u/my_best_version_ever

I relapsed Sunday midnight. I feel so bad about myself due to post nut clarity, but this report is to start again. I tripped, I didn't fall. This was my longest streak ever

I want to be better and I know what can I do to be better. The issue is I can't do it. I feel like I'm an idiot, disorganized, inattentive. I feel like I have an executive dysfunction. What can I do everyone ?

I'm losing my faith in God and Jesus Christ again. What can I do ?

I'm feeling lack of arousal right now. I want to fuck girls in my mind but I don’t get turned on or aroused by it. I feel physically disabled.

I was wondering if anyone else feels like this. I'm attracted to men and I have wet dreams with men but the only type of relationship I want with them is one of friendship and camaraderie. I don't even want to masturbate thinking about men or watch gay porn. I like women more and I would like to someday get married to one, without doing any sinful activities in the meantime. Does someone relate ?

I'm a guy with mostly women as friends ( I feel gay because of that ) , I'm currently feeling no arousal to women despite knowing I'm attracted to them as I have always done compulsions . What should I do ? I don’t want to do a compulsion by watching porn. Next Sunday it will be two weeks since I last watched porn

I feel so anxious and afraid because I feel like a total failure. I'm currently enrolling in additional courses and classes so I have a more interesting resume. I definitely have to build a growth mindset but I don't think that's gonna be enough. I can enroll to the selection process so I can represent my university in a national competition. It will give me skills and if I do well it will give me publicity and networking, but I don't have skills, intelligence or a good work ethic to get picked . I only have a desperate need to succeed but I don't think that’s gonna be enough either. I don't know how could I cope with not being picked, given that I don't have much more opportunities left. I'm doing what I can from a bad situation.

A relative of a family's friend is ill and it made me realize how much time I'm wasting. So I'm here to start again, in a few hours I'm starting day one so wish me luck

I have an exam in 24 hours , after the teacher gave us more days to study. However , I don’t think I will be able to pass the exam , as it’s gonna be very difficult. I'm trying to accept failure so I can move on with my life after the exam is failed. I think I sabotaged myself yesterday and didn’t study all the time I wanted. It’s also true that I’m tired or burnt out . What can I do ?

My IQ has gotten worse, is there anything to do
About it ? I'm so sad because I'm very dumb.
:( Thank you for reading

While I study , I tend to get distracted. I have problems reasoning when perceiving something new. So I have a problem processing images or making rational connections . My memory is also impaired, not the worst but not working at its best. Is there something I can do about it ?

So basically I have an exam tomorrow at afternoon and I’m gonna fail it . Despite studying lots of hours for this exam , it feels like I have learned nothing all the time I have been studying. The worst part is my brain is not good enough to remember all there is to the exam with the hours left . So I’m thinking of doing an all nighter. Is it worth it ? Feel like I’m gonna fail either way .

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I'm so in love you with you. I want to read everything you have ever read, I want to watch the same shows and movies you have watched , I want to listen every song you have heard , I want to learn the languages you speak, I want to revisit all our conversations, I want to read all you’ve ever written , I want to be a goth like you , I want to think like you, I want to be like you . It doesn’t matter we haven’t seen each other for years now , I still need you. Maybe this is limerence and not real love , but the. Why not having you hurts me so much ? Why are you still my Guide, my road map , my role model , my anchor after all this time ? Is there any alternative to the criteria you have set forth ? I want to have kids together , buy a house together . Or build it if that’s what you fancy . We can have lots of cats if that’s what you want. We can dance together, read the same books , create a life where we are only one.

Hello everyone, so the workload on my job has decreased to the point they are likely not going to need me anymore. So I have to get a new job, instead of hiring companies for new needs they are using AI to cope, and workers are training AI so it can replace jobs. So I was thinking of getting into a more physical demanding career.

My parents seem to lack any ethics or morals, even though they have clear political leanings. When I tell them I have problems at university, the only thing they tell me to do is to use AI . I know how to use AI ( not open-source , but I know all the apps and stuff ) but some of it use are not appropriate for an academic course. They seem to not have any ideas to help me. What can I do instead ? I have issues studying for exams and doing assignments or research.

I do everything wrong. I never listen to everyone else’s advices. I’m a serial procrastinator. I’m resistant to change . I have low openness , low conscientiousness and very high neuroticism. I have amygdala hijacks , always shush myself when anxious. All I care about is university ( edit: I don’t have anything else going on in my life apart from that and working out ) and I’m doing awful.

This is my time available , sadly. Is this enough time to learn what I should have throughout a year ?