u/GuitarZealousideal71

If you have, please share your experience. I want to know what the process was like, what was the difficulty level and how you found it to be.

I (25F) was reading a comment section on instagram where a few of my schoolmates were telling about their achievements. I then realised I’m one of the biggest failures my batch has produced.
Everyone in my batch, even the weird students and the ones people used to say wouldn’t do much are doing much better than me. Most have joined the army. Some of them are working in tech fields. Lots of them are studying abroad. Some of them did MBA and got jobs.

Meanwhile there is me. I was always a good student. Very studious. Went to Delhi university. Came first in my department. Did masters from Delhi university. Did well there also.

But then, I could not do much. I could just clear NET JRF. That is it. Still haven’t joined PhD and don’t even have a job. Prepared for upsc and failed big time. Family taunts me, society taunts me and most people also see me like a failure.

I’m scared of the future and because I’m raw dogging ADHD, I have difficulty studying, keeping focus and I can’t do much. I can’t be the kind who can do well in every sector of her life. I’m barely able to do well in one sector only. Adhd has ruined my life in ways I cannot explain.
I used to be very ambitious but then I could never do many things, like my peers did. Maybe that left me behind in life.

The only thing I can think of doing now is giving exams for becoming an assistant professor in my state and to do a PhD.

Could this be because of low ferritin?. When I got my ferritin tested a few months earlier, it came out to be 6 but this shortness of breath thing Im experiencing for the first time. It started 1 month back

I live in a small town and I am new here so I don’t know how to find a good psychiatrist here. I have been diagnosed by a psychologist and I did even go to a psychiatrist but he completely disregarded my issues and experiences.
Now I live in a small town and I want to get medication and hence want to see a psychiatrist

I used to be able to manifest anything a few years ago but now I’m unable to manifest even simple things like buying a top I love 😭
I don’t know what is wrong. Please guide me on how I can manifest things again

I’m trying to open my account on their admission portal but I’m unable to. I think server has crashed. Anyone else facing the same issue?

Like something you could have never thought you could manifest?

What all will you guys buy? I’m thinking if I should wait for better discounts before purchasing anything. What do you think?

If you have, please give a review. I have been eyeing their dresses for a while and I thought I’ll take reviews from people before buying them. They are slightly expensive

I used to be very ambitious, very hard working and always wanted to be successful. I used to think I will be very successful but reality turned out to be very different.
Everyone elsw around me got really successful. Got into ivy leagues, got government jobs, successful law, engineering, medicine jobs etc etc.
I used to be a very good student in school and had this group of friends who were good too. All are now doing exceptionally well and then there is me.
I hate how I have ruined my life. My concentration span is shit, i procrastinate a lot, I’m always low on energy and I’m very scared of things in life.

I am so scared of doing anything that even after clearing JRF, I haven’t joined a university. I always have this feeling that no one will take me in their course or even if they will, I will not be able to complete it.

I also get so scared when I have to do something. I feel lazy and completely burdened when I have to perform a task.

I don’t know how I will lead life like this. Everyday is becoming more and more difficult. I’m unable to understand anything that I’m reading, unable to manage my household chores and studying, unable to beat mobile addiction, unable to learn anything new and unable to beat procrastination.

My psychiatrist did not give me meds cause I’m not suicidal, which makes no sense. I need a new psychiatrist but I have shifted to a small city and I don’t think anyone will prescribe me meds here.

I don’t know how I ended up becoming such a failure in life.

I have been having weird body pain, constant migraines (although getting better now), stomachaches, nausea, eye pain, brain fog, zero concentration and extreme fatigue since the last 3 years.
It was very bad in the initial 2 years. Later got a little better.
My professional life has also been getting shittier since passing day. I used to be very good at studies, used to enjoy that a lot and now I just cannot study. I was trying to pass an exam and each time, i was missing the passing mark by a few marks only.

My life in house also became extremely unstable. People around me falling sick, I had relocate every few months, got depression. Two of my grandparents died.

Had lots of weird issues while preparing for my wedding. But then I finally got married and a little while later my husband got deployed.

Last 3 years have been extremely crazy. I started thinking about this hexxing thing cause I know someone who used to be very jealous of me. They even fought with me cause of jealous and they have this negative aura all around them. Last year, I visited their place and I just could not breathe the entire time. I don’t have any breathing issues.

I (25F) don’t feel like doing anything, all day long. I am not working and whenever I see people doing hardwork, I feel like even I want to but I’m extremely lazy. I want to be successful but on most days I don’t feel like doing anything.
I’m so sick of myself because of this that I end up crying most of the time. I cry because I have lost so much of my time and I’m still losing.
People around me keep scolding me for my behaviour but I’m just unable to change. I’m so scared of doing anything now and the anxiety is killing me.
Everyone around me is extremely successful and I’m just surviving. It is tough living like this especially after being a hard working all my life.

I don’t know how I will live like this