u/zorostrength

my confidence has been down a lot cause my frnds and family all make fun of me whenever i stutter or have a lisp and I'm tired of it.

21M i need someone to talk to who won't judge the way i speak and js converse with me.

I'm trying to learn Spanish too so if ur into it, das a plus.

i never talked to anyone about my feelings or ever felt like being vulnerable to anyone. My mom and dad divorced when we were kids and i lived with my mom.

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My mom hates men tho and her son was no exception, she used to pamper my sister all she could while i was treated like a dumb slave, she kept telling me everyday how men are inferior to women and should respect them and after hearing all this for years i started to believe her.

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She never let me have any frnds and used to randomly snatch my phone to see if i was texting anyone and used to tell kids at my school how i peed the bed even if i didn't.

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in ptms she used to cry and beg my teachers to beat me and that she did all she could even tho she never once asked me anything about my studies and only used ptms as a excuse to beat us.

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i eventually got out of that stupid home when i ran away and lived with my uncles for a while, but she came there too and demanded legal action against my uncles because she's the mother and knows what's best for me. Being in India everyone belived her and i was sent back with her.

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Back home she used to beat me to a pulp and regularly tried to get me to kill myself saying she don't want to dirty her hands with my blood and wished i was never born.

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anyone i went to for help js told me it's ok and moms js do this and it's a part of growing up. and i was scared they would tell my mom and i would get beaten up again.

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i regret not killing myself in childhood and now that I'm a grown adult i feel worthless all the time and have a hard time connecting with anyone cause most my life i js lived in a open cage of hate that everyone ignored.

Hey I'm 21M currently in Gujrat for studies, looking to make frnds online who are interested in Offroading, Martial Arts, Gym, Anime, Books or chess.

Anyone with interests is welcome to dm.