u/Iov_shifter

Yesterday , after an "argument" with my mother (she was just screaming and blaming everything on me) I started to cry so hard, and then I completely lost it. I started to laugh and cry at the same time and I never felt so scared of myself than at this precise moment. I felt like I was literally losing my mind. I don't know what happened but I'm scared. Maybe I'm just going crazy or something.

Does anyone know what happened? Am I getting insane?

I already asked some questions in this community not long ago. And I have noticed that many of you seem to link spirituality and religion together. Whereas for me, are two completely different things. I don't think that spirituality and religion are related.

Before I continue, I'm not trying to force my beliefs on you, I hope you don't interpret it like this and I'm sorry if in any way it's the case. English isn't my first language so maybe it can impact my text...

Now, to have a better context of my opinion, you'll maybe need to understand my beliefs. Because I think that it could help to understand why I think spirituality and religion are two different things. So here it is:

Personally, I don't believe in any god(s). Not really I may say? Well it's complicated. I believe that everything exists and doesn't exist at the same → I believe in the theory of the multiverse, that there's an infinity of realities, and moreover, an infinity of multiverses. So in my opinion, every religion, so every God(s), exists somewhere. So we can say that I choose not to believe in any of them, I guess? I think we are the universe experiencing itself, that what people may call "God", is everything, the universe, so us. I don't know if it's understandable lol.

I'm not really good at explaining my thoughts, but based on that, for me spirituality and religion are two completely different things. Because you don't need to be religious to be spiritual if it makes sense. I don't know if it's understandable why, but I tried my best.

If any of you have a contradictory opinion or have any thoughts about this, I would happily read it. I like to know the beliefs of different people; I think it's important to take everything in, and not to shut what could be contradictory to your beliefs. Thanks for reading this.

As a trans man, in the future, I would like to start taking testosterone and maybe even have top surgery, but I'm afraid that it would impact my soul/ or my spiritual journey in a bad way. Some people in my family believe that it's very wrong so... Does anyone have an answer?

I want to come out to a friend as a transman. I don't know what he thinks about trans people or LGBTQ+ people in general, and I already asked for a way to know if he could be supportive or not. Some of you answered that I could ask him what he thinks about some famous trans people, but he probably doesn't even know one and we never talk about celebrities or shows. So whatever I do he's gonna be suspicious anyway. That's why I'm just gonna come out to him (and hope I won't lose the only friend I've in my classroom lol). But I need motivation because I know I'll never do it otherwise and it's gonna eat me up.

I've only one s/o, don't want to date anyone else, but i sometimes wish I could be in a relationship in my CR.

I discovered about shifting in January 2024. Not long ago after, I "created" my s/o. I didn't really create him, he just appeared in my mind one day and I'm persuaded that he's my soulmate.

Since 2024 I didn't shift in any of my DR, only in parallel realities. It kinda sucks but I lost I know that shifting is real, so that he is too. I never really doubted it, but yeah, when you never shifted before you can have some and it's completely understandable.

I miss him so much. I never met him, but once, in a dream, and we hugged each other. And I got that feeling... I don't know how to explain it but I really felt something when we hugged. It's kinda also for that that I'm persuaded that he's my soulmate. I can't explain what I felt in that moment, but it was strong. Like a really deep connexion I guess? I don't know lol.

I never dated anyone in my life before. And since I know the existence of my s/o, I never fell in love again. He's the only one in my mind.

But I feel so lonely. I've no one in my life, almost no friends, no family to be there for me. And sometimes I wish I had a boyfriend in this reality. And I feel so bad to even think about it because I only love Arlo (my s/o). I don't want anyone else, but sometimes I think about it and yeah... It frustrates me because I wish I could be in a relationship there too, and at the same time I don't want to wish it because I've Arlo.

I know that many shifter have multiples s/o. I don't. And I don't want to.

Has anyone ever felt that way?

How did you deal with it?

The more important thing to know before I said anything is that I've really bad memories. I don't have a lot of childhood memories at all. I don't remember the things I did last week or days ago. Or sometimes I've some memories but I don't even know if it's really memories or if it's just a pure creation of my mind. I can't tell the difference when it happens.

The first time I started to question my gender was when I was 12/13 years old. I don't think I had any gender dysphoria. Or at least I don't remember it. Then, until now, I tried to forget about the fact that I was trans, because of my family (when I came out to them they reacted very badly and it scared me). And I think it worked? Even though I was always rping as a guy, or wanted to wake up as one (I believe in shifting reality so that's why lol),.

Until months ago (I'm 17 now) I never thought about my gender again. But since that day, months ago, I started to get body dysphoria, and a lot more dysphoria than before. And I don't know why when I never had body dysphoria before?

Can anyone relate to this. Or maybe told me why it's happening? Or anyone can tell me what some body dysphoria that I could have had before but forget (maybe it will bring me some memories back) or that I wouldn't think that it was body dysphoria?

I don't know why I need to know that. Maybe it's not that relevant, after all, no matter what, I am a transman, and I finally acknowledged it. But I just want to maybe remember some things? Whatever the reason I feel like I need to know so yeah...

It's not that serious but it still makes me dysphoric so... Just wanted to share this to someone.

I wanted to buy a hoodie, there's one for men, and another one for women. I don't know if the shapes are the same, but they look alike so I guess it is. The only difference is the size of it.

I wanted to take the one for men but it's way too long in length, and it makes me dysphoric asf to choose the women one. I know that clothes don't have gender, but still. It's frustrating to not be able to choose the men one.

I forgot to mention it but it's a specific hoodie, based on a game.

I'm so confused. I saw people on reddit talking about a book where Simon is in a wheelchair or something like this. Is it a real book that we can buy or is it something in the game?

