u/Captain_Blackjack0

Things like ChatGPT pretty much started right in the middle of university. I began to use it for a while until I learned about how bad it was for the environment. So I simply stopped for a while. Then later on I had gotten into a really bad place mental health wise to the point where I said “fuck it” and used AI for a little bit of time and just barely scrapped by on my work.

Since then I’ve gotten better in terms of mental health and have started a new semester. Because of some fuck ups from the university software I got my books really late so I’m pretty behind. I found some AI called Viro which claims to be neutral for the environment, but the more research I do the more it’s obvious that’s all bullshit. I do have my books now but I’m much more a visual learner rather than a verbal learner so if there’s any non-AI websites I could use to help me study that would be greatly appreciated.

I’ve been searching for any other answers on Reddit but most of them are just snarky ass “just use your brain, dummy” comments that don’t solve anything. I just want to find websites that work with the way that I learn. I understand AI is wrong and I was wrong for using it as I was in a horrible state of mind when using it. I’m trying to go 100% AI free

Enough of my life story. I’m currently studying Statics and Differential Equations which I find pretty difficult. Like I said before, any resources would be greatly appreciated. Thanks!

Thinking of redoing my walls and wanted a Pantheress poster. I will either buy it online or save an image and print it myself. I want something a little minimalist or classy I guess. I’d also like some cool fanart of her if ya got any that would work well as a poster. In fact Fanart would be what I prefer. And yes. I am the guy who dreamed up the poster of her kneeling with an RPG. Thanks!

I really wanna learn how to draw dogs. I know that there are probably YouTube videos about it, but I prefer using paper books. If I go off of YouTube there will probably be videos pulling you in every direction. I also just like the feeling of paper. I’ve been really liking Figure Drawing For All Its Worth so anything like that is a plus. Thanks!

I (21m?) have been questioning for a while and from the questions I have asked online the general consensus is "try hrt for a while and see how you feel". My family is super conservative and, being a college student, I am kind of under their wing. Because of this I may try hrt but just find some back alley place to buy it and take it in secret. Unfortunately there is a very odd caveat to this: my family loves to boat. I myself have never been a fan of boating and I'm always trying to find some way to weasel my way out of going with them. I only usually go on it if it's a birthday or anything and they can guilt trip me into it. I usually keep my shirt on even if I am on the boat but if I need to swim or out on a life jacket I'd have to take it off. If I'm on hormones and growing breasts how exactly could I hide this? also I'm a very hairy guy and it would be very noticeable if all my body hair fell off. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. I don't know much about this whole hormone thing so maybe I'm being an idiot and if so then tell me. Thanks!

A long time ago when I was a kid I heard that people could survive only on potatoes and butter as they contain all the nutrients needed for one to live. Turns out that was an urban myth that’s completely wrong. The only nugget of truth is that potatoes (skin included) do contain a good fraction of your daily nutrients.

That begs the question: could you make a loaded potato that has toppings that could round out the rest of your daily needs. All toppings must be at least somewhat appropriate as loaded potato toppings. Quantity/ size isn’t a problem as this potato diet would require multiple potatoes a day so you could just mix and match throughout the day. I love asking stupid questions on Reddit and this is keeping up at night, man

When I started college, I went to a local private Christian college with the intention of studying animation. Unfortunately that major took portfolios and I got rejected twice. I decided I'd take some time studying film as sort of an alternative. I made a couple of short films and did some editing which I particularly enjoyed. Later on I felt annoyed by how sheltering the college was and had some friend drama so I transferred. I'm kind of a nature hippie and I needed to justify to my parents the switch so I went to a technical college and began on nuclear engineering.

As time went on in this college I began to think back and ask myself "what the hell am I doing?" and "have I just sealed my fate?". I have always been more artsy than analytical. Since the artsy side has been taken away, I feel more empty than ever. Almost all the friends I have from my old college I never even got the chance to say goodbye to. The film professors really liked me and saw potential in me. I have practically zero friends here. From where I am now my only future will be me getting thrown into an office... and that's it. And that scares me to death. I always have found science interesting, but engineering is just so soulless. All the engineering students I've met have just been frat guys who only care about lining their own pockets.

The only advice I've gotten from others has been just the generic "just make money, that's all the worth you have to anyone". Or "use the engineering money to fund artistic projects". Thing is, "engineer" is a title I don't want to have. Ever since I was a kid people have always thought I was some smart guy who's just gonna make tons of money. Even though it seems positive, I've always hated that assumption. If I do engineering, that would be proving those people right. I'm also afraid that my spark will be gone by the time I finish this degree and just become numb. I've always wanted to be a more rebellious person, but right now I feel like a tool.

Above everything I fear, like everyone else on the planet, that I will end up like my dad. He wasn't an engineer but a finance advisor. He always hated his job but made a ton of money off of it. He would use that money to buy things like boats, jet skis, crap like that. Despite this he always acted so miserable. So my biggest fear is becoming an "unfulfilled rich douche" I guess.

My whole college escapades have been funded by my parents, as implied before. A lot of the crap I have right now is owned/ bought by them. It makes just feel like a spoiled child above anything. And it makes me feel really weak in terms of control over my life.

Last quarter I was having mental breakdowns pretty much every night. To the point where I'm afraid I'm gonna hurt myself or someone else. My grades are godawful. I don't know how I'm gonna survive this coming semester. I feel as if my life is over.

