I lost my shit today.
I recently was exposed to scabies at work and the last two days I been itching..no pimple like marks but just itchy come raised bumps but disappear..the nape of my neck was so itchy I know probably worse because I kept scratching. I been scrolling Reddit for info and symptoms vary for everyone so I was convinced. I have a 2 year old and a 4 month old I dragged with me to the walk in clinic. The doctor didn’t even look just prescribed cream..which I’m supposed to wear for 12 hours?!? Head to toe?!?? How ?!? I have two kids who literally touch me non stop. The thought of all of use getting scabies is literally my nightmare rn. I washed all the bedding vacuumed while my toddler wailed because she’s terrified of the vacuum..I showered with lice shampoo because someone said it helps and my scalp is so dry and itchy. I changed my kids clothes and washed in hot water..I didn’t get my toddler to bed until 1130 and now I’m just awake praying I don’t have scabies and this is all I’m my head. I lost it on my toddler I told her to stop crying as I was vacuuming and showering.. I refused to pick her up until I showeredbecause all I can think about is skin contact and giving it to her ..but she doesn’t understand so all she sees is mom refusing to pick her up…I neglected my baby today by also not picking him up only to feed. And I just want this to be over and I don’t even know if I’m really infected!
I’m losing it.