u/weird-Ant358

a lahko prosim ne? ❤️

kot da ni zunaj ze dovolj vroce, glasno in kaoticno na ulicah….

my mother is the worst person I’ve ever met. I can’t comprehend how someone can be that evil.

when i was a kid, she would verbally, emotionally and mostly physically abuse me. she would run into my room, make me pee myself from the fear, push me down on the floor, sit on me then yell at me so much that she would spit on my face, and the pulled my hair out. And abuse me psychically in many other ways. Sometimes she dragged me out of bed, locked me out of the flat and she made me leave the block of flats in the morning when i was in my socks and PJs and i had to spend hours outside at night also in my PJs without a phone and hide from neighbours because i was embarrassed.
since i moved for uni years ago i started seeing her much less and my mental health got better, although not great because i was usually friendless etc.
now that i’m living with her, i usually have to deal with her constantly yelling, cussing me out, making fun of me, judging me for just existing. the yelling truly is a constant on the days when she’s not with her secret boyfriend but home instead. When outside, especially driving , yelling at me and strangers and calling them slurs is a constant. Example from today (what she usually does when outside: She pointed at women in burkas, for example, and said “look! look!! look at that!! !!Gosh how much I want to k1ll all of those!! The child too! I want to shoot them
in the head!! fucking scum!! this should all be killed!!!”. I was like ah shi here we go again, whatever.. and thought she’d stop when 30 seconds later she saw 2 other women in burkas in front of her car and she did the gun sign and pointed the “gun” at them and said “PEW, PEW!!!” as if she shot someone twice. This happens pretty much whenever she seems muslim people, and towards people like albanians, bosnians, romanians, any POC, any queer people (so people who are like me….), women whose looks she doesn’t like (like every 2nd woman she sees; they all look better than her), she acts either the same or similarly (like getting a whole attack of anger (spitting, using slurs etc.) because someone is skinny or fat or dressed in black (which i am daily). she often makes dangerous/illegal moves/mistakes while driving, often because she’s too busy yelling at someone, and then when other cars honk at her, she starts yelling even more and cursing the other drivers out, often based on their origin etc., because they dare to honk at her.

she’s never shown empathy towards anyone. i don’t even think she’s capable of love. when she sees her neighbor abusing his wife, with a hammer etc., she gossips about it and says it’s not her problem when i mention that she could bring it up at work since she’s a social worker or call the cops.
I’m 22 and it feels like I failed in life because i still have to be around her and I have to live with her this whole summer.

there was not a day in my life when i felt safe or happy to be alive around her.

when i was a kid, she would verbally, emotionally and mostly physically abuse me. she would run into my room, make me pee myself from the fear, push me down on the floor, sit on me then yell at me so much that she would spit on my face, and the pulled my hair out. And abuse me psychically in many other ways. Sometimes she dragged me out of bed, locked me out of the flat and she made me leave the block of flats in the morning when i was in my socks and PJs and i had to spend hours outside at night also in my PJs without a phone and hide from neighbours because i was embarrassed.
since i moved for uni years ago i started seeing her much less and my mental health got better, although not great because i was usually friendless etc.
now that i’m living with her, i usually have to deal with her constantly yelling, cussing me out, making fun of me, judging me for just existing. the yelling truly is a constant on the days when she’s not with her secret boyfriend but home instead. When outside, especially driving , yelling at me and strangers and calling them slurs is a constant. Example from today (what she usually does when outside: She pointed at women in burkas, for example, and said “look! look!! look at that!! !!Gosh how much I want to k1ll all of those!! The child too! I want to shoot them
in the head!! fucking scum!! this should all be killed!!!”. I was like ah shi here we go again, whatever.. and thought she’d stop when 30 seconds later she saw 2 other women in burkas in front of her car and she did the gun sign and pointed the “gun” at them and said “PEW, PEW!!!” as if she shot someone twice. This happens pretty much whenever she seems muslim people, and towards people like albanians, bosnians, romanians, any POC, any queer people (so people who are like me….), women whose looks she doesn’t like (like every 2nd woman she sees; they all look better than her), she acts either the same or similarly (like getting a whole attack of anger (spitting, using slurs etc.) because someone is skinny or fat or dressed in black (which i am daily). she often makes dangerous/illegal moves/mistakes while driving, often because she’s too busy yelling at someone, and then when other cars honk at her, she starts yelling even more and cursing the other drivers out, often based on their origin etc., because they dare to honk at her.

