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TW I guess for just general depressing thoughts

I’m 23 years old living with chronic pain since I was 16. Complex Regional Pain Syndrome in my chest, a spinal cord stimulator was implanted at the tail end of last year, which definitely has helped a lot.

So what’s the issue?

I’m just physically and mentally falling apart, I have been for years. Those of us with chronic pain know that it’s not surprising to wake up every day in pain, but that doesn’t make the suffering any less real and valid. Every day that I wake up I’m in pain, but I feel lucky if that’s all I deal with. I have so many other autoimmune/general health issues at my age I feel too far beyond my years.

My physical health issues have cost me a lot so far, and, to get to the point, I don’t want it taking any more. I’m terrified each passing day, because there always seems to be some new problem/pain/diagnosis lurking just up ahead. Living with chronic pain sucks, but I have a decent support system of loved ones; but I feel that I’m just slowly circling the drain with my health. There’s no getting better. I’ll only deteriorate more.

It’s an awful feeling. Doctors and pain specialists always remark when I meet them “You’re young to have XYZ”, and it cuts deep. No one should have to deal with chronic health issues, but having my entire future seemingly in jeopardy from it is something else.

This is more of a vent than anything, sorry it’s a bummer, too.

Basically this is just me asking “what’s your grungiest album?”, but that title wouldn’t get your attention, right?

If some spacetopus set down in my backyard and I had an hour and 15 minutes with them before they disintegrated me and then everyone elsec I would start showing them Superunknown.

“Oh Nevermind is THE grunge album, grunge died by ‘94” whatever; I think that between its sound, production, lyrical themes, hell, even the artwork and methods of writing, Superunknown is 100% my choice for the grungiest album ever, and one I should show to Glorbulax first, or ANYONE getting into grunge, for that matter.

What about y’all? If you met an alien who was really wanting to get into grunge music, what 1 album would you show them first?

Look, I know by now the whole “oh the villain has a point” trope is a little played out, and I’m not saying Sephiroth’s plan to destroy the planet is worth justifying, but I really hope some media (hopefully remake 3) kind of gives his character a bit more credit, or at least a chance to explain himself.

Think about it- within a few days he finds out that he’s nothing as what he thought he was. That he’s a lab-grown-half-monster-thing generated from a dead ancient, that he’s not some cool hero who will save the world, that Shinra is destroying the planet, etc.

That’s gotta be pretty jarring. I’ve never gone through something like that but I remember one time I found out Santa was my parents, so I can empathize.

Anyways, I think THAT’S what’s always made him a compelling villain for me: not his design, not his legacy, but his realization, and how that broke him. I think he deserves more than “I’m evil now” from his story, and I don’t feel that’s been fulfilled by things like Crisis Core and Rebirth.

Anyone else?

I would genuinely rather play all these songs on a real piano than spend ONE MORE SECOND ON THIS MINIGAME SERIES. I can't do it! I think I'm having an easier time with the Brutal Combat Sims because at least those have strategies involved!

It's not surprising; despite having played guitar for a decade I also still can't play Guitar Hero worth a damn, lol. I've never been great at game-adapted-instruments, and this one is no joke. Weirdly, I've never seen anyone else complain about this online, it's always "Treasure Trove! 3D Brawler! Bots n Bits!" so maybe I just singularly suck...

Anyways. Anyone who is willing to, I'll fly you out to where I live so you can do them for me while I go to a piano shop and start smashing.

(That's a joke, but seriously, any advice? I'm assuming the only bit to give is "get good")

So I'm relatively new to actually using reverb pedals, I only really started using them when I discovered Belton Brick pedals like the DBA Reverberation Machine and my current go-to, the Caroline Météore. Since I now have a reverb pedal on my board for the foreseeable future, that makes me an expert of all things reverb. So, I'd love to hear and then judge what all of your favorite reverb types are!

Classic Spring? Hall? Flerb? Probably Flerb. Can't wait to see all your responses! (they better be Flerb)