u/Sea_Independence6453

All of my clothes are vintage and some are delicate materials that can only be washed at 30°C or below. I am in London in the worst heatwave I’ve ever experienced and I’m on the top floor with no AC and it’s got to be at least 35° all the time up here. My clothes are in my wardrobe and I’ve had the curtains shut all day. It’s another 4 days of this. Sorry if this is a stupid question but I’m paranoid about my clothes becoming damaged due to the heat because I’ve never experienced anything like this before.

I saw a PETA ad just now on youtube of video of a cat being tortured and experimented on and I immediately became extremely suicidal and started sobbing and I don’t want to live in this horrible world with horrible humans. I can’t even donate to peta because I know they are a bad organisation who kills animals themselves. I know these things happen but why would they actually show a video of this happening?? It can seriously damage some people’s mental health.

Sometimes when there’s a build up of inconveniences/ bad luck and I’m also sleep deprived and in my luteal phase (I have pmdd too) I get SO full of rage and all I want to do is scream. But I don’t want to upset my cats and I also don’t want my neighbours to think I’m insane so I just do a silent scream but it doesn’t satisfy the itch nearly enough. I have properly screamed in the past and it has been very difficult to stop myself beforehand, and it is horrible but it’s the only thing that has helped in the moment. I don’t do it anymore but occasionally slip up because I literally just explode sometimes and I can’t stop it but it does happen rarely these days, 99% of the time I just silent scream now. In the moment I don’t want to calm down, I want to get the rage out. Sometimes punching something like a firm pillow helps but I also have me/cfs and that takes a lot of physical energy and I also don’t always have that option available if I’m in a different room and I feel like I’m literally about to explode and have a meltdown. I also live with my toxic mother who I am trying to get away from but being chronically ill it’s very hard. I feel like my nervous system is just very deregulated and I just want to be a calm person I don’t want to be the kind of person that I am, but I can’t get better in the place that makes me unwell. So my question is what can I do for now, in those moments when all I can do is rage?

I’ve been in a burnout slump for months and then the SECOND I decide I’m finally gonna lock in and do all my laundry, the laundry machine breaks and now I have to wait days for that to get fixed. Then the next day I also decide I’m finally gonna start eating better and cook proper meals, there’s a gas leak and the cooker or oven won’t work so I also have to wait probably days for that to get fixed. I also can’t shower because there’s no hot water so I can’t go out and buy anything. I have adhd and once I decide I’m gonna do something, I have to do that thing asap and there’s literally no way for me to divert my plan and do something else. Idk what to do. These are just a few examples but things like these keep happening and it is truly ruining my life for the past few days/ weeks. I wish I was exaggerating but I’ve literally been losing my mind.

When I’m at home with my family I have no issues talking at a normal volume. I used to have singing and acting lessons and I’m actually very good at projecting my voice and sometimes I do it as a funny bit at home. But whenever I’m in public or have to speak to a stranger (like answering the door to a delivery person) I suddenly become this extremely shy soft spoken person. It drives me INSANE because that is not me at all. People have issues hearing me and everyone perceives me as a very shy introvert but I swear I am not!!!! I literally don’t know how to stop it happening because I don’t even do this on purpose. I tried to shout the other day as a joke with my friend and it literally came out all muffled. I have another friend who i feel very comfortable around and she’s the only person this doesn’t happen with. But i also want it to stop happening with strangers and just everyone tbh. It’s so frustrating idk how to make this stop especially because it’s not who I am. If I was genuinely a shy introverted person I’d probably just learn to accept it but I know I’m not because when I’m at home or with my one friend who I’m completely comfortable around this doesn’t happen at all. I’m diagnosed with adhd but I think I may be autistic too and that this is a form of masking that I developed at a young age, which is why it only happens in certain situations and is so hard to stop because it’s an unconscious behaviour. The friend who I’m myself around is also neurodivergent so it would make sense.