Enough whining. Here's what my options are:

Get interdisciplinary studies degree: with the credits I have in both NE and film I could probably get my degree in both with a gen ed degree and try to find just some cubicle job and see what I can make of that life or teach English in China. I heard that's a good gig. May be cut-off by family if that's the case

Grit and bear it: finish my NE degree and pray to God I don't go postal

Drop out: scorched Earth, interdisciplinary studies degree option but slightly dumber.

any advice is greatly appreciated. I'll answer any questions as long if they're not too invasive and am open to other options

When I started college, I went to a local private Christian college with the intention of studying animation. Unfortunately that major took portfolios and I got rejected twice. I decided I'd take some time studying film as sort of an alternative. I made a couple of short films and did some editing which I particularly enjoyed. Later on I felt annoyed by how sheltering the college was and had some friend drama so I transferred. I'm kind of a nature hippie and I needed to justify to my parents the switch so I went to a technical college and began on nuclear engineering.

As time went on in this college I began to think back and ask myself "what the hell am I doing?" and "have I just sealed my fate?". I have always been more artsy than analytical. Since the artsy side has been taken away, I feel more empty than ever. Almost all the friends I have from my old college I never even got the chance to say goodbye to. The film professors really liked me and saw potential in me. I have practically zero friends here. From where I am now my only future will be me getting thrown into an office... and that's it. And that scares me to death. I always have found science interesting, but engineering is just so soulless. All the engineering students I've met have just been frat guys who only care about lining their own pockets.

The only advice I've gotten from others has been just the generic "just make money, that's all the worth you have to anyone". Or "use the engineering money to fund artistic projects". Thing is, "engineer" is a title I don't want to have. Ever since I was a kid people have always thought I was some smart guy who's just gonna make tons of money. Even though it seems positive, I've always hated that assumption. If I do engineering, that would be proving those people right. I'm also afraid that my spark will be gone by the time I finish this degree and just become numb. I've always wanted to be a more rebellious person, but right now I feel like a tool.

Above everything I fear, like everyone else on the planet, that I will end up like my dad. He wasn't an engineer but a finance advisor. He always hated his job but made a ton of money off of it. He would use that money to buy things like boats, jet skis, crap like that. Despite this he always acted so miserable. So my biggest fear is becoming an "unfulfilled rich douche" I guess.

My whole college escapades have been funded by my parents, as implied before. A lot of the crap I have right now is owned/ bought by them. It makes just feel like a spoiled child above anything. And it makes me feel really weak in terms of control over my life.

Last quarter I was having mental breakdowns pretty much every night. To the point where I'm afraid I'm gonna hurt myself or someone else. My grades are godawful. I don't know how I'm gonna survive this coming semester. I feel as if my life is over.

Enough whining. Here's what my options are:

Get interdisciplinary studies degree: with the credits I have in both NE and film I could probably get my degree in both with a gen ed degree and try to find just some cubicle job and see what I can make of that life or teach English in China. I heard that's a good gig. May be cut-off by family if that's the case

Grit and bear it: finish my NE degree and pray to God I don't go postal

Drop out: scorched Earth, interdisciplinary studies degree option but slightly dumber.

any advice is greatly appreciated. I'll answer any questions as long if they're not too invasive and am open to other options

When I initially went to college I majored in film production. I enjoyed it, but the university was very religious/sheltered and some friend drama made me want to transfer. I decide, pretty impulsively, to go to some technical college and study engineering. I'm kind of a nature hippie so that seemed like an alright choice. I knew my parents didn't care much for my film interests so I chose something more "useful". They were very hyped for this big change in my life.

This is about my second semester in that major and it's just starting to sink in how screwed I am. I really dislike both engineering as a major and as a career. I understand it can make tons of money and has good opportunities (especially considering I live in Tennessee), but honestly I don't really have any interest in a "rich worker bee" lifestyle. I've never really had any interest in consumerism nor do I really have any financial obligations (I'm 21 from an upper middle class family with no plans in starting a family). I guess what really makes me happy is creating things. I'm just that kind of person I guess.

Now that I think about making those movies back in film class, those moments were probably one of the only times in my life when I was really happy. I had friends. The professors saw potential in me. I could have really had a career in something I enjoy and I just gave it up because I was a coward. Now I have pretty much nothing. 

Unfortunately my scholarship money will expire if I change my major again (unless it's anything close like any other engineering discipline, physics, chemistry, math etc...). I feel like I have dug myself a hole that I can't escape from. Anytime I tell the few people I can talk to about it, they just assume that I dislike the course work when I really hate everything about it. Most people older than me just give that "you sweet summer child" bs that doesn't help at all.

The worst part is, engineering is a difficult major. I have to do all this work for something I absolutely hate. Anytime I hear anyone talk about how passionate they are about their major I have to suppress the urge to cry, as I have locked myself in a career path I couldn't ever see myself happy in. I can't see any possible future in which I am even mildly happy. I guess I just need some reason to do all this work as it's hard to stay motivated to study when you feel like you've doomed yourself to mediocrity. I need something concrete to work towards. The only advice I've been given is “sit down, shut the hell up, and make money”. These people don’t seem  to understand that this is the sort of problem money and hedonism isn’t gonna give me any motivation, I need to actually feel like I’m working towards living rather than surviving. I guess the root of this is that I’ve always wanted to be known as a creative person. My whole life I’ve been known as “the smart guy who’s gonna give everyone status and money” and I’ve always hated it. Everything I say falls on deaf ears because of the general culture around engineering. The entire engineering philosophy is based on “suffer in college and be happy later” so no one really takes what I say seriously.

I’ve been filming a lot of Helldivers 2 gameplay I’ve been doing for a while and thought it would be fun to edit it into a funny montage and throw it on YouTube. I usually listen to Steely Dan while playing so I thought I would edit that music in there. Of course if I just did that YouTube would siphon all potential money made by that video to Universal (as if they’re strapped for cash). This may be a little entitled of me, but I’d rather use some music with recognition rather than some generic stock music. I don’t really know the ins and outs of copyright so I don’t know if there’s any way to bypass this so any help would be greatly appreciated!