u/TropicalDan427

30m with acid reflux and have been on ppis for at a minimum of 7 years, and I tend to skip breakfast and consume lots of caffeine.

In September 2025 developed a sensation of internal trembling and muscle twitching. That went away quickly but was soon replaced by a tremor in my right pinky, ring finger, and left thumb. Soon after that I started to get chronic tingling in my face, hands, and feet. I just assumed it was anxiety about the tremor which made me think I had Parkinson’s or something. Saw a neurologist after many many months and he determined I don’t have Parkinson’s. I didn’t mention the tingling though cause I again assumed it was anxiety. So it’s been almost a year now and I still experience these symptoms. After the appointment with the neurologist I kind of assumed it was just FND but all he really did was rule out Parkinson’s without saying what it was. Apparently though I recently learned ppis can inhibit vitamin absorption so it has me wondering

I’m 30 years old and it’s like everything is hitting me at once

- I miss my grandparents, I only have one left and dementia has turned her into a shell of her former self.

- I miss going over to my grandparents house.

- I miss when my parents were much younger.

- I miss elementary school

- I miss middle school

- I miss high school

- I miss my childlike innocence

- I miss my childhood pets

- I miss playing outside as a kid

- I miss when my parents could make any of my worries go away

- I miss being tucked in at night

- I miss being told bedtime stories

- I miss watching cartoons before school

- I miss my only worry being homework or what I was going to do with my friends the next day

- I miss when the world wasn’t so connected and dependent on clicks and content

- I miss when physical third places to hang out actually still existed.

- I miss the overall more positive attitude of society

- I miss when I didn’t have existential dread

- I miss when I wasn’t negative all the time

- I miss swinging on swings at the par

- I miss when things weren’t so partisan and when we weren’t all at each others throats

- I miss having optimism for the future

- I miss when I didn’t have health issues

- I miss my childhood

- I miss when my old neighborhood had kids playing. Now nobody goes outside

- I miss……. ME

30m already had Parkinson’s and any structural issue ruled out. I think I can trace the very beginning of this back two years when I got a vasectomy and was so scared right after that I was going to develop post vasectomy pain syndrome. I focused on that daily and then one day it happened and I couldn’t get my mind off of it. It’s all I thought about. It even got to the point where I got so stressed it felt like I had a UTI. Spoiler I didn’t, nothing was wrong but I believe this set the stage for what was to come 2 years later.

In September of last year I had a bad anxiety episode which isn’t terribly unusual for me. This time though I for some reason fixated on the muscle fasciculations I often get under high anxiety. This time I somehow interpreted it as a threat and did what I shouldn’t have. I went to dr google and somehow landed on Parkinson’s. So what do I do? I scanned myself for a tremor and suddenly one started on my right pinky finger. At first it only happened when I focused on it but within only a week it established itself and increased in intensity rapidly. A month later it spread to my ring finger. So I set up an appointment with a neurologist.

I just want to point out while all this is going on I started fixated on the other symptoms of Parkinson’s. As such I started experiencing intermittent pain my in my feet and legs, the muscle fasciculations increased, low level tingling in the hands and feet. This was my focus on a daily basis. Within a month after onset the tremor started on my other side. Not a typical timeline for Parkinson’s and logically I knew all of this happened too fast for it to be that but my ocd still hooked onto that.

Fast forward some months and I have my neurology appointment. The doctor had me walk down the hall and back, checked my legs for stiffness and rigidity and then looked at my tremor. He determined not Parkinson’s and likely functional tremor.

My OCD being OCD I bought that at first but reassurance is fleeting with OCD. So of course I’ve been continuing to constantly scan my body and I think I’m coming to the conclusion that this is a functional issue. Any new symptom always without failure coincides hours or days later to the body part I’m focusing on. Like the most recent example is a few days ago I started focusing on my legs and feet again. Then yesterday all of a sudden there was this almost pseudo-numbness that I felt in my calves. Like my sense of touch and feeling is maintained there’s just this sort of “numbness overlay” over my calves. And all these symptoms are never present first thing in the morning either but once my brain wakes up it’s like a switch flips. I don’t know obviously I’m not certain it’s FND but the lack of physical issues and how attention driven this is seems to heavily point towards it.

I am in no way suggesting that PVPS is just FND, I’m just wondering if PVPS can be a catalyst for wider FND

I ask because ever since I got PVPS my mind and body has become really adept at taking symptoms for unrelated things and turning them into a feedback loop cycle

I miss my early 2000s childhood every single day. Sometimes I feel like I was never meant to be an adult. Ever since the year 2020 I’ve been feeling that more and more. I wish time machines existed so bad and I wish I could just age myself down and go back to this time period. I’m 30 years old and I increasingly feel like I just don’t belong here and I’m merely just existing and floating through life. I miss when my parents were young too. I miss when all my grandparents were alive and that my only remaining grandparent didn’t have dementia: I miss my childhood pets. I miss it all so much and the current decade just hurts me too much. Has anybody else just been feeling this so much lately?

