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Discuss an accomplishment, event, or realization that sparked a period of personal growth and a new • understanding of yourself or others.

Describe a topic, idea, or concept you find so engaging that it makes you lose all track of time. Why does it captivate you? What or who do you turn to when you want to learn more

This is for the common app and I’m trying to decide which one would be better but I’m unsure.

I’m looking for peoples opinions and why.

I plan on working, getting off from work, getting a drink, and go to the pool with some friends .

I’m on an anti-psychotic and an anti-depressant and I have been stable for months. Buttttt I am still really disorganized and have trouble starting tasks. I’m like eh oh well whatever no big deal until I’m at work and I can’t remember if I gave the person the food or not, or if there’s a lot of orders I become really unorganized and yeah. No bueno. I make little mistakes which is like whyyy. Anyways my NP told my my executive function is pretty much cooked and the only med that treats that is stimulants. However, she is not her own independent practice and I found her on this one website, but do to the policy they don’t prescribe controlled substances.

My mom said that she’ll ask my NP what the next steps are (like referrals and stuff) bc it’s such a pain in the butt to always lose, forget, and not even be able to do your job correctly. I just hope things work out.

My brain refuses to do anything that doesn’t sound enjoyable. I know I should study for SAT, I know exactly what to do, but I just.. don’t. It’s not like oh I’m depressed and have no motivation in life. My mood is perfectly fine but I struggle to actually start tasks. I’m always losing things, at work I struggle to multitask and tend to accidentally not pay attention and make a lot of little mistakes. My memory is like non existent. I think that if I had the ability to start things like studying on my own, cleaning consistently, and staying in a routine, my life would be so much better. I used to get by with smoking weed to help me start tasks, but I can’t and don’t do that anymore. So yeah 🤷‍♀️ also my brain has trouble processing what people say, which is really difficult at work. I hear the noise but not the words and I have to keep asking people to repeat themselves. Just annoying, and maybe this all sticks out more since I’ve stopped smoking weed for a while and I’m not like depressed.

Stats: 3.8 UW 4.1 UW , I took medical terminology, anatomy and physiology, principles of health science , dual credit psychology, dual credit US history, dual credit gov, AP bio , AP world history (got a 4 on AP exam) for EC -> I attended rice tapia camp for engineering and PVAMU premed summer school camp. I was in HOSA for two years, and volunteered with assisting with preforming ECG’s under the supervision of nurses. I’m top 10% of my class

I want to go to Texas A&M or Florida A&M (maybe Texas tech) but I don’t know if I’ll get in or the major I want. I heard Alabama gives pretty good scholarships. I want to major in nursing.

I work sometimes until 11. I need IR to go to sleep. It also helps stabilize my mood. It’s perfect. But I ran out and my mom can’t get some more until possibly Tuesday. So I guess we ball idk. 🙃🥲🥲🥲 I’m not too big of a fan of er, it’s just MID to me. Like no give me the shit that’s gonna knock me out and keep me out in like an hour.

Today, I gave a new friend, my coworker,an energy drink. She’s never had one before , but I wanted to buy her one because idk , it makes me happy knowing that I did something that uplifted someone’s mood or brightened their day . I think back to all the times a friend has gotten me something and how special it made me feel. With me, as long as you’re nice to me and genuine, I’ll give u gifts, offer to go out and do things - like I’ll even buy a pickle ball set for the both of us to play and I’ll find us a ride. Friendship means so much to me, and maybe that’s why in the past when it didn’t work out with some, it was so painful.

When i was deep into my addiction, I was sooooo selfish. I’d steal, lie, do anything to get what i want , not giving two shits about anyone else.

I love giving to others now, which is so funny bc some years ago, not a dime would’ve went to anyone else but myself. I don’t do things for anything in return (well, I only hope for someone to continue being nice and enjoy my company but that’s it.)

I was once at an NA meeting and they talked about giving back, which made so much sense to me. I found out that I find a lot of fulfillment and purpose when helping others. I guess that’s what mostly fuels my motivation to pursue a career in Nursing next year. (I just need to fix my adhd issues first. I see my NP on Wednesday, wonder how that will go😭🙏)

I just try not to be a victim , and actually try to make a change.