she’s never shown empathy towards anyone. i don’t even think she’s capable of love. when she sees her neighbor abusing his wife, with a hammer etc., she gossips about it and says it’s not her problem when i mention that she could bring it up at work since she’s a social worker or call the cops.
I’m 22 and it feels like I failed in life because i still have to be around her and I have to live with her this whole summer.

there was not a day in my life when i felt safe or happy to be alive around her.

do i have to go see my GP? where do i start? i googled BVD in our language but theres no results. i’m so stressed out and scared. i’m autistic and don’t have any support besides my therapist so i can only ask here.

I’m auDHd. I find reading painful/it can cause pressure in my head. why do i see see the words kinda jumping around?

idk what it is but i feel all of the above. it’s like my brain is lagging when im reading anything and words overwhelm me. this includes reading comments that are multiple lines long etc. the jumping around thing is not super obvious but it does feel like something that causes pressure in my head. and it’s like my eyes are too slow to even read what i’m typing. it all overwhelms me. i’m starting to dislike typing.

edit: i assume it’s not dyslexia since it’s not really severe, i can read words without misunderstanding them but it’s just kinda hard to read them, especially hard not to skip words. it makes me feel somewhat dizzy. best words to describe it are dizzy, overwhelmed, weird… and i find reading websites like Neurolaunch quite a lot easier than texts here on reddit or what i write while i’m writing it

idk what it is but i feel all of the above. it’s like my brain is lagging when im reading anything and words overwhelm me. this includes reading comments that are multiple lines long etc. the jumping around thing is not super obvious but it does feel like something that causes pressure in my head. and it’s like my eyes are too slow to even read what i’m typing. it all overwhelms me. i’m starting to dislike typing.

edit: i assume it’s not dyslexia since it’s not really severe, i can read words without misunderstanding them but it’s just kinda hard to read them, especially hard not to skip words. it makes me feel somewhat dizzy. best words to describe it are dizzy, overwhelmed, weird… and i find reading websites like Neurolaunch quite a lot easier than texts here on reddit or what i write while i’m writing it

I find reading painful/it can cause pressure in my head. why do i see see the words kinda jumping around?

idk what it is but i feel all of the above. it’s like my brain is lagging when im reading anything and words overwhelm me. this includes reading comments that are multiple lines long etc. the jumping around thing is not super obvious but it does feel like something that causes pressure in my head. and it’s like my eyes are too slow to even read what i’m typing. it all overwhelms me. i’m starting to dislike typing.

*i meant “could this be dyslexia?” !

edit: i assume it’s not dyslexia since it’s not really severe, i can read words without misunderstanding them but it’s just kinda hard to read them, especially hard not to skip words. it makes me feel somewhat dizzy. best words to describe it are dizzy, overwhelmed, weird… and i find reading websites like Neurolaunch quite a lot easier than texts here on reddit or what i write while i’m writing it
but i have others telling me it might be dyslexia, so im putting it here

idk what it is but i feel all of the above. it’s like my brain is lagging when im reading anything and words overwhelm me. this includes reading comments that are multiple lines long etc. the jumping around thing is not super obvious but it does feel like something that causes pressure in my head. and it’s like my eyes are too slow to even read what i’m typing. it all overwhelms me. i’m starting to dislike typing. i have to try pretty hard to read sentences and comprehend them.

could this be brain fog related ?

I find reading painful/it can cause pressure in my head. why do i see see the words kinda jumping around?

idk what it is but i feel all of the above. it’s like my brain is lagging when im reading anything and words overwhelm me. this includes reading comments that are multiple lines long etc. the jumping around thing is not super obvious but it does feel like something that causes pressure in my head. and it’s like my eyes are too slow to even read what i’m typing. it all overwhelms me. i’m starting to dislike typing. i have to try pretty hard to read sentences and comprehend them.

idk what it is but i feel all of the above. it’s like my brain is lagging when im reading anything and words overwhelm me. this includes reading comments that are multiple lines long etc. the jumping around thing is not super obvious but it does feel like something that causes pressure in my head. and it’s like my eyes are too slow to even read what i’m typing. it all overwhelms me. i’m starting to dislike typing.

