u/AnUnknownCreature

I am losing hope about ever being able to be on hormones or afford surgery. I am from the lower middle class, homeless with many imparting mental disorders and learning disabilities. The most I have ever had in savings when I worked a high paying job was $3000 after working the job 3 months. Unfortunately keeping a job is extremely difficult and there is no affordable insurance at the moment, but fortunately a partner with a car currently living the same conditions just without being trans. Most days in order for me to cope I try to as AFAB transmasc Androgyne, tap into my feminine side even though I am definitely more masc. I don't know how much time left I have in this world, but for those that believe in next lifetimes, perhaps ill have luck in the next lifetime to reach my goals ❤️

I don't know if anybody else has experienced this but I understand certain "roles" can shift to other alters. Is having 2 or 3 protectors common? One of us disclosed information on what sounds like a new and very upset introject persecutor , I consider the act of sharing this info a form of protections, persecutor introjects are often aggressive and flashy in people's systems, on the defense as a form of extreme protector, and then there are those who are caretakers and actively stand at the ready of defense inside the system.

Can't anybody at anytime be a protector if they are more conscious as an alter?

(Cousin Kit match 1)

Kit A : shared 11.5 , Largest 11.5, Gen 5.1

Kit B shared 19.2, Largest 19.2, Gen 4.8,

Gen Differences 0.4

(Cousin Kit match 2)

Kit A: Shared 11.4, Largest 11.4 Gen 5.1 , Gen Differences 0.4

Kit B: Shared 17.3, Gen 17.3, Gen 4.8

Gen Differences 0.3

I remember being able to go in and edit language traits so there would be a fully customizable phonetic base and syntax for worlds. Has this feature been removed? If not where can I access it?

To me,I have this anxiousness, I have a sudden feeling like there is something working in the background. I become spacy. I have gotten to know this feeling more consciously because not long after I begin to feel not so alone, and start to somewhat get a grasp about an alters presence through sudden changes I thoughts, preferences, purpose and even image of appearance. I have a moment of dread and a frustrated stance on not knowing who I am. I thought for a long time it was just some form of BPD but the switches and some amnesia exist, I think recently I am becoming more terrified of my own condition despite the work I have done to get to understand it. Sometimes I wonder if I was less anxious when I was ignorant. I am tired of creating more alters, especially since I am the host and trauma holder

Is this because the white-gold tower and cyrodiil was taken from the elves?

Would love to know more music. (I am aware of the vampire movie Gackt featured ln)

I'm becoming more aware of how awkward I probably seem looking like I'm thinking of what my name is or looking like I forgot what my name is lately. I had my usual public outing today, now I am a trans person who is trying to help my internal parts agree to a shared name, so we go back and forth between a couple names, but every damn time somebody asks I pause and am so obviously thinking about it. I must look silly to people. I'm a little embarrassed but we are intimidated about using one of our choices. Of course with a bit of time or amnesia I'm sure we will forget which name we used at the time with certain people 😖