Had a UTI in end of 2024, beginning of 2025, and right now as I'm writing this. I'm only scared that my body might grow used to the antibiotics. I know the main cause of my UTIs which is that I hold my pee in far too long and clench my lower abdomen 24h even when I should pee/ relax (don't be like me guys) but yh, just wondering if I should be concerned or not (will see doctor later today)
I have been stuck with my art for a while. It's always having a huge surge of inspo, drawing and never being satisfied with the results truly, and then having an art block. I want to tap into my creativity and art skills more, I feel I could benefit from any spirit etc in that domain to help me out here 😢
Just asked and let the cards come on their own - no real spread
My interpretation:
Knight of pentacles: He's focusing on his responsibilities and not anything else at this point - he's also in the US military and I'm pretty sure went back to the US base after travelling for the job in EU. He might need to do a different role there and trying to get it to finish asap ( said he would need to stay til summer)
The world : His determination and good job is rewarding him in a way - again focused on what he is doing now than anything that might involve any romance. Focused on the fruits of his labor and thinking of what to do next.
The hierophant reversed : Changing his ways and finding hardship in trying to do what is best for him moving forward - conflict with someone of authority. Perhaps he's facing judgement and issues with wanting to go away from that environment ? (Is fighting against the current political climate/ told me he hates the current on (who doesn't))
King of swords reversed : Either it was just a fleeting thing he saw between us and our talking stage / he's caught up in the results of his new reality and cannot break free from this ?
We basically talked a few weeks and things were going well, even planned a few dates. He soon started to text less, then nothing even after reaching out. I saw after that he had moved back to the USA after being in Italy for a while, and since Feb we haven't talked. He still however uses Insta daily, and no answer or explaining given to me. I don't mind blocking him - i just need closure.
Gonna start with background first so y'all get the context
BACKGROUND : I was unfortunately born in a religious family. Both parents converted to islam when they reached 19, first my dad, then my mom (who's 4 years younger than him). Obviously enough they raised me and siblings into the religion I hated every second of it and never actually believed in it, but followed my parents wishes for their approval. At 13 I was too fed up and stopped pretending. I'm 20 now and still felt it was the best decision for myself, though I still live with my dad/ sister who are still religious.
I've also always been more attracted to occultism and "darker" kind of witchcraft practices. Mostly since I was a kid, but more so when I was 15 and started to look into it. Though some things made me have to soften up and fawn, and it even affected my own perception on magick. I feel I've forced myself the whole "peace and love" kind of mindset, but I don't want to pretend anymore.
NOW : I'm someone who have been worshipping or trying to keep in practicing my worship with Hekate. I've been getting more insight on people worship or working with demons though and was curious on one thing : do demons avoid working with people living with religious people ? Aka, would any demon not work with me since I live in a Muslim household ? I still have a lot of religious trauma, but I don't want to start something that could make it worse or could not be good right now. I've also looked into subs about demons, and was wondering if any demon will come forward to you, or if you had to seek the exact demon you wish to work with.
Sorry for the long text !
TLDR : Is it safe to work with demons when living in a religious household ?
My father is too abusive and I need him to get his karma.
I need a spell that will make him bite his fingers and crawl in the mud. I thought of a sour jar spell, putting him and all his toxic spying friends, but I also want him to experience something traumatic that'll make him too scared to act the way he always did. I don't care about anything too wild. The only thing I'll say is that he's the main provider of the house financially, paying for bills and groceries, so physically ill need him to be somewhat ok. Mentally and emotionally idc.
Tarot spread is "calling myself out" on what I'm doing wrong and how I can get myself out of this situation
1.**What have I been doing wrong ? :Knight of wands** : volatile, too distracted and everywhere to focus on anything really and short lived bursts of energy that aren't leading to anywhere long term - too distracted
2.**In what area of my life do I need to improve ? King of pentacles** : being grounded, more down to earth and choose one thing to work on for long term goals to be successful, needing to take a step back and re-evaluate to have any results
3.**How can I work to improve this ? 10 of cups** : find harmony in friends and family, stability in my home and environment to help me move forward and achieve what I want
4.**How am I holding myself back ? The lovers** : I'm still figuring myself out and am too lost to be able to know where to go, what to focus on, what path I should take
That's my take, but please Id love to know others take on that