I miss my early 2000s childhood every single day. Sometimes I feel like I was never meant to be an adult. Ever since the year 2020 I’ve been feeling that more and more. I wish time machines existed so bad and I wish I could just age myself down and go back to this time period. I’m 30 years old and I increasingly feel like I just don’t belong here and I’m merely just existing and floating through life. I miss when my parents were young too. I miss when all my grandparents were alive and that my only remaining grandparent didn’t have dementia: I miss my childhood pets. I miss it all so much and the current decade just hurts me too much

Since a majority of my plants are in my plant room which has the door that is always or are hanging plants I’m only really concerned about 4 plants in my collection which are on plant stands by the windows.

My other cat doesn’t give a shit about plants if they’re above her eye level basically. We just got a new 6 month old though who likes to jump on things(unlike my other cat). While she hasn’t messed with the plants yet I want to cat proofing these plants as much as possible.

To start with I very intentionally chose plants that I think would naturally be less tempting to cats. You know things with stiff leaves or stems that don’t move in a breeze. So 3 of these 4 plants are types of snake plants and the 4th is a spiny cactus which provides a built in deterrent. In addition to strategically choosing plants there are some other things I have done.

- changed my plant stands to only a accommodate one plant each. I figure a cat is less likely to try and jump up on my plant stands of there isn’t any surface area for them to land on. Of course since my plant stands are at the windows and the window sills are right there this is only really a deterrent for stopping the cat from jumping from the ground to the plant stand.

- to account for the blind spot of the windowsills I have added double sided sticky tape to them so that if they jump up on the ledge the hope is that they will hate the feeling of the sticky tape on their paws.

- I have also sprayed cat repellant sprays around the plant stands but I know that is something I’ll need to reapply frequently.

Is there anything else I can do to deter my cat from potentially messing with my plants? And yes I am aware that snake plants posses a mild toxicity to them

Edit: my windowsills thankfully aren’t that wide so I image as the new cat grows she will have trouble fitting on them but she can certainly fit on them now

Edit 2: also before anyone suggests to move those 4 plants to the plant room or make them hanging I need to say I do not have room to do so

I miss my early 2000s childhood every single day. Sometimes I feel like I was never meant to be an adult. Ever since the year 2020 I’ve been feeling that more and more. I wish time machines existed so bad and I wish I could just age myself down and go back to this time period. I’m 30 years old and I increasingly feel like I just don’t belong here and I’m merely just existing and floating through life. I miss when my parents were young too. I miss when all my grandparents were alive and that my only remaining grandparent didn’t hehe dementia: I miss my childhood pets. I miss it all so much and the current decade just hurts me too much

I miss my early 2000s childhood every single day. Sometimes I feel like I was never meant to be an adult. Ever since the year 2020 I’ve been feeling that more and more. I wish time machines existed so bad and I wish I could just age myself down and go back to this time period. I’m 30 years old and I increasingly feel like I just don’t belong here and I’m merely just existing and floating through life. I miss when my parents were young too. I miss when all my grandparents were alive and that my only remaining grandparent didn’t hehe dementia: I miss my childhood pets. I miss it all so much and the current decade just hurts me too much

I miss my early 2000s childhood every single day. Sometimes I feel like I was never meant to be an adult. Ever since the year 2020 I’ve been feeling that more and more. I wish time machines existed so bad and I wish I could just age myself down and go back to this time period. I’m 30 years old and I increasingly feel like I just don’t belong here and I’m merely just existing and floating through life. I miss when my parents were young too. I miss when all my grandparents were alive and that my only remaining grandparent didn’t hehe dementia: I miss my childhood pets. I miss it all so much and the current decade just hurts me too much

So I have western flower thrips in my veggie garden. I’m keeping their numbers low so I’m not really concerned about the plants outside. I expect to coexist with some level of thrips every summer there. Indoors however I have a zero tolerance policy for thrips. Since discovering thrips outside I have been VERY diligent and meticulous to not introduce thrips inside and more specifically inside my plant room behind a door that’s always closed as well as windows that are always closed

Currently we are not opening our windows at all and are going to replace some of our window screens with 75 mesh no thrips screening. So far at least several weeks after discovering thrips outside I have not found them or signs of them in my plant room. Granted the plants I have indoors are generally less preferable to thrips( epiphytic cacti, air plants, and sanseviera) but of course it’s still possible. I check every single plant daily for any signs of thrips, I have blue sticky traps everywhere and so far nothing has been captured in them. I put bonide in all my plant room plants as a precaution although ive heard bonide doesn’t work on a significant portion of western flower thrips populations. I have spinosad, pyrethrin, neem, tons of 99.99% rubbing alcohol(that I dilute of course), acephate, bifenthrin, insecticidal soap, citric acid, and horticultural oils on hand if needed. Outside I have deployed predatory mites, pirate bugs, and nematodes(the ants are complicating that though), because the less I have outside the less likely they are to get it.

Other precautions are:

-changing my clothing before entering my plant room

-any harvests from outside must be placed in a ziplock bag BEFORE entering the house and immediately placed in the fridge. Herbs are to be dried out via the oven

• once a week I spray a mixture of neem, soap, and rubbing alcohol on my plants

Is there anything else I can be doing to protect my indoor plants. Also if the thrips do get inside and are the type that’s resistant to imidacloprid do I have any other options for systemics? I kind of assume especially with western flower thrips that I they get to my indoor plants they will never fully go away