u/goodcheese55

I haven't been able to keep my mind off it. I applied for an internship and I have to get everything done etc etc.

So I send them an email and I have so many worries centering around it. During the appointment we talked about the duration of it and I am convinced they said halve a year was alright but now I'm thinking what if it was a trick of my mind. I wanted to get clarity through the email but I'm worried I might come off as stupid during it. It took me days to send it and I haven't been able to relax ever since. My heart rate is high, I'm sweaty and now I'm just waiting for the time to pass until I get a response.

How do I even deal with the small things like this? I'm already so stressed about the reply before I even send it to begin with

Not sure if this an ADHD but I realised I talk to myself a lot and sometimes even out loud. Usually I don't notice it and in my mind I find it nice to talk to myself to figure stuff out or come up with ideas. Today I noticed I sometimes say things out loud. A customer asked if we had something and it didn't ring a bell so I kind of said to myself "did we ever have it?" and then the customer told me "idk, you work here". I felt a little embarrassed but it was a great reality check. I find that the constant talking can be exhausting

Anyone else? What could be the cause?

Title says it all. I'm currently reading the compact comic and I fell in love with the character and can't wait to read more about him. I love how he cares for the community and even though I don't know many characters yet I like the family dynamics.

Now I also have a few questions.

1. If I were to collect his current ongoing, is there a specific issue that would be a good starting point? Maybe a few months ago or maybe a new story starts soon. I don't want to collect mid comic

2. Since he has been in a lot and I probably won't get to all of it, what are some must reads?

3. Do we think there will be another compact comic?

I think one of the things I hate the most about my anxiety is that I have to check everything with everyone. I'm terrified of making a 'wrong' decision or saying the 'wrong' thing. With every dilemma I have to ask others what they would do, when texting or mailing I have to ask people if what I'm about to send is correct. My stomach hurts when I try not to ask anyone because I immediately I assume I will do the wrong thing, I forgot something, it will sound stupid or grammatically incorrect and people just hate me all together (thoughts are a crazy thing).

I have to send out emails for an internship and I'm having trouble hitting send because I just feel like I fucked up before I even started.

I've been able to study and learn but it never sticks. Even now when reading an article for uni I've forgotten what it's about by the time we talk about it in class. I put in the effort but in the end I still feel really dumb. I should be able to know this and yet...

I think this applies to a lot of stuff besides studying too. I could talk about something with someone and by the end I totally forgot the topic. Genuinely feels like my mind gets wiped the second I focus on something else.

Any tips? I'm supposed to start my internship after the summer and I hope to have some tips and tricks by that time

I believe it's not known how his mutant powers activated (if so please tell me), so I'm curious about everyone's ideas

I often see people talk about a hyperfixation as something positve when there's so much negatives too. Only good thing about them is that I can enjoy something with a passion and they bring me during it.

Like everyone else, they're time consuming and become the top priority of my to do list. My actual important tasks become irrelevant and overall life gets messy. For me personally it's also the money I spend on a hyperfixation, physical stuff too. I buy and I buy and I buy because it feels like I can never get enough of it. Once it's over I'm left with with things I don't really care about anymore. I spend money on comics just for me to not read them or I buy all seasons of a tv show on dvd just for me to only watch 10 episodes. It's all so useless but in the moment I truly don't care about where the money goes. Looking back I could've saved a ton on books, comics, cds, dvds, games, WHAT NOT.

I'm irresponsible with my money and I hate it. I hate looking at the stuff I bought with it when it does not bring me the same joy as it did when buying. I know it doesn't have to cost me money but for me it does.