u/804k

So, I am still new here and I work in Electronics, I got keys and a number, been here for 2 weeks now so for the first 2 weeks I used the keys

HOWEVER, they just installed digital locks yesterday and holy shit they're so bad

You have to hold your phone up to the locks, but then it takes like 5s sometimes, sometimes instantly. Sometimes you have to refresh the app, sometimes you the lock doesn't open for 3s, sometimes its instantly, sometimes it doesn't even work and you gotta restart the app (Combined with the fact the app just doesn't log you in sometimes and you gotta restart it)

Digital locks is a good idea, but man, just make it a card not your phone, if the digital locks are already connected to a system, then why not just have it be a card that only works when youre clocked in (It needs to communicate that you have permission to use the lock - why not also include that youre clocked in?)

The only upside I've seen is you can open up multiple locks at once (Like for Nintendo games), but in reality thats such an edge case that it doesn't outweigh it being so bad

CW: Abuse, death

Hello, and, my last suicide attempt was 290 days ago. My last self harm attempt was 37 days ago (relapse) and.. I feel normal.

Im 18, I've been suicidal since I was 14. I began self harming after my dad passed.

I recently hit my lowest point ever, the only thing stopping me from attempting to commit something was my dad.. he passed from lung cancer in 2024.

After that, it was just my mom and oh, its been horrible with her especially now that I've turned 18, but let's go to the start.

I remember in the hospital room, half an hour before he flatlined, holding his hand for the last time before he ultimately died. I remember seeing him just a couple of weeks before walking, now dead. Im crying writing this, i wish I could just appreciate him more, i wish I could've just thanked him for all he's done before he died, maybe he heard me saying sorry for all the stuff I've done but, ultimately, I was a kid.

After that, my mom got bad, she was a bit worse before but usually my dad could help.

I remember my first cuts like it was yesterday, I would say stuff about it but thats glorifying - I cut myself over 100 times, nothing past the epidermis (because the thing I used was improvised), by the time I was done my arm was red, not from blood (They didnt bleed much), just from cuts.

I've only ever self harmed on my arms, after that I began actively self harming, like fully active. I had a job and bought something i shouldnt have, and, when things got worse with my mom, instead of killing myself id self harm.

I remember sleeping at my old job in the McDonalds' break room because I walked from my house to McDonalds since I didnt feel safe.

Oh yeah: my mom hates the world, she bitches at everything she can. I've seperated myself from her (I still do "live" at her house), but she just cannot find happiness so she must drain them from others.

So, how did it get better? I got a boyfriend (Im gay), and, I got a new job (Got laid off by my old job **while** I was in a mental hospital)

I've been to St.Louis, and Nashville (Im from Aurora, IL), toured Chinatown, Chicago, ive had so much fun with him, he's genuinely the reason why Im *fine*

I've called him so many times at midnight just crying, I cant imagine hearing the person you love saying "Please give me any reason, anything just to not {enter suicide method here}" (This was one of the phonecalls)

My mom is trying to kick me out because I do "no" work (I do housework, however, I dont do labor because of her attitude (Lawncare is fine, tending to weeds or the garden, fine, but construction? No, thats a boundary that she wants crossed. I recently fixed up her gas 2 stroke weed wacker recently.. thats *fine*, just when we want to build a garden thats where I have to put up a boundary)

So, there's been so many times in the past months where I've just been crying over the phone to him, I love him and I thank him so much for what hes done, if he wasn't here I would be dead

I also just recently got a job, I use a bicycle to and from it (Its 10.5 miles there, 11.5 miles back) and, I cant ask for more its fine, takes me ~an hour but hey, no gas money and free exercise (Totally not just me being poor)

Anyways, its 12:30 and I need to sleep, gn

So, keep in mind this bike is already bought, and, its been a commuter for me. I was wondering if it would be worth it to upgrade this bicycle or get a new one, but since the cost of the upgrades do not seem to outweight the cost of getting a new bike, what would be the downsides of upgrading this bike (Besides resell value lol)?

My issues with the bike is the brakes (Stock ones are.. cheap, I've used the Star Union 240PYD, and 220PYD Pro and they have been PHENOMINAL brakes for their pricing, highly HIGHLY recommend to anyone looking for cheap hydros.. genuinely, the 240PY is the same as the 240PYD, it just doesn't have a cutoff sensor so I know they'll already be good)

I also checked the part spacing and everything, only thing I'm iffy on is the cranks, but I could find new ones for $30-70 that will fit as they are just standard 2 piece square/diamond taper cranks

BTW, the Axia comes with a derailleur hanger and 160mm DISC brakes, and a 1x7 SHIMANO groupset so I do not have to change out the wheels and the bike wont be trashed after 1 bent hanger, the Shimano groupset is kinda why I want to upgrade since microShift will be compatible and they are good value

Full Parts List:

Front Derailleur ($18) - https://www.bicyclesetc-il.com/product/microshift-mezzo-front-derailleur-377474-1.htm?variations=329848,329850,329851,329852,329853

Rear Derailleur ($18) - https://www.redrockbicycle.com/products/microshift-estes-rear-derailleur?id=7038f264d93c3ac3af502c1965959d47feb586ccd81e03602e58d5d5c1e9d41f

Left Shifter ($15) - https://www.performancebike.com/microshift-estes-thumb-tap-mountain-shifter-black-w-optical-gear-indicator-ts200-2l/p1790502?v=1788909

Right Shifter ($15) - https://www.performancebike.com/microshift-estes-thumb-tap-mountain-shifter-black-w-optical-gear-indicator-ts200-9r/p1790502?v=1788911

Cranks ($33) - https://www.performancebike.com/shimano-tourney-fca070-crankset-black-2-x-7-8-speed-square-taper-efca070c04c/p1277470?v=306204

Chain ($14.30) - https://kmcchain.us/collections/8-speed-chains/products/z8-1

Everything hydro ($45) - https://www.starunion-store.com/products/240py

Tires ($60, 35-622) - https://www.schwalbetires.com/Schwalbe-G-One-Comp-Plus

Left shifter cable ($15) - https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0050LUBZ8?lv=shuf&channelId=500&plpRedirect=mhFallback&th=1

===

Total: $233.30

Total cost of bike: $461.30 (Not including tax BESIDES the Star Union brakes [They don't collect tax for some reason], but bike companies don't include tax anyways)

Please leave your feedback :)

100 miles = 161km

200 miles = 322km

400 miles = 644km

1000 miles = 1609km

2000 miles = 3219km

Im asking since it seems like Im doing a part replacement every 500 miles on my bike, I have put over 2700 miles (4345km) on it so far

View Poll