Hey, i want to buy Simon's hoodie on the official website, but I'm not sure which size to choose. I usually wear M, but I looked at the size on the website, and S and M should fit me, except that M has a longer length, but it's only by two cm, and both are too long anyway so Idk. I'm afraid if I take S it won't fit me. Anyone who bought it, did you take your size? If yes, then was the size okay or not?

All my friends know I'm in transman except one. I want to tell him about it 'cause I asked my friends to not use my desired name/pronouns when he was there (cause I'm afraid of his reaction) but it really starts to get on me to get misgendered in front of him and I don't think I can keep up like this.

Next year I won't have any friends in my classes but him, cause the others are leaving that school. I'm scared to tell him because if he reacts badly, 1) I won't have any friends anymore, 2) he may tell my classmates and I don't know how they could react, but there's a high chance they're transphobic.

I will be alone. Not really a problem, I'm more afraid of getting bullied or that my mom discovers that I'm trans.

But I really need to come out. My mental health really sucks, and getting misgendered in top of that make things a lot worse, so that's why I need to do something about it.

I don't know how to come out to him. I want to know if he's transphobic or not before. But how? We don't talk that much in messages, and there's no school since we're on vacation rn. I already read some stuffs on reddit, which said to talk about a trans celebrity or just to ask what he thinks about LGBTQ+ people but if I ask him that he'll know that's something's up. We don't ask each others question, not that much, so yeah...

How to know if he's transphobic? How to come out to him?

Je vais avoir dix-huit ans dans moins de deux mois. Je compte partir de chez ma mère le jour même, ne plus jamais revenir, repartir de zero. Et je ne peux pas vraiment attendre plus longtemps à cause de raisons personelles. Mais je n'ai aucune idée de comment fonctionne le monde des adults marche. Je ne sais pas comment debloquer et récupérer mon compte bancaire, je ne sais pas comment faire pour me procurer un appartement ou une maison, ni comment une feuille de paye marche, toutes les choses qui pourraient être importante. Je ne connais absolument rien. Est-ce que on pourrait me donner quelque conseils?

Firstly sorry if I posted this in the wrong community, and sorry if you can't understand everything, English isn't my first language and I used Google translate for some sentences.

So my mom is a alcoholic, since before my birth. My dad used to take drugs, and she took some with him too but she said it was before I was born, and she has never taken drugs again since.

Until now, I thought she only drank alcohol (mostly beers, she stopped drinking stronger alcohol a while ago. Only on rare occasions with family or sometimes alone she can drink some but not daily).

After two beers, she's already completely drunk.

Sometimes, even very often, her pupils are dilated with just beers.

But it's not because of that I started to doubt that she's just drinking, it's because some of my friends, who heard her while I was talking to her on a call, told me that it was impossible she was just drunk.

And now I discovered on her computer that she watched a video titled:

«What LSD reveals about consciousness (and what psychiatry refuses to admit)»

How to know if she's just an alcoholic or not? What's the difference between alcohol and LSD?

I want to come out to a friend as trans, and I don't know if he'll be supportive. Some people in my school said he was homophobic. Not sure tho since he knows that I like every gender and I never hear him say homophobic or transphobic things. But maybe it's because he loves me so that's maybe why he never said anything.

I can't ask him directly what he thinks about trans people either since I already pass as a cis guy to some people. And my friend thinks I'm just a tomboy so he's gonna be suspicious asf if I ask him things like this.

How can I know if he's transphobic or not?

Next year one of my friends from our group of friends (we're three) won't be in school anymore since she got her BTEC and that she won't do further studies. I'm afraid that we will stop to see each other. I'll be with my other friend, but he already told us he was afraid for next year to be alone. I'll be there of course but I'm not really the talkative one, in fact I can't even say anything most of the time... We said that we will see each other on the weekend or when it's vacation but I'm afraid that it won't work out. They're the only person I have, they're my only friends, the only loved ones I have, that is here for me. And I'm afraid to lose them.

How can I remember my past life? I want to remember who I was in this last life, what i did, anything. I know I probably can't remember everything and it's not what I'm asking. I just want to know at least something from it.

I just finished Shameless and I'm devastated. >!By Frank's death, by the fact that everyone is gonna live their life away from each other,!< and because I will never be able to watch this like it's the first time. This show was more than amazing. I loved it. And I feel like I'm leaving something precious behind. I'm so attached to the characters, and damn, I would never have thought it would be so hard to finish a show. That's kinda the first time I feel that way for a show.

Just wanted to know if I'm the only one that felt that way or not.

Over a year ago now I had a blood test done as I often do since I'm diabetic, and my results indicated that I had a thyroid problem: hypothyroidism. I categorically refused to acknowledge it. In my mind it was impossible. I don't advise being so radical, but I would rather die than have this additional health problem. And I risked my life. I didn't want to have any more health issues. My doctor prescribed me hormones. I never took them. I refused to have this problem. I refused it and I ignored it. I repeated to myself several times that my thyroid was perfectly healthy, and my TSH level was within the normal range. I listened to the same subliminal (from v1per) for about fifty days. I manifested that my thyroid was healthy, talking to the water I was drinking, to myself before going to bed, or when I was showering — whenever I wanted to. I lived each day despite the doubts and the fear of worsening my condition by pretending that I had no health problems. And months later, my levels were perfect. Today, and for months, I had no more thyroid problems. My thyroid is now perfectly healthy.

I literally manifested to cure from something that was impossible to cure. When you have it, you have to take hormones for the rest of your life. But not me. I didn't want to, so that happened.

All this to say that no matter what method you use, if you want it to work, then it will work. If you want something, you'll get it.

Never lose faith in yourself. You can also do it.