u/Deep_Divide_3158

Jodi's birthday is coming up, and I was wondering if there were any small things we could do to show her she’s remembered and loved? Maybe there's a way we could send a digital birthday card graphic we designed, or something like that. I want to do something special for her, since she’s held up so well throughout these years despite people trying to get her to give up. Alot of people wouldn't have been able to make it through, plus being as productive as she is.

I often wonder about how i’ll look when i pass. So hyper concerned on if I’ll have a beautiful outfit on that doesn’t fit too tight but not too big. If my hair will be a mess or if it’ll look laid out perfectly, so tame it looks unreal. If the people who find me will think i’m ugly, or chubby. Secretly hoping that they will think I’m “such a loss” due to how beautiful I am. I think alot of us subconsciously think about the way we will look when it’s our time. & that shows how piercing the grasp of misogyny and the patriarchy is on our lives as women. I hope you all are well ❤️

jodi before vs. jodi incarcerated

cookies- in her diary she wrote about baking cookies multiple times
gasoline- in her diary she wrote about driving long distances alot
fog- the looming fog her deppressive/suicidal thoughts + toxic relationship had over her life
powdery notes- makeup
bourbon vanilla- idk she looks like she would like vanilla scents to me but not basic vanilla sugar. & i needed a actual perfume scent

metallic notes- prison bars ofc
beeswax- colored pencils for her art
cheesecake- according to her substack she bakes alot of them
old books- job at the library
powdery notes- makeup

Anyways this is just a cute fun post for supporters :)

One comment I got months ago on one of my posts about how Jodi still looks naturally beautiful as she ages in prison was, “ Why does she look Latina here?” I had never thought about it before, as I knew she was also Mexican. But she indeed does look more Mexican in her updated prison photos than in her popular photos before entering prison. The light blonde hair contributes to her looking more fully Caucasian. Maybe Jodi wanted to keep up the platinum blonde hair due to her feeling the need to present herself as more white in society to be accepted. Along with insecurity with her ethnicity.

When in prison, races are sometimes sectioned off into groups. Maybe she is surrounded by such a large population of latina women, that it's prompting her to explore that side more.

I think her case also cautions others never to lose themselves in the process of trying to be accepted. Along with cautioning people of color never to feel pressured to hide themselves to appease a white audience. Because they unfortunately will never accept you or see you as genuinely equal. She tried really hard to be accepted by Travis and his friends, but never was. Instead, she was made fun of behind her back. Feeling like he destroyed her sense of self probably hurt her deeply as well. Sometimes it feels like prison has its benefits. She doesn’t have to perform anymore.