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I have terrible bone pain caused by a side effect from a drug I have to take for cancer. When people ask me what it feels like I struggle to find the words to describe it but the closest I can get to try to help someone understand that’s never experienced it is:

it feels like if there was a barbed wire going through my bone marrow, with the sharp points going up and down randomly and literally scraping the inside of my bone. It’s such a deep, sharp and incredibly painful experience and deeply throbbing as well. Just curious how it feels to others afflicted with this torment.

I ask bc my GP suggested a brand of digestive enzymes to help with feeling so bloated all the time. And esp after eating. But when I asked if it would interfere with my extended release med he wasn’t sure and said to ask my pain doc. I will ask tomorrow at my appt but just curious if anyone here takes both and if they’ve ever had an issue with them?

Been suddenly feeling apathetic the past week and a half and had no clue what was causing it. I started entering in every supplement I took and doing research on them—then a clear “winner” rose to the top. I started taking regular black pepper/ashwaganda supplements 3 weeks ago. And what I’ve found in side effects for this supplement is that it can cause an emotional numbness effect. I hate feeling so apathetic, it’s honestly reminding me of the depression I went through almost 15 years ago—like I was slowly on a downward spiral towards complete hopelessness.

Anyway, I immediately stopped it-so it’s only been 48 hrs without but I just was curious if anyone else had this happen with it?

Why didn’t >!Angela drag Ian down with her when she pled guilty? It’s not like she was the type of person to have any remorse, we already knew she faked cancer.!<

And secondly, did she fake the pregnancy or did they fake the pregnancy together? Bc she was already helping him with his vendetta against Michelle, so why was Angela faking the twins?

If Ian really didn’t know the twins were faked—why did Ian go to the police after he found out the twins were faked—ESP knowing he was in on the whole thing? Why not just leave it alone since Michelle was already in prison?

Edit: just wanted to add THANK God he did go to the police with the fake twins thing, but he didn’t do himself any favors and I keep wondering about this bit of it 🤔

I have kids now and all I can think is why didn’t my mom help me? I never would have brought it up on my own as a child, I felt like I had the worst case of acne compared to everyone at my school and I felt like a freak. And tbh, I probably was in at least the top 5 or 10 of “worst cases.” I would get home from school, go straight to the bathroom, sit on the counter (so I could be closer to the mirror to PICK!?) and check how bad my makeup looked.

Then I would spend the next 30-45 min picking at my face and squeezing as much as I could out. Only to be left inflamed and swollen, and sometimes I would squeeze so hard my fingers would slip and rip a chunk of skin off my face. Then I would hide in my room so my parents and siblings couldn’t see the “evidence.” I would cry while trying to do homework.

If someone would have just sat me down and told me how to deal with acne, how to properly wash, not to pick, and taken me to the dr—don’t get me wrong—I would have been mortified (bc I hated talking about it)—but I would have been so much better off and even though mortified I would have been grateful for the help. Instead, I now deal with alllll the scars and reminders.

Anyway, I will never do this to my kids. Whatever it takes, I will help them. I won’t force anything on them but they will damn sure know that I’m here and I don’t care about how much money something costs, I am here to help. <sigh>

This months “attack” is trying to kill me. I just needed to vent. But my gosh, anyone else feel like a different person to the extreme, lowest mood ever? I hate it.

When this happens, what do you do for a little “pick me up?” I’m in such a low mood I can’t even think straight.

My daughter wants one but I have no clue which vendors to trust. Thanks!

Luckily was able to grab one online with only 2 sizes left. I just wanted to pass that along to anyone interested in it! I plan to wear mine sans charms as an accent bracelet. But they only have a few left so if you have had it on your radar, now is the time. I suggest buying two charms and getting it for free since the sale is still ongoing. I pd 92 bucks for 2 charms and the paper clip bracelet (and the bracelet is normally 86 on its own but i got it free with buying 2 charms that i plan to put on a necklace)

I meant to make this post at the top of
The week but Monday got away from me. For all of us still getting appt or refill anxiety this post is for YOU! Let’s support eachother.:)

First thing to remember is that our bodies betray us. There is no reason to feel any anxiety when going to the dr and logically, we all know that. But it doesn’t stop how we feel, does it?

