (no typo ik it looks like it)

Before you read anything, please take into consideration that I have quite a weak heart, thank you.

So I started watching re zero around 3 days ago, at first I kind of liked it, seemed like a weird isekai combined with a romance, but then came yesterday, I was at around episode 6 when I just got so addicted to watching the show, I started feeling connected to certain character as well, but then at night, when I was watching in bed way after my curfew like any ordinary person, I "tackled" episode 15,16.

I still have no clue how I did not stop in the middle of any of these episodes and start crying, I am not exaggerating when I say that was one of the most terrifying, heart-breaking, yet somehow amazing piece of media I have ever watched, let alone an anime.

This next paragraph is not relevant to the main idea of this post.

Just for context: I have only watched a singular anime in my life, which is Death Note, now I am not going to go into detail about my experience watching, but lets just say it was quite heart breaking, not enough to cry, but enough to learn one of the most valueable leassons of my life, and that is the reason I can confidently said I love anime now, certainly.

As of the time I am typing this, it is exactly 10 pm and I just finished watching episode, I am pretty sure is 23.

To be clear to which episode I am currently referring to, I am referring to the "please kill me julius" episode, and after finishing, it got me wondering something.

As of currently, according to most fans of re zero, episodes 15,16 and 18 are the darkest in the series, which would mean that I have crossed the hill, but now after watching that episode, which I think had one of the saddest scenes Ive watched, watching re zero just feels kind of, shaky?

If you arent familiar with the feeling I am referencing, its fine, its quite hard to explain but I will try my best to.

So now I feel like watching it is shaky because like evrything could happen at sny second, one momrnt, Subaru was about to go ober and talk ti emilia, the second one he is running off asking julius to kill him, yes I am aware that he was controlled, hope its a good enough explanation.

Thing is, I dont want to stop watching it, as you have probably understood already as I already made it clear that I've watched 23 episodes in the spam of barely 72 hours, isekai is already not my favorite genre, I am not the type of person to be amazed by blood and death, I am quite the soft type.

Do you have any tips whether I should co tinue watching, because if I know myself well, I will continue regardless just because I have been loving the experience so far and I just couldnt stop myself sometimes.

Edit: As I predicted, I couldn't stop myself and as of typing this, I just finished season 1, and as a person whose favorite genre is teen romance, this is the perfect ending for this season, or at least for me, absolitely beautiful in my opinion, it cannot be described by words.