Has helped with mood tremendously. However my executive functioning and adhd symptoms are still very prominent even after being on this medication for 6 months. My provider was cautious in targeting those symptoms, because she wanted to focus on stabilizing my bipolar disorder through antipsychotics. Now that my mood is stable, and has been for a while, I’m still struggling at work, and even outside of it especially with deadlines, initiating tasks, memory, etc. I thought it was just symptoms from maybe being In an episode but nope. Anyways I see her Wednesday so no idea what’s gonna happen next but we will see🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

It’s not even like me not focusing is the main problem. It’s a problem but it’s also more so switching between tasks- especially at work, not spacing out, remembering verbal instructions, starting and finishing things, especially with stuff I enjoy like reading or even a video game. I’m always losing stuff, and idk it’s like this blockage between me thinking about doing something and actually getting up and doing it. I sleep great, I eat well, I get my exercise in- it’s like I’m doing all the right things and still struggling to stay consistent.

I’ll have a routine- follow it for a week, maybe more and then boom it just stops. I’ll have a planner, use it for a week, then never touch it again. I’ve gotten by in school with smoking weed bc it makes boring tasks more interesting and also cheating. But I since I’ve quit smoking for a couple of months- don’t even remember the last time I did smoke- I no longer have that to lean on🙃

Ik I shouldn’t care what others think but I’m pretty self conscious 😭 I’m just tired of lash clusters and want to go back to mascara

Both are rewarding careers, but why did you choose that one in particular?

TMI: >!Last year, my stuff was so swollen, on the inside!< >!there was open whiteish sores, it felt like literal fire to pee. I went to urgent care, they swapped me and I screamed. I went to my pcp, I got a shot in my bum!< >!😭!< >!they prescribed me anti virals, antibiotics, steroids, I went to a gyno, he said “wow I’ve never seen this before” I got swabbed again and screamed. I would get chills. When I got to my pcp, they asked to be pee in a cup and I was literally screaming and a little came out. They said I had a uti and there was some blood found in the urine. It hurt to walk. All the test they gave me turned out negative. They were convinced it was herpes, I was tested multiple times and I was negative for all STI’s. I had to use lidocaine if I want to pee. I wanted to die. They even tested me for lupus in case it was an autoimmune disorder and that was also negative. I wish I knew what it was, or what triggered it but I hope it never happens again. It was like pouring alcohol on an open wound any time I peed without using lidocaine. I couldn’t tell any of my friends bc I was ashamed. I’m glad I got through it but it was so incredibly painful.!<

For me, I’m a teen and I go for the free chicken sandwiches and the fact that most of the staff is my age .

I see some women and they kiss their friends on the lips. It’s only something I’ve seen with women and not guys. I just wonder, why? 🤷‍♀️ I’m not against it I’m just asking out of curiosity

I looked in the mirror and my pores were bleeding and there was a grey dry spot next to my mouth😥 ah hnnnn

Idk deciding if I should get them but idk I buy a pair of shoes and use them for the rest of the year

This was last year but I was dating this guy who was emotionally and physically abusive, and he was always paranoid that I was cheating on him. So once I leave bc he treated me like shit he made these fake numbers threatening to shoot me . Like sure buddy 💀

When my mom broke up with her last bf, he showed up to her job, said he has nothing to lose, and continued to stalk her. Like for WHAT? It lead to no where so what was the fucking point????

I don’t get men.

I’m on meds, mood is stable, but my interest are still inconsistent. I find fun in things that are stimulating or give a reward/instant gratification. I find things like brushing my teeth to be boring unless I’m going out and I’m around people. I wait until the day an assignment is due to do it. I only do things when there’s a sense of urgency or a good feeling attached. I like trespassing, sex, used to really love drugs, and recently I was really fixated on this game. It consumed me for 3-4 days, I didn’t care to answer text, my mind was only focused on the game. Until it wasn’t.

I told my therapist this and she said that I just need to train my brain to get used to life and stop doing risky things and when I find something enjoyable to space it out. But I know I won’t listen, when something feels good, I’ll keep doing it until it doesn’t. My brain struggles to adjust to stability and is constantly seeking for the next thing.

Routines suck for me. I’ll be consistent for a good 1-2 weeks then drop it. I just keep doing things that feel good and that’s where my motivation and focus runs to. I can still work, clean, and function. But I hate how I am constant chasing for the next high.

I don’t have many friends, and I start to go crazy if I’m in the house alone for too long. Does it ever end? It takes months to finish a book. I told my therapist that my NP raised the dose on Wellbutrin and it didn’t help with executive function. My therapist responded and said “well I’ll stop you right there, there’s no medicine that will make you motivated “ and Its not like I’m not motivated in a depressed way, it’s more of a I can function but I don’t stay consistent and have trouble completing things I want to do.

If I try to imagine what my face looks like, nothing appears. If I try to think about who I am, nothing pops up. I feel so lost and like I try to adapt to other people personalities in order to feel some sense of individuality. I feel like who I am is always changing. I thought with age it would get better, but it hasn’t.