If you have an appt today or this week and get anxiety for whatever reason, pls say hi and check in. Let’s give each other some support! Chronic pain can be so lonely at times. I have an appt tomorrow morning. I am quite calm about it this month and that’s in no small part to everyone here. I still don’t know why my body causes me anxiety about it bc I never have anything to really worry about but I suppose isn’t that true about most of anxiety? That none of it really is warranted? I suppose that’s why man made anxiety meds in the first place 😅!

Anyway, wishing everyone anxiety free appts and no issues with refills and then finally a low pain month! Hugs all! 🤗

Ps-speaking of anxiety, has anyone read the book “the power of now”? I recently was inspired to read it and am half way through and it’s very interesting and enlightening. It makes so much sense and is helping to ground me through some of my appt anxiety. I would def recommend based on what I’ve read so far!

The new discovery set they made avail in July comes out to 4.73$ per ml whereas a bottle of their juice costs 5.14$

If you are on the fence about them, want to try MFK 540, or esp if you are in the market to get one, it just makes sense to stock up and get a few of the discovery kits considering the much lower price point! Just wanted to share! It’s $70 bucks! Which is unheard of for MFK frags

I find it interesting when I was researching his conditions in prison, it says he has “no money on the books” no access to television and only 3 hrs of rec time per every 7 days.

He is away from Gen pop and is escorted to and from the shower every other day and can only make calls during the days he showers. No outside visitors allowed. But the final part that said “he has no money” on the books” is what surprised me.

Wonder if they froze all of his accounts? Does this mean maybe mom and dad aren’t supporting their golden boy anymore? Could they have a change of heart after hearing all the current evidence and that’s why no money on the books? Dude must be rotting if he can’t even buy anything from the commissary.

My best friend since junior high’s mom passed last year. In fact, just yesterday was the one year mark and she posted about it, which is what reminded me that I still haven’t sent her anything…before calling me a bad friend, pls read the “complicated” part:

For background: said friend and I met when I w 11 or 12 yrs old. We hit it off instantly and were inseparable until we went to college. During college we sort of drifted due to us being so far away and also due to boys/men..,it’s a long story. But even through all of that, we’ve been there for eachother for the major ups and downs life has thrown, and BOY have there been some doozy’s…

Fast forward to around Covid hitting, I started experiencing weird symptoms, stuff my PCP and even 2,3,4th opinion pcps couldn’t figure out. The symptoms were SO bad but there were so many it would take forever to type them all but if we just say the worst of them you’ll get a better understanding—short term memory loss, debilitating insomnia and headaches, seizures, extreme weight loss, and finally, an MRI finds a brain tumor. But when my pcp forwards the findings to what she called “the best neurosurgeon” in all of (our state) my hope is dashed when he looks at me at my fist appt and asks, “which cancer center would you feel most comfortable at?”

Long long story medium, I ended up having not just the tumors but cancer that was unrelated to the brain tumor and so I had surgery to remove the cancer but also brain surgery to remove the tumor. I was not myself. And while I had finished having all of my surgeries, her mom died and I couldn’t go to the funeral bc I was still so very sick and recovering from those surgeries.

Then, when I finally start feeling more like myself, and cancer is starting to be beat down into the depths from whence it came, the reality sunk down: omg my bff’s mom died and I basically only said “ I’m so sorry. She’s so proud of you, as am I. I’ll call you tomorrow but also I know you are probably getting a ton of notifications so if you need to ignore it, pls do, and we can talk when you get a moment to breathe. ILY”

So that was it. Thanks to the crazy health issues I had going on I forgot to send a card, flowers, etc..like I just send a txt and called her (we are across the country from eachother) and I feel like a terrible friend.

But I wanted to give her something special, esp this being the one year mark after her mom died. And I am usually a creative person but my mind is drawing a complete blank on this. Pleas help!!! (One idea I had was taking a comment her mom had made on one of her social media posts that literally tells her how proud she is of her, it was a major milestone event so it’s about 1 paragraph long but it’s so sweet) and having it engraved onto something? But idk if that is dumb. I’m also neurodivergent lol so I always second guess things.) ty so much for your help i really want to give her sometime special and for her to know how much she is loved not just be me but by her mom who was always her biggest fan.
Ty everyone

Just curious. Cause it seems so plain and simple—I mean I like the dress and I plan to wear it but what’s so special about it?