u/AnUnknownCreature

I'm becoming more aware of how awkward I probably seem looking like I'm thinking of what my name is or looking like I forgot what my name is lately. I had my usual public outing today, now I am a trans person who is trying to help my internal parts agree to a shared name, so we go back and forth between a couple names, but every damn time somebody asks I pause and am so obviously thinking about it. I must look silly to people. I'm a little embarrassed but we are intimidated about using one of our choices. Of course with a bit of time or amnesia I'm sure we will forget which name we used at the time with certain people 😖

I am an avid reader particularly books written about music genre histories and musician biographies/autobiographies. Can anybody suggest what some of the best books may be walking through the beginnings of Goth up into the present? Articles are also welcome 😁

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Unfortunately, even though I moved from a heavily conservative area to an area/state that is more accepting blue, I still can't apply for jobs without just using my birthname. Even if there is a place to enter "preferred name", I avoid it because unless a business is heavily queer ran (something I don't exactly seek out) I figure my transness brought up at all weighs negatively on the minds of those hiring. I have previously had prejudice in workplaces due to being trans. Post 30 yrs old and being out since a teenager, this is getting exhausting but I feel like pretending to be Cisgender gets me hired faster, I am also a person of color and have been judged and rejected based on this (indirectly)

I almost know the "lyrics" by heart and blare it in the car. My partner is heavily amused. I miss it coming on and making my sim dance to it he would have so much fun lmao

Just knowing the causes really challenges any hope for humanity I have.

So I am super interested in creating Mando Suits, im a long way from having the right time and place for that, but I can't wait to legitimately force weather pieces down. I think another expression of making this art is what damage you can do to your kit to make your character story really pop, but it's kinda fun thinking about dragging pieces over rocks and grass or something sharp, maybe simulating holes or chips via nail gun, hammer, idk I love the idea of a cracked visor and real grease or dust stains even sealed into the final coat.