I’m not even joking when I say I’ve made and deleted probably like 10 reddit accounts. I make an account because I have a question I want to ask or I remember that I find some of the advice on here useful. But then I always delete it within a few weeks because of the toxicity of this app and how often people are just mean and snarky in comments for no reason. Many people on here are just so rude or try to start conflicts when it’s completely unprovoked. So many people just disagreeing with everything anyone says just for the sake of disagreeing and starting a conflict, even when the person didn’t do anything wrong. This has happened to me a lot and I’ve seen it happen to others all the time.

And also there’s a lot of misogyny on here too that I’ve come across. I’ve accidentally stumbled upon an entire subreddit once that was dedicated to tearing women’s looks apart and generalising certain features as objectively good or bad. And I’d expect this kind of behaviour from men but when I saw it was mostly women in this sub it hurt even more.

But the main thing that ruins my mental health is how horrible and mean a lot of people are on here. I never say anything to provoke that kind of behaviour either. I am very leftist and sometimes express my views but like 99% I’m just talking about normal things that have nothing to do with that. Whenever I make a post, especially asking for advice or a question about something, there’s always a bunch of people accusing me of shit I didn’t even say because they jump to conclusions and refuse to read the entire post properly. And these people will call me dumb and stupid because they’re assuming I’m asking something I’m not, and almost always it could be avoided if they actually read my fucking post!!!!

And in comments people can be so sarcastic and just horrible and rude and they just have to be a smartass about everything too. Also the downvotes upset me so much. I can say something completely reasonable, maybe even someone else said the same thing, but I get downvoted. It’s like as soon as something gets one downvote the hive mind just joins in. I got downvoted for thanking someone for giving me advice the other day. Just why the fuck???

And yes I’m being hyperbolic, ik it’s not everyone and these things actually don’t happen all the time. Some people on here are very kind and helpful. But these things happen enough to make me very upset and angry and I have noticed my mental health is much worse because of this dreadful app. It happens way more on this app than any other app, I assume because of the anonymity. Miserable people can hide behind the fact their identity is hidden and say whatever tf they want. I want to delete Reddit permanently but how can I trust myself that I wont download it again because I thought of something I wanted to ask or I want to browse one of the very few communities that I do actually find helpful?

I’m not really looking for advice because I know I’m just gonna try to delete and try my best to keep it that way. I just wanted to get this out and see if anyone relates because I feel like I’m going insane. Also I apologise if my post doesn’t make much sense, I’m sleep deprived rn.

Literally 90% of the time. WHO TF IS EDGAR???? I have never typed Edgar before in my life until now. And even if I did know an Edgar, in what situation is it more likely that I’m trying to say Edgar than the word what, which I would argue is much more common and comes up in conversation a lot more…. It also happens with “and”. My phone thinks I’m trying to say “abs” or “abe”. Again I’ve never typed these words and you’d think it would know I was trying to say the most common filler word like ever???? I don’t want to turn off the swipe thing bc I like it when I’m too lazy to type but idk what to do about this. It’s been going on for years.

i know you can start blowing your nose gently after about 4-6 weeks (?) but when can you blow it the normal amount? i’m 3 months post op and i have caught a cold and i just blew my nose normally without thinking. not extremely forcefully but not exactly gently either. is this ok? i didn’t experience any pain. i also blew my nose gently about 3 weeks ago and i had a tiny amount of blood but my surgeon said everything was fine.

hi everyone, i’m looking for some noise cancelling headphones that cancel out ALL noise. and i know they exist because i was friends with someone in high school who had some and i tried them on and i really couldn’t hear ANYTHING. i have tried so many noise cancelling headphones and while they are better than nothing i always end up upset that i can still hear. also bonus if they are comfortable enough to sleep in because i wake up at the slightest sound. and being tired ruins my day so sleep is very important. i sleep better with a fan on because of the white noise sound but when i hear someone next door or downstairs do something, even quietly, it wakes me up immediately. and during the day certain sounds really irritate me or make me overwhelmed and angry. i like listening to loud music or watching shows but sometimes i need complete silence.

any recommendations are appreciated! i live in the uk.

i swear whenever i try to track my progress i pick so much more but when i just don’t think about it its so much easier. is the pressure making it worse? ive used iamsober for other things and it has helped (like with self harm) but when i use it for picking it just gets so much worse 😭