edit: i assume it’s not dyslexia since it’s not really severe, i can read words without misunderstanding them but it’s just kinda hard to read them, especially hard not to skip words. it makes me feel somewhat dizzy. best words to describe it are dizzy, overwhelmed, weird… and i find reading websites like Neurolaunch quite a lot easier than texts here on reddit or what i write while i’m writing it

idk what it is but i feel all of the above. it’s like my brain is lagging when im reading anything and words overwhelm me. this includes reading comments that are multiple lines long etc. the jumping around thing is not super obvious but it does feel like something that causes pressure in my head. and it’s like my eyes are too slow to even read what i’m typing. it all overwhelms me. i’m starting to dislike typing. i have to try pretty hard to read sentences and comprehend them.

please help 😭 this is probably super silly but i tend to be anxious/overthink and overgoogle some things others don’t seem to think much about.
so, i have a psych in my uni’s city but i’m usually not there this summer (she knows) due to my sensory issues with heat, sun, burnout and due to moving out.
last week when i knew for sure i’d get to the other city that day i emailed her if i could come the same day and she have me an appointment.
now i know i’m going there tomorrow and i want to ask for an appointment for tomorrow.
will it annoy her if i ask for an appointment last minute again? i’m bad with social cues and constantly worry about potentionally annoying someone or sounding spoiled/careless in such situations.

I just got on meds last week so I’d ask her for a higher dosage that I need asap! she booked me for next week…

i got prescribed concerta on wednesday and started taking it 2 days ago. my doc gave me a check up appointment next week, but yesterday i felt like it didn’t really work anymore(?) so i’m considering to up the dosage. is there a needed adjustment period or can i ask my doc for an extra appointment tomorrow?

so i have an issue. i need 20 ECTS to apply for financial support but i have 16 atm because my prof hasn’t entered the grade for the exam i assigned i may yet. i just know that i passed it but he hasn’t entered the grade in the system. one of the mentioned deadlines is Aug 15, today.

the email with deadlines for financial support is a bit confusing so i’m asking here. lectures start on october 1st and i’ll go on orientation days on Sep 15th. when is the official exchange start and when would the deadline for this be?

pls help, I just got my first concerta 18mg after only taking it a few times as a teen. I got it now in the afternoon, it’s 3pm now and I have big problems doing any uni work and really want to get stuff done today. Is it too late to take it now? I know it can cause insomnia but I’m autistic and already have chronic sleep problems.

Also, are significant side effects common? I don’t remember any problems when I took it years ago, just no effect. I want to know what I can expect and if I should worry.

Ima kdo izkušnje z njimi? zanima me cena, terapija za ADHD in SPD pri odraslih…

hi, i’m supposed to be starting an exchange in Graz next month but I haven’t found an accommodation yet. I’m primarely looking for a flat (for one semester), as I have bad experience living with random people and because I heard landlords are very likely not to allow cats in shared apartmens, despite banning them not being legally allowed as far as I know.
it seems hard to find someone looking to make a contract for less than a year, plus some landlords still state “keine haustiere” in listings for flats, and even if they’re not allowed to kick someone out for living with an animal in it, I don’t want to risk some problems.

any tips? :,)

TW for mention of SA
i’ve been debating the selfishness of human reproduction with someone on reddit who didn’t like me linking the list of 100+ reasons not to have kids, and this is the last part of their essay response: “Yes, someone could rape them, but does that devalue their entire life to the point that it would have been better if they had never been born?”

idk, i don’t understand anything anymore. what is humanity even

i wanted to use some arguments and buy merch, but it’s gone

i have a pretty new therapist who i think also works with new parents to help them on their parenting yourney or whatever, and i did a kind of emergency booking for this week because i was somewhat depressed but now im a lot more depressed after i found out my fresh out of hs relative is having a baby soon. i have so much to vent about it, it’s making me have SI. it’s like the tiny bit of hope i had left for life is now gone and since it’s strongly related to AN, i don’t know if i should even communicate that with her.

edit: she’s married to a cis woman and most likely childfree. also, i once told a therapist with multiple kids that i’m AN 😅