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Someone on a dating app said “wonder what your dad thinks about you” this rubbed me wrong and he chose to match w me to say this so what’s the best comeback? I want it to hurt his lil ego

Dear someone who I thought loved me,
I wanted an innocent gentle love. I wanted to be protected. I wanted to feel safe. You did not make me safe. You pinky promised me you would keep me safe. You did the exact opposite.
Did you really mean what you said?
Do you actually want to k*ll me?
Do you actually wish I would rot in my grave
Do you actually wish I was dead?
Do you actually hope the worst will happen to me?
Guess I will never know. It’s funny because I used to not care about my life and now I do. I’m constantly awake at night due to nightmares from what you’ve said to me. The 500+ calls on the night you wanted to hurt me. You wanted to hurt me because you were jealous and I wasn’t responding fast enough. Was this abuse or am I overreacting, this thought crosses my mind daily. Abuse and control creeps up slowly and before you know it. Why the sudden switch? There’s no way you actually truly loved me. Your words hurt me. Your hands hurt me. You recording me in vulnerable moments hurt me. It’s like a scar that will always be there. You will always be there and I don’t want you to. I don’t want to see your face ever again. I wish I got justice because coming forward with this made me feel ashamed. I just wanted to have a gentle innocent love. You ruined that for me. You pressured me into intercourse and now I will never enjoy it again. I am so disgusted and ashamed I stayed with you, you make me feel disgusting. You make me feel like I was worth nothing. You knew you were taking advantage of me. You knew you were slowly taking control of my life and I am so stupid to let that happen. I was somewhat aware but you made it feel normal. This is all I know. I didn’t realize how much your words hurt me until months later I guess I am still processing it. I am so disgusted. I don’t want to talk to anyone about it because I am so ashamed I let it go on. Why did you hurt me I didn’t deserve it now I am left with trauma and you got away with it.
You may not get caught for everything you did to me, but you will pay for everything you have done to me whether it’s lonely nights crying or the universe punishing you since the cops won’t. The detective told me you seemed upset after a break up. WE WERE DATING WHEN I GOT THOSE THREATS FROM YOU. WE WERE TOGETHER, that was not you being upset. That was your true colors coming out. The legal system has failed me, the school has failed me, the lawyer has failed me and if you one day decide it’s my time, just know I tried my best to protect myself although it’s just a piece of paper. I am so paranoid now. I don’t miss you. You hurt me you lied to me.

I am 22f and I feel like my memory is declining. I keep forgetting how to spell easy words, forget what they mean, and forget how to pronounce them.
I forgot how to pronounce “initially” and it is just embarrassing because I sound dumb.
I was talking with my mom, and she used the word “sensible” I was like what do you mean, what does that mean?
Why is this happening?? I haven’t drank alcohol in a month, I am prescribed medication but it seems like this is a new thing and I’ve been on medication for a long time.
I forget small things and misplace stuff. For example if I cough, 10 mins later I don’t remember doing that.
Is this something that I should be worried about?

I am 22f and I feel like my memory is declining. I keep forgetting how to spell easy words, forget what they mean, and forget how to pronounce them.
I forgot how to pronounce “initially” and it is just embarrassing because I sound dumb.
I was talking with my mom, and she used the word “sensible” I was like what do you mean, what does that mean?
Why is this happening?? I haven’t drank alcohol in a month, I am prescribed medication but it seems like this is a new thing and I’ve been on medication for a long time.
I forget small things and misplace stuff. For example if I cough, 10 mins later I don’t remember doing that.
Is this something that I should be worried about?
When looking at this long term, I don’t remember my child hood and I don’t even remember what buildings my highschool had or where they are. I graduated in 2022.

Every single day, multiple times a day I think about death. Not that I want to hurt myself, but that I’m scared to die. Not only am I scared to die, I’m scared of my loved ones dying and I do everything possible to make sure they don’t. I try to spend as much time with them possible just in incase they die. I spend time thinking about what my family would think if I died and how I am gonna say my last words to them if it ever happened, I would feel so bad and so sad they lost me. Idk. I might sound crazy but this is talking a huge toll on my life and I go out of my way to make sure every step I take ( and my loved ones) doesn’t lead to harm. I don’t really even want to leave the house and I don’t want them to either. I’ve tried propanolol, buspar, hydroxizine and I don’t think that helps with my anxiety at all. Would this be considered anxiety? I’m wasting my life but I can’t stop thinking about it and I just hope nothing happens to me or them and I think about it over and over even though I know there’s nothing I can ever do to change the future. I feel so tired of thinking like this, I’m also in therapy and it seems to be no help. I’m currently on pristiq, lamictal, and buspar (just for reference). Does anyone else feel this way? Why am I trying so hard to make it known that I care about my people incase they die? I just want it to stop I cry almost every night ☹️I can’t imagine a life without them and I don’t want my family to ever lose me either. (We are all perfectly healthy)

Hi guys,
I just got out of an abusive relationship and I feel I have wasted all of my years at sdsu. I am going back for my senior year this fall so I was wondering what I could do to make it fun and worth it? I’ve never been to the games, I didn’t join a sorority (too late for that now), and I didn’t join any clubs. What can I do? Does anyone have any club recommendations or ways to meet other seniors that actually want to hangout and study at school get coffee etc? I want to make the best of it, but not being in a sorority makes it hard and gives me fomo lol.

I’ve been dealing with the burning feeling of a uti(could even be yeast) for several years now. I get probably 6 UTIs a year maybe more. It’s an ongoing thing and no doctor has told me what to do about it. I have been tested and treated for mycoplasma and ureplasma so I know it’s not that.
I got a test for everything it could possibly be. Everything was negative and I still have the burning uncomfortable feeling along with leaking urine and feeling like I need to pee but it doesn’t all come out. I am 22f and I’m so tired of feeling like this and I don’t know what to do. It comes and goes. Also my urologist told me it could be from my birth control, and I don’t have IC.
On the Fourth of July I drank alcohol and it seems like now I have a 10x worse uti then before I drank, but it was bearable. Now it’s not. I don’t even want to go to the doctor because I know everything will come back negative.
Is someone in healthcare failing me? I don’t know what to do this takes a toll on every aspect in my life.