u/PPginormous

Pimping and BPD, Career Suggestions

I'm a 25 year old adult who finished med school around 2 years ago despite battling severe, debilitating Borderline personality disorder (BPD). Just for the sake of clarity, "pimping" refers to doctors asking med students/interns questions while on rounds.

I am currently on several prescribed psychiatric meds for trearment resistant depression and anxiety which, so far, aren't working. The only thing that helped was Electroconvulsive Therapy, but I lost a lot of memories. Therapy session, specifically CBT, surprisingly did not help. I have had multiple attempts and then some. I don't wish to go into much detail so as not to detract from the main question.

I can't regulate myself well when doctors ask questions. I really try to, I really do. But it triggers trauma responses that hurt more than the kidney stone I passed, and I genuinely mean this. I was an outstandingly bright student and even had a Arab Gulf-wide scholarship, was in the news for it and all that, but that's besides the point. Every time I can't answer, I remember my father and the melted wax he'd pour on me at age 6. It genuinely makes me wish to kill myself and I couldn't do that for 8 hours a day during my internship. I made it only 6 month, or halfway. The memory loss after multiple rounds of ECT also means I can't recall much I've learnt in med school.

Yes, you can call me overly sensitive and you'd be correct. I don't think I'm made for this line of work. I don't know what I'm made for, I ask myself every night.

I'm genuinely sorry for the rant parts of this text, I tried my best to keep it to a minimum. I'm in active treatment but like I said, none of the countless meds work well so far (adhd meds, bipolar meds, depression meds in every class, so. many. antipsychotics etc.) But I know my anxiety will not cease until I find a career path. It's all I can think of. It's all I truly want. Please, any suggestions with my degree would help.

I'm very nervous even just posting this here, please for my sake, show empathy in your responses (constructive criticism is very much welcome).

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u/PPginormous — 5 days ago
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Genuine question: How does this subreddit feel about MCU iron-man killing others?

The lines seem to be a bit blurry on whether comic iron-man has a no-kill rule or not, but if I'm correct, he only kills as a last resort. Needless to say the MCU version has no qualms about blowing up bad guys and even outright threatens to kill. From the perspective of a fan of this character, how do you feel about this specific character trait? Is it character assassination, something that doesn't matter to you at all, or somewhere in the middle?

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u/PPginormous — 12 days ago

Have a Switch 2, which to get?

As the title says, which hyrule warriors game out of the three should I get? I've heard the original runs better on the switch 2 but Aoc is locked at only 30fps. And then there's AOI for consideration too.

Performance aside, which of these three is the biggest must play? I can only get one for now.

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u/PPginormous — 13 days ago

Repost as my previous one was taken down likely (and understandably) for being low effort. I'm far into the game and the one that still makes me wonder how I got so far without knowing is the fact that you can teleport to a base computer without building anything else, not even a portal. To add on, the fact that they allow you to teleport between whole galaxies and not just systems within a single galaxy was a game-changer when first visiting a new galaxy. I would love to hear some more below!

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u/PPginormous — 17 days ago

I'm on switch 2, she's on switch. What's the process to make this happen? Is it even possible? How far away must her base be from mine? How do I get her to my planet?

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u/PPginormous — 25 days ago

My switch keeps trying to connect to the Internet whenever I play this game and says not able to connect every 5 seconds. Turning on airplane mode just makes it say turn on airplane mode every 5 seconds.

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u/PPginormous — 27 days ago